On my way to the new me(Kylee's weight loss)

bunny22 said:
So...my alarm didn't wake me up so I was a few hours late starting my day...grr.
But I woke up around 10:30ish and the first thing I did was do level one of the 30 Day Shred.
I keep hearing that it's best to workout before eating anything so that's what I'm aiming for now.
But yeah.

MORNING(10:30am) : level one of the 30 Day Shred

BREAKFAST: Special K cereal with skim milk.
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Hey Bunny22
Just noticed your diary!
I used to have the same eating issues ...

I binged ..when I was stressed... eventually I stopped eating ..it became one bad cycle ..trust me ..you dont want to go there...

but I would try to find other things to do instead of eating when you are stressed. One thing is just to take a soothing walk..

I just bundle up, suck it up, and start walking ... I hate it sometimes, because I get so depressed, I dont want to do anything ... or my mind keeps racking over these things and I cant sleep, so I dont wake up early ..its sucks ... but I am way different now

and you can do it too ...

its not a diet
first of all
its a lifestyle change ... its the way you are going to eat for the rest of your life in order to live a happy and healthy life.

You are doing awesome so far, read through ...
Sorry about your bfs problems ...
it can be stressful ...

I had a bf that was an ass and conned me out of 27 thousand dollars, he used my name to get things ... so I have had it pretty stressed and my ex told me he couldnt put up with my weight and I was ugly ..thats when my view of myself changed and I still have a hard time.


but what I am trying to say is stick with it, because we are here for you ... you can do this ... you can do crafts when you are stressing ..but walks are awesome ..because as embarrassing as it sounds I would talk out loud and think and talk while I was walking .. I must have looked like a nut, but lemme say talking out loud about things and working things in my head in compartments and thinking things through ...walking can do that ...

Just keep up the good work ... you woke up at a fine hour ..you did your exercise ..be happy ..dont put yourself down ..
dont set unreachable goals ..if you know you like to wake up later and you wont be able to cut it at seven or eight am ...than wake up at ten ..do the exercise and eat and ..just have your day ..but try to relax ..and try not to be so hard on yourself ..if your too hard on yourself .. your probably going to go off the wagon ...

keep trecking keep writing
we are here for you
and maybe join a challenge ..there dont seem to be any for this month... except the VDAY challenge ... they still have a month remaining there so you could join there. They are a lot of fun. We started it the first week of January ..some peeps are losing ..some are gaining ..since I came up with the idea I write congrats on there and keep a check on everyone .. make sure everything is going well and peeps are happy regardless of what happens in their gains and losses ..we are a fun group ...

Well I hope I didnt say anything offending ..but I can understand where you are coming from .. on stress and eating out of stress ..

your doing good
keep it up
and just dont push yourself too hard and expect changes right away ... its a lifestyle change ..it takes time to learn how to eat and when to exercise ..but you will get there and achieve your goals ..
So how is it going with health issues ...

about the Colonscopy .. I had one done, because I was bleeding profusely ..come to find out it was just a hemroid inside .. my body had to adjust to the less eating, so I was getting constipated and my ..well u know ...but I drink coffee ...which makes me less constipated ,so I end up ok ...

no bleeding anymore ..very happy to note ..

and about the lump .. I hope your ok

what has the doc said ..keep writing ...
its a good thing to write whatever issues you have in your diary ...

I had some cancer scares myself ... cervical aree... I went through so many colnoscopys ... thats when they do paps and find out about abnormal cells in your cervix ...but I have been fine for a more than a year

I wish you the best ...

Youll come out ok hun ... :)
laterz
natalie jo :grouphug:
 
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WORKOUT:
So I just finished the Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones dvd and.......holy hell that is one workout!xD
This is why I love the woman. I sweat during her workouts and I feel like I'm getting every body part worked on. I feel like I'm actually making a difference.
Hopefully my body will show a difference soon.:)
But back to the workout.
Wow, it was the hardest thing I've done in a long time.lol
I thought that the 30 Day Shred kicked my butt. I love it though.
My sides and legs are on fire. I'm still having troubles sucking in my core throughout the workout though. I need to figure that out.lol
But for real, this thing is a butt kicker. I would totally recommend someone to do it.
You can be certain I'm going to be doing that every night from now on.
Maybe in the mornings sometimes if I have time.

MOOD : :hurray:
 
I just joined, like literally an hour ago, and i know im not supposed to post links of any kind but i cant use the pm function yet :/
i think you should watch this, and not just now, but whenever you look in that mirror and feel like you cant do it. it helps me alot, and not just with weight loss but also with trying to be successful in life. i read what youve posted so far and i think this does apply to you.
 
Ugh, so I've been slacking for the last few days.
I feel awful about it. I even ate bad..
BUT. You know what? I'm not going to beat myself up over it because this whole thing is a learning experience and as we all know, learning takes time.:)
So I still have a positive attitude!:D
Anyways, so not much has happened really.
Matt and I went and saw Avatar. What a beautiful movie.
I wish I were a Navi. You know why? If you become a Navi you get the perfect body.LOL
But seriously, great movie. We both loved the hidden meaning too.
See, and here is a little about me, Matt and I are those people who are like "save the earth! recycle! save the forests!".
Yup, thats me.;)
And I'm proud. For the last two years Matt and I have gone and worked at an ecology camp. He's a teacher and I'm a dishwasher. It's pretty fun.
SO. There ya go.
And now I'm off to the doctors.:(
See ya.:)
 
Ok so as I stated previously I went to the doctor today to get a few problems taken care of. What I didn't know was that I was going to get surprise "surgery".:(
My doctor took the cyst from my breast out and it hurt like a bitch. He used some numbing stuff, but all it did was burn.
But I'm glad it's out. The only downside to that is the cyst was right where the bra met the skin and it hurts to do much movement around there. So it kind of sucks if you want to do cardio like running, jumping jacks, and things of that sort.
So I will see how it goes and hopefully I can do my running and other cardio later. I think I'm still good with weights though.
Anyways, just a little update.:)
 
Hey,

Just thought I'd let you know I've been reading your diary and I think you're doing a great job!

I hope you're okay after your surgery today - what an awful surprise! But still, it must be good to have it out. Don't stress too much about not being able to do cardio until you heal. Your focus right now should just be on maintaining and positive attitude and letting your body recuperate after what it went through today.

So long as you keep your food intake at a healthy level whilst you can't work out you will be absolutely fine. And even if you don't lose weight this week, don't stress about it! As long as you get there in the end, that's all that matters!

Good luck!
 
happyandhealthy said:
Hey,

Just thought I'd let you know I've been reading your diary and I think you're doing a great job!

I hope you're okay after your surgery today - what an awful surprise! But still, it must be good to have it out. Don't stress too much about not being able to do cardio until you heal. Your focus right now should just be on maintaining and positive attitude and letting your body recuperate after what it went through today.

So long as you keep your food intake at a healthy level whilst you can't work out you will be absolutely fine. And even if you don't lose weight this week, don't stress about it! As long as you get there in the end, that's all that matters!

Good luck!
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Thank you so much!:)
It's really great to have the support from other people. I'm really not that used to it.lol
 
WHOOOOO!
So, despite what I thought last night I went for a jog and my breast didn't hurt.:)
So I'm pretty happy about that. Just got back from the walk/jog/run and I feel great that I did. I hadn't done any workouts really for the last day or two and it felt nice to get out and move my body. Although my legs ache.lol
I think I was out there for at least 30 minutes.
Tomorrow is my first day of fitness concepts. I'm looking forward to the class. I really hope that it helps me in my weight loss.
I haven't been keeping up with my food intake for the last few days and maybe you noticed. Let's just say that my food intake this weekend was far from good.:(
Ugh. But I'm getting myself back on track. It's amazing how fast someone can fall off the wagon. But I'm getting back on!
I will keep track of my food tomorrow. It's just so hard to eat enough and at the right times during the school year.
Anyways, I just wanted to update a little again.

RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE DAY:
Boobs. I hate the big ones. I hate the big ones when you're trying to workout at least. I'm a bigger chested woman right now and dang! It hurts to do jumping jacks and well.....anything that moves my upper body. I was looking at my reflection while doing some of my dvd....and I couldn't help notice the two melons that were swaying everywhere and practically hitting me in the face. I really hope that they shrink as I lose weight. I don't want them to be small, but I just wish they weren't....well...droopy. And I have a feeling some men suffer from this problem too...well...if any of you do I just want you to know I understand. We can fight this battle together. And It's just so hard to find a good workout bra when you have a larger chest. I cant use sports bras because they just don't support enough. One day I will overcome this dilemma...and when I do....my back will thank me.
 
So, classes have been going pretty good. Unfortunately I found out today that my fitness concepts class does not start until the second 8 weeks of this semester. Such a let down.
But its ok.
I'm joining our school gym. And I say gym very lightly. It's the size of a classroom. I think it only has like 8 workout machines, but it has treadmills and that's what I'm happy about. I can go in and walk or run on the treadmill in-between classes.
Anyways, can't talk too long. I've got a butt load of reading to do tonight. Fun fun.:)
Night!
 
UPDATE:
Alright...so I've taken the plunge. Today....I joined a gym. And not the small school gym I was talking about. I mean one of the public big ones. I think it's called World Gym. I am paying for one year all together, which brings it around $480. I'm super nervous because that's a lot of money. I plan on making that money count!
My best friend goes to the gym and now we will be going together at least 4 times a week. Maybe 5, we haven't really talked it over that much.
But yes....I HAVE TAKEN A HUGE LEAP TODAY.
I start tomorrow.:)
And thus my real weight loss journey begins....
 
bunny22 said:
UPDATE:
Alright...so I've taken the plunge. Today....I joined a gym. And not the small school gym I was talking about. I mean one of the public big ones. I think it's called World Gym. I am paying for one year all together, which brings it around $480. I'm super nervous because that's a lot of money. I plan on making that money count!
My best friend goes to the gym and now we will be going together at least 4 times a week. Maybe 5, we haven't really talked it over that much.
But yes....I HAVE TAKEN A HUGE LEAP TODAY.
I start tomorrow.:)
And thus my real weight loss journey begins....
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Hey Bunny22,
Your weight loss journey started awhile ago, when you first came on here, and made the first step. And you have kept taking steps. You had surgery and yet you ran...and turned out you could do it. You can do this Bunny22, trust me. You have it! Go to the gym, enjoy the walking, the elliptical, the weights. A gym is fun, but I prefer outside. I like snow and weather and what not. I like it hard, but it can be hard at the gym. I actually like the passing traffic too lol can you believe it. Someone who had agorophobia, than social anxiety and now I am power walking for forty to fifty minutes on main streets and I am doing it purposfully...

but anyway
Your doing awesome chicky. AT first it might be hard at the gym. The machines can be tough. Learning coordination, but you will find what you like and what you dont, you will conquer those machines and show them who is boss...
congrats on your health, up and running. My goal one day is to run ... when I reach my first goal I plan to run.

I used to be able to run, now I would kill my back

btw... your breasts and back and sides and underarms will get smaller. You will be a smaller size. Dont call them melons, your just putting yourself down, or if you think its funny, than fine, but try not to put yourself down..
remember losing weight takes a lot of time. I am at 281... I was 286 and its taken me two weeks to get that far .. its tough ... but trust me... you will get there...
its great that your friend in it with you!!
it must be fun. Report in, would love to hear how you did!!
and congrats on getting back on the wagon, thata girl ...

and also... I admire your pinash .. keep trecking ..
I have problems with my image of my belly, and have a hard time pulling in my core too, I tried today, but it was so hard. I will have to work on it today. I am going to lye on the floor and pull it in, but you have to keep breathing normally while you have your core in. I am just going to keep trying, eventually its becomes natural for your core to be in. Last year it just automatically was in .. I was working out everyday with out knowing. It was incredible and I plan to get back to that ... I had lost from 320 to 269 ... its was nice ..but my goal is 240 first... forty one pounds first. Than move on down to another forty.

but congrats hun and we all have image problems. I dont like my breasts or any part of my upper body at all ...

so ..we are in it
we are here for you
keep us posted, the good, and the bad!!

ttylater
always
your friend
natalie jo :seeya:
 
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Ok first day at the gym..

BREAKFAST: 2 pieces of wheat toast and some strawberry banana yogurt.

SNACK: Apple

WORKOUT: Gym.
 
bunny22 said:
Ok first day at the gym..

BREAKFAST: 2 pieces of wheat toast and some strawberry banana yogurt.

SNACK: Apple

WORKOUT: Gym.
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So what did you do at the gym?
Was it cool, did you like it?
I loved the gym when I went, I only hated all the tvs and the mirrors located right in front of everyone, not very helpful .. lol especially when you see the dainty ones working out and running, while I was barely able to move along lol

but its awesome that you are going! So what is the gym like? What did you do?
Jess always uses the cross trainer. I dont know what it is, but would love to lol

I hope all is well!

ttylater
always
natalie jo:seeya:
 
Hey hun!
How have you been?
I hope you are doing ok?
We hope to hear from you soon!

talk to you later
always
Natsky:seeya:
 
UGH I'M SO BAD FOR NOT POSTING IN SO LONG!Dx
I'm sorry guys. School kind of got in the way.

SO HERE'S WHAT'S HAPPENING:
My antidepressants are working so well for me. I'm happier, I feel better, and my boyfriend and I haven't gotten into a fight in a long time.:)
So that's all good.
Now...the GYM. I LOVE IT!
I think I'm starting to get addicted because sometimes, well a lot of the time, I go there twice a day. The gym I chose allows me to go to three gyms in different places which is great, I love that. I live in Fayetteville Arkansas, and the one there is...ok. But I can also go to the one in Bentonville Arkansas and that one is my favorite. I even got two free days with a personal trainer. She was really nice, and actually listened to me. She showed me the machines that would be best for what I'm trying to accomplish and wrote them down. So now when I go there I just get that piece of paper and do all of them. She wrote down 20lbs for each one but I switch to 45 to 60 on some.:)
I feel like I'm going to have super arms by the end of the year.LOL
And I've lost 2 pounds since joining. I had a bad eating weekend though, so that might have messed it up. But no more sweets for me! At least not that much. Yesterday though, I had a lot of cookies because I was stressing and crying. Matt and I found his dog Delilah on the ground, shaking and cold in the backyard. It was awful. We rusher her to the animal hospital and almost lost her a couple of times. She's still there, resting and they are keeping an eye on her. It was scary.
But yeah, that's pretty much it. I'm going to the gym today around 2ish. Probably to do more cardio than anything. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the elliptical. LOVE IT! The other day it said I had burned a little over 600 calories. Woot woot.lol
And there ya have it. My quick update. I'm still alive and still fighting for that body!:D
I hope to update a little more now that school is somewhat slowing down.
 
So going to the gym this morning around 9:30 or 10.
Just going to be doing some cardio this morning and then I will go to the gym again this evening after my class and work on weights and whatnot.
Probably spend an hour on the elliptical.
I'm going to try and eat well today. This weekend has just been full of crap and therefore I have eaten wayyyy more than I should.

And an update on Matts dog....
She didn't make it. This has been such a tiring weekend and Matt is completely crushed. The doctor believes that she was poisoned and it just makes us so angry..
I can't believe someone would do something like this..
So as you can expect, I haven't been doing much healthy wise. My mind has been so preoccupied on other things that it just flies right past me. While this may not be an excuse to most of you I haven't really let the overeating and lack of exercise get me down. It was my way of coping with her death. I really did love Delilah and she was the sweetest boxer that I have ever met. Probably sweetest dog ever...
I'm trying to get back on track now and start to really work at it.
R.I.P. Delilah, you will always be missed....
 
So I got the gym around 11ish, maybe 10:45. I stayed for an hour and 5 minutes on the elliptical and from what the machine said I burned 660 calories. Woot woot.lol
So then I left, picked up Matt and we both had subway.
I had a footlong turkey on Italian bread. Lettuce, honey mustard, lite mayo, and pickles. Also some baked sour cream and onion chips. May not have been the best lunch in the world or the healthiest, but whatever.lol
This is still a learning process for me.
I've given up soda. The stuff is just disgusting. I tried diet, but I just can't do it. Gross. So that's good. Drinking a lot of water.
My class ends today at 5:45 and after that I will be heading to the gym again to do weights.
Later.:)
 
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