On The Road To Regain Control

O So Cliche'

I made a new years resolution to take back the control when it comes to my health.

Some how along the line I lost it and allowed my old habits to come creeping back.

Granted, it's been an insane year.

I got married.
Took sometime of school.
Dealt with some issues from my past
Etc, etc, etc...

Somehow diet and exercise got put on the back burner... and was then lost all together.

I feel a whole lot like poop.

BUT!

I won't let it get me down.

I did it before... I can do it again.

I WILL do it again.
 
Breakfast

Breakfast: 3/4 cup of honey nut spins (an off brand of cheerios) and 1/2 cup of skim milk- 160 calories.

May go back for an orange in a bit. I LOVE ORANGES!

I'm so not looking foward to working out today. I'm not sure if I'm gonna run or what yet, but never the less I'm dreding it.
I was running four miles before I let myself get outta shape.

I can hardly run at all now without feeling like I'm gonna die.

It's so easy to get out of shape.

I suppose the best thing to do is not to give yourself the option of not working out.

I can't let myself question whether I'm going to do it or not, but rather how far I'm gonna push myself.
 
Don't feel bad, Jenn. I think most of the Class of '06 suffered some sort of let up - me included.

Tho it sucks, it's very fixable and I'm back to my disciplined ways. also. Hang in there. I got all the confidence in the world you'll come back better than ever :)
 
T2 Trucker said:
Don't feel bad, Jenn. I think most of the Class of '06 suffered some sort of let up - me included.

Tho it sucks, it's very fixable and I'm back to my disciplined ways. also. Hang in there. I got all the confidence in the world you'll come back better than ever :)
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Thanks BIG BUNCHES!!!

I appreciate the encouraging words. It's also nice to know I'm not the only one who's fallen. :banghead:

Ain't nothing but a g thang, baby. Lol. :D

TODAY has been b-e-a-utiful.

I'm feeling good and back on track.

I'd have to say, it's been a great first day back in the ring!
 
I'm wide awake... at five o'clock in the morning...

Somehow I've got my sleep pattern all screwed up.

Everynow and then it seems like I go through these spells of insomnia. And then I end up feeling blah all day.

RAWR!

I'm hungry.
 
Good past couple of days.

Been filling my crazy eating erges with fruits and veggies.

I suppose that's better then smashing on crap food.

I've got to get back on some kind of regular work out schedule again.

Not just randomly like it has been for the past few months.

Few and far between- better than nothing, but it's never felt satisfying for me to do just enogh to get by.

I like pushing myself.
 
Okay.

After a ridiculous binge... I decided to do somethin a little different than I have before.

Weight Loss Video Blog..

Thought it might give me a little extra encouragement.

Def made me feel better.

Check it out.
 
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Alrighty!

Todays a new day.

Puttin yesterdays mad binge behind me and moving foward.

No need to dwell on it.

That would only hold me back.

I've got to work out today!

Tyler got me the Dancing with the Stars Cardio Latin Dance DVD for Christmas.

Maybe I'll cha cha cha a little later! Lol.
 
I've done fairly well over that past couple of days.

Tyler and I decided we were going to try a mostly organic diet, so we went to the store and got some new yummy food!

I've been smashing on fresh fruits and veggies.

Last night I made an amazing potato soup. Pretty healthy too. Prolly a little high in sodium which is a big no no, but the fat content was pretty low. Yeah though. It was good.

I start my second semester of college on monday!

I'm really nervous and excited.

I'll be able to use the amazing fitness center for free again though!

YAYAYAYAY!

That is gonna help me out soooo much.

I love going to the gym.

I'm a people watcher.

I'm not really sure when I'm gonna weigh in again.

I'm thinking about wating until the first week of Febuary.

We shall see.
 
Wow! I'm really excited by your posts here. I loved the video. Well I guess it's a record of something you hate - but I think the understandings you show there are important.

Also, I reckon we're on the same path and I'm very much hoping that those of us who do have binge eating issues will be able to find a way to deal with them more effectively than we have in the past. I agree that dwelling on a past binge isn't helpful, but I also believe that there are things we can do to help reduce how severe they are, how frequent they are and move forward with more confidence. Just lately I have even consciously interrupted a couple. I try not to get too excited about things that look like progress to me, because I don't have a strong enough track record - yet. I've learned a lot about my own binge eating in the past months, but I don't know how much of it applies to other people.

Any how I guess I'm raving on now, but I do hope we can help each other. Thanks for posting in my diary the other day. I hadn't posted there for months before that (I don't think you noticed that - :D), and it helped give me a push along to make the effort to post there again, which I'm glad I did.
 
felici said:
Wow! I'm really excited by your posts here. I loved the video. Well I guess it's a record of something you hate - but I think the understandings you show there are important.

Also, I reckon we're on the same path and I'm very much hoping that those of us who do have binge eating issues will be able to find a way to deal with them more effectively than we have in the past. I agree that dwelling on a past binge isn't helpful, but I also believe that there are things we can do to help reduce how severe they are, how frequent they are and move forward with more confidence. Just lately I have even consciously interrupted a couple. I try not to get too excited about things that look like progress to me, because I don't have a strong enough track record - yet. I've learned a lot about my own binge eating in the past months, but I don't know how much of it applies to other people.

Any how I guess I'm raving on now, but I do hope we can help each other. Thanks for posting in my diary the other day. I hadn't posted there for months before that (I don't think you noticed that - :D), and it helped give me a push along to make the effort to post there again, which I'm glad I did.
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First off I just wanna thank you for your post. I haven't had much traffic since I've been posting again, so your encouragement really means alot to me! :)

It seems we are on the same path! The feeling is mutual when it comes to the accountability of my track record. Sometimes I feel like I've got control, and other times I feel like the weakest person on the face of the planet. So I don't trust myself enough to celebrate success, because I'm always afraid of the possibility of failure there after.
I've not yet conquered.
I'm battling.

I'm glad my post helped give you that extra push. Your's has done the same for me. :)
 
My Tummy is growling... But it's like eleven o'clock at night..

God.

This is so hard sometimes.

I really want to eat. I mean- I REALLY want to eat! It's so frustrating sometimes. I'm so envious of those people who can eat the universe and never gain a thing, all the while if I so much as even breathe in the same room as a cookie I gain five pounds.

It's a conspiracy.
That's the only explaination.

I haven't worked out. I know I keep saying that I need to, but, I've yet to find the motivation.

OMG!

I wanna eat.

Maybe I'll video blog..
Or go to sleep.

Either would help.
 
I don't know how helpful it would be right now, if you're not used to it, but it might help. Or yoga might. As you say, exercise would, but it's not always a practical option for a given moment. I wonder if there are any youtubes of relaxation exercises? They might be called guided relaxation.

I bet you will find it helpful to stop stressing about how you feel right now. Sometimes it's possible to just tell yourself to stop. (Sometimes not!) Doing something that switches on the more analytical, thinking part of your brain (maybe by looking for information online), will help quieten unreasonable impulses to eat.

If your stomach is growling that might just be an emotional thing, but it might be that you haven't eaten enough today, or that it's too long since you've eaten the kind of foods that take a while to digest. That's not really a tip for right now - just something that might help another day. We're in this for the long term, right? :)

I have the same problem with getting myself started on exercise. Reading other diaries here is good for changing that.
 
Thanks for the advice! This sounds like something I really need to look into! I bet it would be really heplful in the moments i feel weakest.

Excitingly enough, I was able to fight the erge to eat last night. I just laid down and convinced myself the quicker I went to sleep, the quicker I could get up and have breakfast... Lol. None the less it worked, There have been many times I've found myself wondering off to bed early just to calm my cravings.

SO-

I woke up this morning feeling extra good and extra skinny, so I decided I would go ahead and weigh.

Drum roll please....

142.4!!

This is the first time I've moved my ticker since I've been back on the forum.

It's starting to feel like home again. :)
 
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I'm really pleased for you that you got over your attack and did what you wanted. Being able to choose to just go to bed instead is great.

And congratulations on getting your first ticker shift!
 
Thanks!!

I'm starting to feel like I'm slowly but surely getting back on track with all this. It can be a bit overwhelming at times, but my health is so important that I'm up for the struggle.

Plus, I'm going to school and majoring in general dietetics. I feel like it's important I get control of my eating habits and stuff now, because I want to be able to practice what I preach, you know?
 
LOL! That sounds like a great idea.

Also, yes, our health is worth it. Well done on starting to turn things around now rather than later. Your ticker is looking in good shape.
 
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