doublevirgo
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Hi Everyone,
I am sure many people here have stories, but I will try to get a short synopsis of where I have been and am now. I have been heavy for a very long time. I can't pinpoint for sure, but looking at childhood photos I suppose the real problems started around 3rd grade and just kept going. Teased, stressed, economically challenged, parents divorced, not sufficient positive feedback yada, yada, yada, depressing childhood. When I graduated high school I think I weighed about 260lbs, and I am 5'2".
I did not go right to college as I could not afford it, so took a job as a dispatcher for a security company (sit down job, yuck), and over the next few years gained weight til I was about 290-295lbs. Eventually moved on from this job and became a nanny for three boys. This was a much more active job and I eventually got my weight down to about 217-220lbs. This was achieved by a natural daily active routine, limiting sugar intake, and overall portion control.
Met husband and got pregnant with my daughter at about 217lbs, and gained about 45lbs in pregnancy. Stayed home with her and gained some more til I was about 270. Started working out every day for about an hour a day and watching what I ate closely, and got my weight back down to 225 or so.
Went back to school to become a registered nurse, and no longer had time to work out an hour a day (or at all because I had to travel 3+hours a day and homework, etc, so did easily 15-18 hour days). Gained weight again and back to 290 by beginning of my last year of nursing school, and then I got pregnant with my second daughter.
So, graduated nursing school June 3, 2009, had my daughter on June 22, 2009 and weight just before delivery was about 308. After delivery I went back to 295 or so. I have basically stayed at this weight (give or take a few pounds) since she was born.
Let me say my life is one of constant "survival" mode and it is very difficult to make this happen. I know I have to take care of myself, but right now I am struggling to keep some kind of income steady as a new nurse in an economy that does not want to hire anybody (much less if you are not experienced). So, stuck on night shift sitting most of time watching patients sleep in their homes.
I am sleep deprived, broke, and feeling like I am constantly failing everyone including my children and myself, and all I know is it has got to change.
I am here as a first step to try and again get myself in better shape for myself and my children. Apologies for the lengthy intro, but this is the basics. Looking to get started and not sure where to begin other than finding a place to get information and try to get started.
Tamara
I am sure many people here have stories, but I will try to get a short synopsis of where I have been and am now. I have been heavy for a very long time. I can't pinpoint for sure, but looking at childhood photos I suppose the real problems started around 3rd grade and just kept going. Teased, stressed, economically challenged, parents divorced, not sufficient positive feedback yada, yada, yada, depressing childhood. When I graduated high school I think I weighed about 260lbs, and I am 5'2".
I did not go right to college as I could not afford it, so took a job as a dispatcher for a security company (sit down job, yuck), and over the next few years gained weight til I was about 290-295lbs. Eventually moved on from this job and became a nanny for three boys. This was a much more active job and I eventually got my weight down to about 217-220lbs. This was achieved by a natural daily active routine, limiting sugar intake, and overall portion control.
Met husband and got pregnant with my daughter at about 217lbs, and gained about 45lbs in pregnancy. Stayed home with her and gained some more til I was about 270. Started working out every day for about an hour a day and watching what I ate closely, and got my weight back down to 225 or so.
Went back to school to become a registered nurse, and no longer had time to work out an hour a day (or at all because I had to travel 3+hours a day and homework, etc, so did easily 15-18 hour days). Gained weight again and back to 290 by beginning of my last year of nursing school, and then I got pregnant with my second daughter.
So, graduated nursing school June 3, 2009, had my daughter on June 22, 2009 and weight just before delivery was about 308. After delivery I went back to 295 or so. I have basically stayed at this weight (give or take a few pounds) since she was born.
Let me say my life is one of constant "survival" mode and it is very difficult to make this happen. I know I have to take care of myself, but right now I am struggling to keep some kind of income steady as a new nurse in an economy that does not want to hire anybody (much less if you are not experienced). So, stuck on night shift sitting most of time watching patients sleep in their homes.
I am sleep deprived, broke, and feeling like I am constantly failing everyone including my children and myself, and all I know is it has got to change.
I am here as a first step to try and again get myself in better shape for myself and my children. Apologies for the lengthy intro, but this is the basics. Looking to get started and not sure where to begin other than finding a place to get information and try to get started.
Tamara
Good luck!