On The Road To Regain Control

Some binges cause even more trouble with an after sense of failure than they do with calories. I had to google "apple jacks". Funny, while you were eating two bowls of apple jacks, I was eating two bowls of Sultana Bran. So it looks like neither of us is done with bingeing. I had to remind myself that over the last few weeks I'm substantially down in weight instead of substantially up.

It's very cool that running is working out so well for you.
 
Yep. It's a continous battle for me. I think somewhere along the line I've just accepted the fact that i will more than likely struggle with this for the rest of my life. Even when I feel like I've got it under control, there's always the fear of messing up, and then of course, actually messing up. I feel like a recovering addict.


The first step is admitting.

Food is my addiction.
 

omg i think you're adorable! i love the youtube video! :) i totally sleep and brush my teeeth too! :)
 
Being aware that we have a food addiction might be critical to dealing it. However, until recently I only ever thought about the bad part of that - I have an addiction to something that I cannot just cut out of my life and get over. (I did try to cut out starches and sugars though). On the other hand, because we have to eat and that makes the addiction different - maybe that also makes it more freeing, because it allows the possibility of new episodes without necessarily reactivating a full blown dependency?

I'm not saying we shouldn't do everything we can to prevent a new binge from happening, just that it's good that we can have the power to step away again afterwards. Maybe the more we learn to do that (without getting into a cycle of self blame and negativity that helps reactivate the desire to binge), the more we can live with how we are, without being fat and without feeling like it will be an endless struggle?



I really love Episode 3 and a HALF. LOL! You put it together so well, and the tips are great - so good to have those neat visuals instead of a written list.
 
oLUX said:
omg i think you're adorable! i love the youtube video! :) i totally sleep and brush my teeeth too! :)
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Lol. Thanks a bunch! It's cool to know that I'm not the only one who goes into mad fits of tooth brushing and forced naps in order to avoid over eating. Lol.

felici said:
Being aware that we have a food addiction might be critical to dealing it. However, until recently I only ever thought about the bad part of that - I have an addiction to something that I cannot just cut out of my life and get over. (I did try to cut out starches and sugars though). On the other hand, because we have to eat and that makes the addiction different - maybe that also makes it more freeing, because it allows the possibility of new episodes without necessarily reactivating a full blown dependency?

I'm not saying we shouldn't do everything we can to prevent a new binge from happening, just that it's good that we can have the power to step away again afterwards. Maybe the more we learn to do that (without getting into a cycle of self blame and negativity that helps reactivate the desire to binge), the more we can live with how we are, without being fat and without feeling like it will be an endless struggle?
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I agree with this. I always look forward to your posts. It's nice to hear such wisdom coming from someone in the same boat. :)



felici said:
I really love Episode 3 and a HALF. LOL! You put it together so well, and the tips are great - so good to have those neat visuals instead of a written list.
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Lol. Thanks a lot. These videos have been really vindicating and fun for me. I'm glad that I'm not the only one being motivated by them as well. I'm excited that you and others are enjoying them. I plan to post another tomorrow. My first vblog weigh in. I'm scared, lol.
 
I'm awake extra early this morning. Today is weigh in, and I'm really worried. I'm afraid that even though I worked out extra hard this week, my eating wasn't all that great and I'm not gonna have lost anything....

And then I'm gonna be upset.

Which is a MAJOR trigger for me.

So I need to just prepare myself, for the possibility of failure now.

But I guess it's not really failure.

I busted tail in the gym this week.

Whether I lost anything or not, the fact that I'm working out again is a success in itself....

Ah Ha!

Diffused it before it even happened.

I'm so good I'm better than me. :coolgleamA:

Lol.
 
Breakfast:
-1 cup apple jacks (only cereal we got in the house) and 1/2 cup of skim milk (170 cal.)
-1 small bagel (150 cal.)
 
This is a link I've been meaning to post forever.

Don't know how many of ya'll are familar with it, but it's a really useful site.

This chick has listed the nutrition facts for like every restaurant known to man.

Whether you go out to eat that often or not, it's really interesting to see how bad some of the crap places serve truly is for ya.
 
So, tonight is date night.

I know that's going to include going out to eat..

Thank God for dwlz!

Lol.

I'll let ya'll know what I have, And how beautifully healthy it was later tonight, or tomorrow morning.

I'm making a promise to myself right now to be strong and avoid any potentially dangerous diet crashing food!
 
Steak and shake dinner:

1 garden salad: 23 calories
Cottage cheese: 106 calories
Half a strawberry milkshake: about 360 calories

490 calories total!

Not to shabby if I do say so myself.

I still got 295 calories left.

It's to late at night to use them though. I don't really want them anyways.

So yeah.

It's all good.
 
Another nice video. Good on you. It's very hard not to be down after a gain, but well done on not letting that push you towards food.

You mention in there that you expect to be hungry a lot. Have you considered that you might be less prone to going way over in a binge if you ate a little more in a regular way?
 
felici said:
Another nice video. Good on you. It's very hard not to be down after a gain, but well done on not letting that push you towards food.

You mention in there that you expect to be hungry a lot. Have you considered that you might be less prone to going way over in a binge if you ate a little more in a regular way?
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Thanks!

I often confuse hunger with appetite when I'm speaking.

Hunger being the physical need to eat.

Appetite being the want.

More often than not, I'm not hungry at all when I over eat. It's my appetite. I just want the food.

I didn't make that very clear in my video, and hardly ever make the distinction when I'm speaking. It's important that I start tho, because when I say that "I don't wanna eat when I'm hungry." it sounds like I'm depriving myself.

I wish I did just eat cause I was hungry. Maybe than, once I was full I would stop. Lol. Don't work like that for me.

People are alwaya talkin about ways to make yourself feel fuller, so your less likely to eat more than enough. Used to when my binging was really bad I never even took hunger into consideration. Everytime I put something in my mouth all I could think was what I was going to eat next,:puke: whether my tummy was rumbling or not.

Suppressing my hunger, just doesn't work for me.

I need a way to surppress my appetite. I need away to get rid of this intense desire for food 24/7. I guess that's why it feels like a drug to me. I feel like I go into withdrawls sometimes. Lol. It's insane.
 
AH HA!!

I knew that weight gain yesterday was bull!

I know I said I wasn't gonna do it, but I got on the scale again this mornig...

142.4

I must of still just been really bloated from my period! RAWR! I got all bent outta shape for nothin.

I maintained this week.

That will safice.

Lol. I'M CHANGIN MY TICKER BACK!

*grumble grumble grumble* Lol.
 
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