On a path to better me~ Just need help.

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Kaylamarie

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Hello all,

the name is Kayla, Suffice to say, I am 5 foot 4 inches and 235 pounds- In clothes, you can't tell how severely fat I am, but alone in my room I see everything I'm hiding. I'm tired of hiding under baggy clothes! I want to lose the weight and keep it off. I'm a teenager, and suffer from chronic depression, that has made my life a living hell and made it so difficult for me to be happy- and thus, I eat and eat and eat. My whole life I've been eating junk, but I wanna change. I've been through fad diets, lost 5 pounds and gained it back and I'm done. I REALLY want this more than I want anything. I want to look good, I wanna be confident, I wanna be healthy; but most of all I wanna be HAPPY.

I realized, that I can't do this on my own. I'm ready to start this long journey to a better me. I'm ready to do whatever it takes. I don't want to die young, because I was too lazy to take a walk, or get up off the couch. I want to have friends and a social life- I'm turning to the people of this community, to potential friends, to help me. I've heard of pregnate mothers with stretch marks, I've heard of older people with stretch marks- I have never been pregnate, I'm definately not old, and I've got stretch marks already. I want to STOP this process before it's too late. I know that stretch marks wont dissapear 100%, but they can fade, and I want to reverse this as much as I can before it's too late.

Desperate for success,

KMarie.
 
Welcome to the forums, Kayla.

I understand what you're going through. I was 200lbs. shortly before turning 10 years old, and I had stretch marks all over my stomach, arms, legs, and back, before I even hit my teenage years. Once I got to high school -- I was still overweight, but I was very physically active in sports and it made all the difference in the world. Up until I was about 13, I was depressed and I hated myself and my body. Once I started being active, I was able to gain some confidence, because even though my body wasn't ideal, I was doing something about it. Just being on the journey alone will help you feel better about yourself.

Unfortunately, an injury half-way through my senior year took me out of sports and exercise for 8 weeks, and by the time that was over, I had missed out on the last half of my last basketball season (basketball was one of my great passions in school). I figured after that, there was no point. It was foolish of me to feel that way, to think that the only reason to be healthy and exercise was so I could be better at basketball, but that's what has gotten me nearly 100lbs. over my lowest high school weight.

Just know, that it is always the right time to make the decision to get healthy. There is no too early and there is no too late.

My advice to you would be to start a journal thread in the diary section of these forums. It will really help you reflect and look back on your successful and not-so-successful days. You can also get valuable advice from other members and inspire other people to continue on their journey.

Best wishes to you.
 
Thanks so much for welcoming me so kindly, Addie. I really appreciate it and it makes me feel better to know I'm not alone. I AM making the changes in my life style, to start this journey. I'm eating 1880 or less calories a day, I walk for 30 minutes to an hour every day and sometimes at night when I'm bored and want to eat, I do other exercising like cardio and stretching, anything to get my body moving. I am drinking protein shake after protein shake, and eating as healthy as I possibly can. Tomorrow, I'm going on a hike with my grandad, whose 10x more fit than I am, and hes nearly 60!

I know the fat wont melt off over night, but I want to start losing it. I've got a boyfriend and he tells me that I'm beautiful, and I know he means it, but I want to look better, not only for myself, but also for him. We've been together for nearly 2 years, and that's not a long time compared to some old couples whove been together for 50 years and whatnot, but I hope that someday that will be us.

I'm looking for any advice from anyone who wants to help. I'm thinking of joining a gym, so I'll have the proper equipment to use when I work out, instead of feeling down right idiotic when i step on my grammas ancient stair-stepper that's been around since I was 5 years old.

Since I'm getting a job pretty soon here, hopefully asa grocery clerk or something of the sort, I'll be able to move around more and more, than I do usually- since my days USED to consist of: Computer, tv, food, sleep. I'm so pale because I never go outside, and I know I'm just so unhealthy. I know for a fact that I'm never gonna be Bikini-status, but just to step on the scale and see a number below 200, will be good enough for me.
 
Kaylamarie said:
Hello all,

the name is Kayla, Suffice to say, I am 5 foot 4 inches and 235 pounds- In clothes, you can't tell how severely fat I am, but alone in my room I see everything I'm hiding. I'm tired of hiding under baggy clothes! I want to lose the weight and keep it off. I'm a teenager, and suffer from chronic depression, that has made my life a living hell and made it so difficult for me to be happy- and thus, I eat and eat and eat. My whole life I've been eating junk, but I wanna change. I've been through fad diets, lost 5 pounds and gained it back and I'm done. I REALLY want this more than I want anything. I want to look good, I wanna be confident, I wanna be healthy; but most of all I wanna be HAPPY.

I realized, that I can't do this on my own. I'm ready to start this long journey to a better me. I'm ready to do whatever it takes. I don't want to die young, because I was too lazy to take a walk, or get up off the couch. I want to have friends and a social life- I'm turning to the people of this community, to potential friends, to help me. I've heard of pregnate mothers with stretch marks, I've heard of older people with stretch marks- I have never been pregnate, I'm definately not old, and I've got stretch marks already. I want to STOP this process before it's too late. I know that stretch marks wont dissapear 100%, but they can fade, and I want to reverse this as much as I can before it's too late.

Desperate for success,

KMarie.
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Hello Kayla,

I totally understand you. I suffer from manic and depression episodes and have been rapid cycling. I am in a similiar situation. I am about 5'5.9 and I weigh 282.2 pounds. I used to weigh 320 pounds, ended up on here in June of 2007 at 300 pounds, fought my way down to 260, and through the last year or so off the forum, have gained twenty or so back, not fun.

but I didnt start losing weight until September last time. Sometimes you don't lose weight right off the bat. So dont stop, keep trecking and you will see results. Took me from June 2007, to September 2007, to start losing weight. Your changing your whole lifestyle. I eat, binge, etc.

Start a diary and I shall visit. I know what your going through. I dont want to die young either, and its sad we have to think about it when we are still young. I am 32, but I was overweight since I was 16.


so ..start a diary and peeps will write in your diary and give you inspiration, inspiration that will drive you to your goal!

You have already made some steps.

best wishes

always
natalie jo :party:
 
Hi Kayla!

I'm basically exactly the same weight as you and exactly the same height. I know you're feeling so bad at the moment but the fact that you've made the decision to do something about your weight and health and you've come onto this site is a massive step in the right direction!

You are right - stretchmarks fade - and you are still so young that you will not have done any lasting damage to your body. You write really eloquently and obviously have a lot going for you. Be gentle with yourself - don't try and do everything straight away and fall into the all or nothing trap that a lot of us have - it just leads to bingeing.

Start a diary thread so we can all keep up with your progress and offer you our support - it'll help you as well.

Good luck - you're just starting out on an exciting journey of dicovery!

Harriet
xxx Hugs xxx
 
yeah, i too am guilty of hiding under the extra large shirts, was kidding myself, refusing to face the weight scale, as the fat lbs just kept increasing, then i had to buy 2XL shirts, sigh. Then the other day took a good look at myself in the mirror after a shower and it was NOT a pretty site, a huge wake up reality call! Being here and ready to take action I think is a huge positive first step for you, me and others here! We CAN lose the fat, sensibly, over the weeks and months ahead (hey, it did not come on our bodies overnight or in a month, it ain't going off in a month all at once, but it WILL come off). Okay now go out for a walk, eat some veggie stir fry, drink water water water.

Kaylamarie said:
Hello all, the name is Kayla, Suffice to say, I am 5 foot 4 inches and 235 pounds- In clothes, you can't tell how severely fat I am, but alone in my room I see everything I'm hiding. I'm tired of hiding under baggy clothes! I want to lose the weight and keep it off. ...
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Hello Kayla,
Just thought I would drop by and say hi...

I hope you are rocking it out. And even losses or gains.... come onto the forum. Nobody judges you.


I just thought I would say that...

because some newbies don't make it...

even oldies dont make it ... like me ...but I am back and ready to rock ...


hope your doing well and keep posting....

We are here for you!

always
natalie jo :party:
 
Treat yourself to cosmetic surgery in the future when you lose the weight, to get rid of the stretch marks; a nice reward to look forward to some day when you achieve your goal.

Okay, I am off for a walk, melt a little fat off my lard ass gut!
~randall
 
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