One step at a time...

[slimpip]

OK you majorly out starwars'd we there Stacy. Showed me up good and proper lol. Padawan it is!

Whoa that guy sounds amazing, what an inspiration! I feel like my goal is really puny now lol, but I wanna do things in small steps and see how I feel at each stage.

Did you sleep ok Stacy? 4am was laaaaaate x

 

[Stacy]

OK you majorly out starwars'd we there Stacy. Showed me up good and proper lol. Padawan it is!

Whoa that guy sounds amazing, what an inspiration! I feel like my goal is really puny now lol, but I wanna do things in small steps and see how I feel at each stage.

Did you sleep ok Stacy? 4am was laaaaaate x

hahah Yeah, I'm a total Sci-Fi geek!

Isn't that guy amazing? He did it all with diet and exercise! He didn't take the surgery way out, which would have been much easier for him. He worked and sweated out every single one of those 400 lbs! He's awesome!

I slept great! Thank you for asking! I slept in until like noon. lol

How are you doing today, hon?

 

[slimpip]

Well it's 12.30 at night here so I'll be off to bed in a bit. Just got back from this amazing pub quiz and my team won!!! Whoop whoop, I knew university would help me in some way hahahahaha.

That's what I wanna do, I want my weight loss to be down to blood, sweat and tears, not pills, surgery or milkshakes. Then, I'll know I've achieved it myself and can enjoy it 100%. What you upto today then Stacy? x

 

[Stacy]

Just got back from this amazing pub quiz and my team won!!! Whoop whoop, I knew university would help me in some way hahahahaha.

Congratulations on the quiz win! hahah University hard at work!

That's what I wanna do, I want my weight loss to be down to blood, sweat and tears, not pills, surgery or milkshakes. Then, I'll know I've achieved it myself and can enjoy it 100%.

EXACTLY! If you do it the surgery way or with some pill you can't really say that you got to your goal by nothing but your own will power! Being able to stand on that scale weighing 140 lbs and being able to say - "Yes!!! I did that! All me and nothing but me!" That will be such a joy! And then I will know there is nothing in this world that I can't accomplish if I set my mind to it!

What am I up to? Nothing much, just enjoying my Sunday! Watching some episodes of Nip/Tuck on Netflix and doing some health research. I'm getting ready to enjoy some aerobics here in about an hour. Dang I love the feeling I get after I exercise! I always feel so good! I'm like addicted to it now. hahah If I don't exercise every day now I just don't feel right.

If I don't talk to you before you go to bed - Have a good night~! I'll talk to you tomorrow. *hugs*

 

[ecky1]

OK you majorly out starwars'd we there Stacy. Showed me up good and proper lol. Padawan it is!

LOL me too Stacy. My son grew up constantly watching Star Wars videos, had his whole bedroom decorated with star wars and played with the toys but I don't think I have ever sat through a whole film. I don't even know what a Padawan is.
That just shows that I'm not much of a Yoda after all
Looking forward to going to the gym today as I haven't had time this weekend and am desperate to jump on the treadmill and run.
Are you changing University as you will be moving to London or will you be working there?
I was born in Luton so not far from where you will be living.
Have a great day.

 

[Stacy]

LOL me too Stacy. My son grew up constantly watching Star Wars videos, had his whole bedroom decorated with star wars and played with the toys but I don't think I have ever sat through a whole film. I don't even know what a Padawan is.
That just shows that I'm not much of a Yoda after all
Looking forward to going to the gym today as I haven't had time this weekend and am desperate to jump on the treadmill and run.
Are you changing University as you will be moving to London or will you be working there?
I was born in Luton so not far from where you will be living.
Have a great day.

hahah Your son sounds like a cool guy!

That's so great you have access to a gym. I really loved having a gym on my vacation and I miss is more than I ever thought I would.

 

[slimpip]

I couldn't agree more Stacy...I selfishly want that self satisfaction and by the time I get to goal weight, I'll bloody well deserve it lol. I can't say I'm addicted to exercise, nowhere near, but I don't hate it and for now that's pretty awesome as it wasn't long ago I could think of nothing worse.

Eckymans, I've been out of university for a year. I went to Leeds. Loved every second. However, I want to be a primary school teacher so need to do a PGCE. By September 2011 I will have had two years off to work and earn enough money to move to London with my friend Emily. That gives me 13 months to get slim, healthy and gorgeous enough to give those London girls a run for their money hehehe.

Thanks Stacy and Eckymans, you're support is great. Hope you are both well x

 

[slimpip]

I just had one of those wake up moments. I went into town to meet a friend for lunch, so decided to pop into the supermarket to grab a sandwich. Without even thinking about it I bought a meal deal, because it's cheap and that's what I'm used to getting.

1 x prawn mayo sandwich 355kcal
1 x apple juice 155kcal (41% daily allowance of sugar!!!!)
1 x ready salted crisps 200kcal

I walked out of the shop and literally stopped in my tracks. What did I just do? Why on earth did I just buy crisps when I don't need them and apple juice which is full of sugar? But, I'm really proud of myself, OK I made the mistake of buying them in the first place, but I realised the mistake and gave away my crisps and juice in return for a bottle of water. Waste of money? YES, waste of calories? NO SIREE. Normally my logic would be...well you've bought them now, may as well eat/drink them. Not today ladies!!

I really think it's the accountability this diary offers me that is stopping me from making the same mistakes I always have. Proud moment hehe. I have a fitball class later, lots of squats and lunges and generally feeling very unattractive for an hour hehe. The price of beauty...

 

[Holly88]

Hey Pip!

Funnily enough I dance well in a night club, but when a routine is involved, it's like my limbs aren't linked to my brain.

Haha this made me laugh a lot because that's exactly what I'm like. I've never been to a dance gym class but even the aerobics classes have too many moves for my brain to comprehend. I try to make up for the rubbish co-ordination by being enthusiastic - even if I'm doing it wrong, I'm doing it wrong with gusto!

I love pub quizzes btw, it's a great part of Uni for me haha. Keeps the stress away, although sometimes I get into stupid (usually wine fuelled) arguments about trivia with my friend haha.

Really well done for handing back the crisps and apple juice Pip! I think I might've just resigned myself to failure for the day if that happened to me. I'm such an all-or-nothing kind of person sometimes!

Thanks again for writing in my diary, I love that I'm getting to know all these other people with similar goals to me

 

[slimpip]

Hey Holly, welcome to my diary. Yeah it's great to get some regular buddies going so we can support each other. I'm loving your diary too, definitely considering this 30day shred. Wouldn't it be fab, if, in 30days you could be definably fitter and slimmer?

I'm doing the August 10llb challenge, find it in the challenge section. Holly you should join too.

Just mentally preparing myself for fitball, it hurts my abs (although it's nice to know they're in there somewhere hehe). X

 

[Stacy]

What did I just do? Why on earth did I just buy crisps when I don't need them and apple juice which is full of sugar? But, I'm really proud of myself, OK I made the mistake of buying them in the first place, but I realised the mistake and gave away my crisps and juice in return for a bottle of water. Waste of money? YES, waste of calories? NO SIREE. Normally my logic would be...well you've bought them now, may as well eat/drink them. Not today ladies!!

I'm so proud of you! That is wonderful! Even though they where in your hands you still had it in you to realize you didn't really want or need them and gave them away! It would have been so easy to eat them, yet you had the strength not to. That's awesome!

 

[slimpip]

THANKS STACY. You've really put a smile on my face. I'm feeling so motivated and happy at the moment. To everyone who is supporting me....


thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou!!

How you doing Stacy? x

 

[Holly88]

I'm doing the August 10llb challenge, find it in the challenge section. Holly you should join too.

I'm a part of both the August challenges. I think my post for the 10lb challenge shygemini started is lurking somewhere on the first page. If I lose 10lbs this month I'll be 180 and out of the obese BMI category, woop.

 

[Stacy]

I'm doing awesome! Thanks for asking, pip!

The Sweetie and I are about to go walking. I'm really looking forward to it. Last time we went we only went a mile, so I'm hoping I can talk him into going farther this time!

 

[slimpip]

Holly - Ooooh I didn't see you on there, my mistake. Good luck with it!! That'd be awesome if your BMI dropped to a healthier number, mines at 36 I think, jeeeez that's scary.

Stacy - ahhhh that's sweet. You'll have to let me know how long you managed. What's your fitness goal, short and long term?

I'd love to be able to run a 5k. I mean, beyond that blimey the sky's the limit. But if I could run 5k, then when I move to London I could do that 2-3 times a week and keep fit that way.

Just went to fitball, definitely worked my arms and abs but I found it quite dull. Not sure I'd do it again, but glad I tried. The instructor told me to do Body Balance, a mix of yoga, pilates and tai chi. Sounds great.

I'm gonna weigh myself tomorrow I think, I feel like I might have squeezed out another pound I shall keep you guys informed x

 

[slimpip]

Two posts in an hour...unusual, but necessary.

I've just read a diary entry from a guy called Andy. He talks about the way he feels about a special lady in his life and how maybe, just maybe she might prefer him if he was thinner.

This has really struck a chord with me and I wanted to post this to see if any of the girls and guys following my diary feel the same way. As I've just said to Andy, I've always done okay with guys. I have never had a long relationship, but that's been my choice. Men have always seemed to appreciate my curves, even if they are a little larger (a lot larger lol) than ideal. However, I have always had a niggling feeling that even if a guy appreciates me 100% on a personal lever, in the bedroom whatever, there is always that slight feeling of 'I wish she was thinner so my mates would think I've pulled a hottie'. Maybe I'm being paranoid, maybe not but I'm tired of it even being a consideration.

I want to feel an equal, like when me and a man walk down the street people think we are well suited. Is anyone brave enough to admit that as a woman, these dreadful thoughts pass through our minds, even if they turn out to be total crap?!

Certainly something to think about.... x

 

[Stacy]

Stacy - ahhhh that's sweet. You'll have to let me know how long you managed. What's your fitness goal, short and long term?

Well, we went over a mile, but not a lot over. Oh well, progress is progress. As for my fitness goal - I want to be able to eventually run a marathon. Probably around five miles. I really want to be able to run five miles without stopping, that's the ultimate fitness goal for me. That's 8.04672 km. I know that won't happen for a few years, but I know if I keep working I will be able to lose the weight and get my fitness to that level. I have no doubt in my mind that I will reach that goal some day. As it is it will probably take me a little over 2 years to reach my goal weight of 140, and it might take another year after that to train for a five mile marathon.

Just went to fitball, definitely worked my arms and abs but I found it quite dull. Not sure I'd do it again, but glad I tried. The instructor told me to do Body Balance, a mix of yoga, pilates and tai chi. Sounds great.

It's great that you went and gave it a go. But, you're right, you definitely want to find something you have fun doing.

I'm gonna weigh myself tomorrow I think, I feel like I might have squeezed out another pound I shall keep you guys informed x

Yeah, definitely keep us posted.

 

[Stacy]

I wanted to post this to see if any of the girls and guys following my diary feel the same way.

I can honestly say I don't feel that way. I used to be a plus size model so I've had a lot of male attention (even some female attention lol), though before that I used to have low self esteem. About a year before I started modeling I came to really love who I am and learned to love my body. And then at my highest weight (after I stopped modeling) I somehow developed a great sense of self and had the highest self esteem that I've ever had! And then less than a year later, still at my highest weight I met and fell in love with my Sweetie.

So, yeah, I have great self esteem. Losing weight for me has never been about that, and losing weight is actually something I'm a tiny bit worried about. I love my body, I love being a big girl. So I'm a little worried that when I am thin that I might not have as much confidence or love my body as much.

But in the end, as much as I love my body and love myself, I know that being in a slim body will be easier in a lot of ways. The main thing I'm looking forward to is finding cute clothes in sizes that fit me. lol And there are so many things about being thin that will make life easier than being big.

Oddly, now that I'm getting more fit I'm finding other things that I'm looking forward to that I never thought that I'd want - like being able to run an entire 5 mile marathon. I've always dreamed of running, but never really seriously considered being a runner, obviously at my size that wouldn't be possible.

I've spent the first 31 years of my life as a fat person and now I want to experience the next 31+ years as a thin person. Life is about the journey. I want to experience what it's like "on the other side". lol

So though I love my big body, it's time to kiss it goodbye and live life in a small one.

 

[ecky1]

I've always felt a bit like that. If we met up with friends of my husband and they had a slim wife I would often wonder if he was embarrassed by me. I'm sure he wasn't as he never has had any problem with introducing me. I'm sure that it was all in my head but now that I am much slimmer I feel much happier when I am seen with him as though I'm not letting him down. It's so silly really as he was also been overweight at times and I've never been embarrassed about him.
I really admire people like Stacy that are confident about their size. These sort of women that hold their weight proudly always look beautiful.

Two posts in an hour...unusual, but necessary.

I've just read a diary entry from a guy called Andy. He talks about the way he feels about a special lady in his life and how maybe, just maybe she might prefer him if he was thinner.

This has really struck a chord with me and I wanted to post this to see if any of the girls and guys following my diary feel the same way. As I've just said to Andy, I've always done okay with guys. I have never had a long relationship, but that's been my choice. Men have always seemed to appreciate my curves, even if they are a little larger (a lot larger lol) than ideal. However, I have always had a niggling feeling that even if a guy appreciates me 100% on a personal lever, in the bedroom whatever, there is always that slight feeling of 'I wish she was thinner so my mates would think I've pulled a hottie'. Maybe I'm being paranoid, maybe not but I'm tired of it even being a consideration.

I want to feel an equal, like when me and a man walk down the street people think we are well suited. Is anyone brave enough to admit that as a woman, these dreadful thoughts pass through our minds, even if they turn out to be total crap?!

Certainly something to think about.... x

 

[slimpip]

Wow Stacy, that's amazing. I'd love to go into plus size modelling as I've been scouted a couple of times but never really given it any serious thought. I'm a weird one really because when I'm out with the girls, and I know I look good I am super confident. Confidence radiates from a person and makes them more attractive. It's just when you get a deeper relationship with someone that my fears begin to surface. I think deep down I think I'll only be able to have a proper relationship once I'm slim, and until that day I kind of bail before it gets hard. Crikey this is like therapy hehe.

Eckymans it sounds like your husband worships you which is the way it should be LOL. It must be the most glorious feeling to go out with him now and it not even be in the back of your mind anymore. That's what I want. I just want people to think ooooh she's lovely, not, she's lovely for a fat girl! lol. x