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mixedbeans

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I'd like to say that I'm coming to this forum with both fists pumping in the air ready to wage yet another war on myself, but the truth is, I'm exhausted. This neverending battle with myself must come to an end - so, I'm swallowing my pride and waving a big ass white flag in the air.

I'm fed up with all the self-loathing. I'm fed up with beating myself up over my weight. I'm fed up with dieting. I think it's high time that I surrender all this hate and guilt towards myself and begin to live.

The truth of the matter is I'm fat and I'm unhappy. My weight isnt the only contributing factor to my unhappiness, but it's an identifiable source, and one that needs addressing. So that's what I'm doing, I'm making a little note of things I can do to convert my unhappiness into happiness. I have 2 immediate goals in mind. The first is to get to a healthy BMI - which will take 70 pounds. The second is to be able to look in the mirror and smile, not only because of my accomplishments, but moreso out of acceptance for myself.

So yeah, let's see what happens.
 
Knowing what you want is a great place to start. Goodluck on your journey. Stay focussed and you will get where you want to go. Just accept that it won't all go your way all the time. We have to get ourselves over those bumps in the road with as little fuss as possible.
 
Yay!! I am hearing the Rocky theme as I read your post! It sounds like you are ready to do this - I am excited to read your diary as you document your progress!
 
I'm down 6 pounds and boy oh boy can I already feel the difference. I'm learning it's not about deprivation, but more so about moderation. If I'm really craving something, I eat it, but only in the allotted serving size. It's not easy, I've wanted to binge and eat more than a serving, so instead of leaving temptation around, I ate my serving of wheat thin garden vegetable toasted chips, and dumped the remainder of the bag in the trash. lol. extreme? yes! But I cant yet trust myself and my discipline is not yet where it should be.
 
Wow down 6lbs already? FANTASTIC.
You are on the way to a new you. You rule.
 
Congratulations on making such a good start. and on your self control. That's not easy to stop at a serving or even throw away the extra. You'll need that strength of resolve more the further you go on, so hang on to it.
 
I havent posted in a while, but I'm still plugging along, and today it happened. Today I am now below 200 lbs. I seriously wanted to cry. Everything in my life is finally falling into place. And in six shorts weeks I will reward myself by going skydiving.
 
Just fantastic getting under that milestone number 200. Soak it all in ! Also I think chip companies would love the idea of a diet that requires throwing away half full bags of chips. Like a one-use bag that self destructs!

Ok I'm stupid, but keep it up!!
 
glad you're feeling optimistic :) it's defiantly hard trying to stick to servings and portion sizes. I don't actually weigh my food but do it by eye. (I may get digital kitchen scales at some point) Feel like I'm alot better at controlling the size of portions now though, and knowing when to stop eating. Still its hard to throw food away too, today I threw away half a baked potato, but I don't think I could have really saved it for tomorrow lol.
 
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