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Alright, so, hi. My name is Alexis and I'm tired of being the "fat one." I haven't necessarily ever been called the "fat one" or even looked at as that, but in my mind, that's exactly who and what I am. As a 23-year-old recent college graduate, I am kind of in a funk. Going through a "quarter-life crisis," if you will. I think a lot of that quarter-life crisis has to do with the way that I look and feel about myself and my weight.
Growing up, I always viewed myself as the chubby girl. I was never really made fun of for it and it was never an issue that others addressed, but I always felt like I was different from everyone else. I think a lot of my body issues have to do with the fact that I've always been a little taller than my peers (I'm 5'9"). I'm different from the average, petite girls I always seem to surround myself with.
Once middle school came around, I actually became the "fat one." At 13, I finally got to my highest weight, weighing about 200 pounds. I was about 5'7" at the time. I finally had enough of being overweight and lost 70 pounds over the next year. As a huge changing point in my life, that year kind of seems like a blur to me and I can't even begin to remember everything I did to make myself lose so much weight. As an avid soda drinker, I know I made myself cutback on Coke, allowing myself only one small cup a day. Aside from crunches I would do on the floor in my room and some lifts with soup cans, I never worked out.
My lowest weight was about 130. I loved this weight. Although I don't remember feeling one hundred percent satisfied with my weight at the time, looking back, I looked wonderful and I think I would feel wonderful if I achieved that goal at this point in my life.
Over the years I've gained some weight and right now, I'm at a solid 172 pounds. Recently, I've been trying to do things to watch my weight, and although I keep falling back into old habits, my weights been staying pretty close to 170.
In the past, my diets and weight loss plans have been strictly that. Losing weight. Looking skinny. Feeling skinny. But my goals have gone beyond that. To me, right now, achieving my goal of 130 is a lifestyle change. As a vegetarian and quasi-vegan (I don't eat meat, seafood, eggs or dairy, but I do cheat sometimes and eat eggs or milk in cakes and whatnot), I've recently begun to enjoy nature and our environment and being active. I don't want to just look great, I want to feel great. I want to be active. I want to have energy. I want to enjoy being outdoors and being physically active. I want to make physical activity and living healthy a hobby and something that I'll carry with me for the rest of my life.
That being said, I'm ready for change. I'm a huge procrastinator, so when it comes to dieting, I'm the kind of person that will just put it off until tomorrow. Before I begin a diet, I tell myself I'll start tomorrow and then go out and eat something really terrible as a sort of "goodbye" to my food guilty pleasures. Not this time. I want to change my habits so much to the point that I won't have those guilty pleasures to enjoy. I won't enjoy eating junk. Like I said before, I want this to be a lifestyle change, not a diet.
Alright, so, starting today, Friday, September 24th, my life will change. I don't know if it's good or bad that I don't have a specific date in mind for my goal, but in general, I'd just like to lose 40 pounds within reasonable time. A loss of one to two pounds per week would be absolutely wonderful, but I'll take what I can get.
Current weight: 172.2
Goal weight: 130
As far as food and drink intake goes, I want to allow myself only one small can of diet soda per day, drink plenty of water and focus on intaking detoxifying liquids like green tea. I'd like to stray away from sugar and I want to work out six days a week, my rest day being Sunday.
I'm ready to do this. :]
Growing up, I always viewed myself as the chubby girl. I was never really made fun of for it and it was never an issue that others addressed, but I always felt like I was different from everyone else. I think a lot of my body issues have to do with the fact that I've always been a little taller than my peers (I'm 5'9"). I'm different from the average, petite girls I always seem to surround myself with.
Once middle school came around, I actually became the "fat one." At 13, I finally got to my highest weight, weighing about 200 pounds. I was about 5'7" at the time. I finally had enough of being overweight and lost 70 pounds over the next year. As a huge changing point in my life, that year kind of seems like a blur to me and I can't even begin to remember everything I did to make myself lose so much weight. As an avid soda drinker, I know I made myself cutback on Coke, allowing myself only one small cup a day. Aside from crunches I would do on the floor in my room and some lifts with soup cans, I never worked out.
My lowest weight was about 130. I loved this weight. Although I don't remember feeling one hundred percent satisfied with my weight at the time, looking back, I looked wonderful and I think I would feel wonderful if I achieved that goal at this point in my life.
Over the years I've gained some weight and right now, I'm at a solid 172 pounds. Recently, I've been trying to do things to watch my weight, and although I keep falling back into old habits, my weights been staying pretty close to 170.
In the past, my diets and weight loss plans have been strictly that. Losing weight. Looking skinny. Feeling skinny. But my goals have gone beyond that. To me, right now, achieving my goal of 130 is a lifestyle change. As a vegetarian and quasi-vegan (I don't eat meat, seafood, eggs or dairy, but I do cheat sometimes and eat eggs or milk in cakes and whatnot), I've recently begun to enjoy nature and our environment and being active. I don't want to just look great, I want to feel great. I want to be active. I want to have energy. I want to enjoy being outdoors and being physically active. I want to make physical activity and living healthy a hobby and something that I'll carry with me for the rest of my life.
That being said, I'm ready for change. I'm a huge procrastinator, so when it comes to dieting, I'm the kind of person that will just put it off until tomorrow. Before I begin a diet, I tell myself I'll start tomorrow and then go out and eat something really terrible as a sort of "goodbye" to my food guilty pleasures. Not this time. I want to change my habits so much to the point that I won't have those guilty pleasures to enjoy. I won't enjoy eating junk. Like I said before, I want this to be a lifestyle change, not a diet.
Alright, so, starting today, Friday, September 24th, my life will change. I don't know if it's good or bad that I don't have a specific date in mind for my goal, but in general, I'd just like to lose 40 pounds within reasonable time. A loss of one to two pounds per week would be absolutely wonderful, but I'll take what I can get.
Current weight: 172.2
Goal weight: 130
As far as food and drink intake goes, I want to allow myself only one small can of diet soda per day, drink plenty of water and focus on intaking detoxifying liquids like green tea. I'd like to stray away from sugar and I want to work out six days a week, my rest day being Sunday.
I'm ready to do this. :]
