On The Road To Regain Control

Lol. Fo shizzle.

Breakfast: 1 bagel (150 calories)

Jimmy Johns Lunch: Unwhich (Lettuce Wrap) (81 calories)
1 bag of skinny chips: (260 calories)
 
rosered said:
What a terrific weight loss you have had so far.
Thank you for dropping in on me.
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Thanks a lot. I appreciate the returned favor!

Last nights dinner: 1 chicken wrap with peppers, onions and cheese: (about 380 cals )

Snack: peanut-butter and jelly wrap ( about 300 cals)

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Breakfast: 1 bagel (150 cals)
 
Messed up.

My husband brought me chocolates, and I ate them. They were good.

Then I insisted he take me to Cici's for some pizza. It was good.

Now, I'm miserably sick.

I don't know why I do this to myself.

I give into to this desire to over eat knowing that it may feel good at first, but afterwards I'll be left feeling like crap.

Grrr.

Ain't gonna waste my time dwelling, Imma just get back on the horse.

Things will go much quicker that way. :)
 
It's kinda fun to play around with different ways to make food stick together isn't it? I've sometimes used zucchini slices instead of pieces of bread to make an open sandwich. (I didn't skip my bread - just used it to do something different with at that time).

Are you finding that your food choices are keeping you well satisfied now?
 
felici said:
It's kinda fun to play around with different ways to make food stick together isn't it? I've sometimes used zucchini slices instead of pieces of bread to make an open sandwich. (I didn't skip my bread - just used it to do something different with at that time).

Are you finding that your food choices are keeping you well satisfied now?
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Yeah, I did well for the past three days... tonight I just gave into my demon.

There was absolutely no reason for it. Just had a relapse.

When I keep track of my food and caloric intake, and you know, actually take charge and control I don't feel the same erge to binge. I feel more satisfied. In general I think.

So if I could just stay consistant, it'd be smooth... like butter!

Lol. Ain't nothin' but a thang.

Imma smash my diet this week. :smash:
 
So is the demon out of sight when you're happy with your food, or are you fighting it off all the time?
 

2:04 is gospel.


Seems like I fell behind on your cinematic artistry catalog. I'm gonna go watch the others now. You're really diggin' this youtube concept and that's great you're getting the word out.

I luv the earrings, btw. And the accent, definitely luv the accent.
 
felici said:
So is the demon out of sight when you're happy with your food, or are you fighting it off all the time?
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I've pondered this post. And you know. I don't really have an answer for this question.

I have started to recognize certain triggers such as stress, boredom, etc..

But then there are certain times it seems to happen at random.

I guess it makes sense that I would be less likely to binge when I am in control of my eating, per se, because I'm in control... I guess it 's not really less of an erge, but more of a avoided situation, if that makes any sense. :banghead:

Like I said. I've had my eating under control for past several days now, yet I relasped tonight.

There was no reasonable explaination for this in my mind, however I do understand that my binging is a learned behavior that has become habit..

Just like eating incorrectly becomes habit, after so long of consistancy I know in time eating correctly will become habit as well.

My demon seems to make appearances both when I am happy and unhappy, in control, and outta control.

I think it may have something to do with the fact that I associate food with happiness, which would make it more clear why I tend to do it at such random.

I eat when I'm sad and I eat when I'm happy. Food has become a comfort thing with me.

When I was a kid (prolly 5 or 6) I had to spend a lot of time with a very emotionally abusive and draining family member...

This is where my problems with binging first started. I ate while I was over there because food was all I had to comfort me.

I would go through like a pack of hotdogs a day some weeks, or it felt like it atleast.

So I dunno. That's why I feel like Imma always struggle with it, because it's gone on for so long. I've literally struggled with it my entire life. It's rooted so deep within me. I just wish I could pry it out by it's core and throw it away.

Sorry for such a long response. I'm not even sure how much of it made sense, but made me feel better. Lol.
 
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T2 Trucker said:
2:04 is gospel.


Seems like I fell behind on your cinematic artistry catalog. I'm gonna go watch the others now. You're really diggin' this youtube concept and that's great you're getting the word out.

I luv the earrings, btw. And the accent, definitely luv the accent.
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T2 Trucker said:
Ep: 4 almost made me cry until I heard what you said at 1:40
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So many thankies to you!! I love that you're watching my vids. It's great to get such wise and positive feedback from those I "look up to" for lack of a better phrase.

My earrings AND accent are def totally cute! Lol.
 
Alteredimage said:
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Sorry for such a long response. I'm not even sure how much of it made sense, but made me feel better. Lol.
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I'm not sorry. I wanted to know what it seems like to you and I thank you for answering so honestly.

Do you think you ever have binges activated by physical hunger?
 
There have been many times my binging has actually been triggered by hunger I suppose. I hesitate to say this, because I don't want to give the impression that I am depriving myself. I love to eat way to much to do anything like that.

For some reason I'm more likely to binge in the evenings, which makes me think I'm not gettin enough of something in my diet during the day.
 
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