On The Road To Regain Control

This morning

Okay

I'm off to church this morning.

Me and Tyler had a bit of a tift last night... and I needed something besides food to take my mind off of it.

I figured Jesus would be the next best thing.:D
 
Oh, that made me laugh, but you're right, church is a good place to be when you need a little something:) I'm so glad you're having a good week AI, keep it up!
 
The movies

Again so far today I have done very very well.

I'm about to head to the movies... and I know Tyler is gonna want to buy snacks, snacks, and more snacks! Imma be so strong though and be like "Don't even be tryin to give me none of that stuff... I'm lookin to good for that." :D
 
good job girl. Though, the best thing to do is to ask him not to buy snacks, then you won't even have to worry about the temptation. i've saved a lot of money at the movies by not buying snacks anymore! :D
 
I'm really down today.

I feel like I'm never going to be able to lose the rest of this weight. I feel just as fat as ever, and really... it's kind of depressing.

I hate it because when I get in moods like this, even if Tyler or anybody tells me how pretty I am... I don't believe them, because I'm just so self-conscious.

When I get like this I make myself and everyone else around me miserable, because I become so defensive. If they compliment me... I get angry because I feel like it's a pity thing.

I don't want peoples pity, I want their honesty.

I know I'm chubby, and it ticks me off when people just try to make me feel better by saying I'm not. That doesn't help me.

I want to feel good about myself for a change.
I deserve to feel good about myself.

I want to have confidence, and I just can't in this body.

I want to be as beautiful as I know I could be without this gut.
 
Been there; still doin' it.:( I totally know what you mean though. I felt like that all last week, but have worked through it (until next time, right?:p ) Muddle through somehow, take it one day at a time. You'll get there.
 
wow... we must totally have the same track minds. Just yesterday I was thinking the same things, but you came in and picked me up. ...MY TURN!

Ok, so in english class we're reading about Henry David Thoreau... And in one of his essays, I found something that made me think...

He said, "Why should we be in such desperate haste to succeed...? If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is ecause he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measure or far away. ...However mean your life is, meet it and live it. Do not shun it and call it hard names. It is not so bad as you are. The faultfinder will find faults even in paradise. Live your life, poor as it may be. " -Henry David Thoreau, "The Conclusion"

I think that he had something going there. He was all for nonconformity, wanting people to realize that it didn't matter what other people think, only what we think and do ourselves, living for ourselves, rather than for the others around us.

Jen, I KNOW it's hard for you, "knowing that you're chubby", but look at you. You're pictures were gorgeous. I only wish I was as far as you. Try not to always find the bad. People say you look thinner because you do. Pity is not a part of it. Pity is for the people not like us who have decieded that they don't care about their health and happiness, and let their weight problems spiral out of control. I know you can do this.

Keep you chin up high, and go out there and be proud of the progress you've made so far! I know you can... I know you WILL. *hugs*

p.s. I went kinda overboard on the Thoreau thing, probably just because I was super excited about actually understanding it today. I had to read this thing about 8 times before it finally started to click. :D
 
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I want to feel good about myself for a change.
I deserve to feel good about myself.

YES, you do!
At any weight.
At any point in your life.
You Do!

I want to have confidence, and I just can't in this body.

YES, you can!
Jen, you must find acceptance that who you are is NOT the number on a scale. You go deeper then that. We all do.

Yes, we can change, and fix this outward body of ours, but it is not who we are - it's how we (currently) look - there's a difference.

I want to be as beautiful as I know I could be without this gut.

You ARE.

I have met some truly ugly people. It had NOTHING to do with what they looked like on the outside.

Jen, you have come a long way towards reaching your goals - and you WILL get there. It's one day at a time. Sometimes one meal.

In the mean time, while you're reaching your goals, remember that you ARE beautiful.

It's more than just a shell hon,
hugs,
 
Thank all you guys so much. I really needed the reassurance today.

I can do this, I kno I can. I just have to accept the fact that it's not always going to be easy...

I loved the quote xorie. It really makes you think.

And thank you too M2M. I know beauty runs deeper then the outward appearance, you just reminded me of that.
 
hey, we are both at 160! and it seems we also have the same final goal! good luck hun, I know you can do it!
 
Thanks!

So I weigh in tomorrow and I am really nervous. I've done good this week... but I'm not sure if it's been good enough. I hope to God that I atleast drop a pound.
Seems like anymore that's how I've been going about this whole thing anyways.

One pound at a time. :rolleyes:
 
Exactly! Good luck weighing in tomorrow Jen!

I love that quote too Xorie; I'm going to have to steal it for my quote book. (Yes, I'm a nerd, I collect quotes:eek: )
 
Weigh in

OMG!

156!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4 pounds!

I'm so happy.

This has definitely got me motivated again. :p

Thank you Jesus.
 
WHOOOOOOO!!!!!! Yay Jen! I'm so unbelievably happy for you; I even got choked up...I'm such a sap :D Time for the happy dance!
 
WHOOOOOOO!!!!!! Yay Jen! I'm so unbelievably happy for you; I even got choked up...I'm such a sap :D Time for the happy dance!

Oh I've been doing a bit of a jig all day! Even when I was takin my ACT this morning. Hehe. It does feel really nice to be "back in the game".

Thanks!!
 
So I went a bit over board yesterday and used the whole excuse that I was rewarding myself for the weight loss.:rolleyes:

I'm getting back on it today, no doubt.
 
heehee... you're not the only one.. my family went to a buffet after my team won two games to get into the championship game (next saturday) for the spot in State. i'm super excited about it. and, I ate a wee bit too much at the buffet, but oh well, doing better today!

And congrats on you 4lb loss! That's amazing!
 
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