Hey Kate,
Great that you are back (don't be too hard on yourself hon, quite a few of us...me big time...regained some of the weight we had lost and then felt like complete and utter failures - in fact, although I only gained 25lbs, I felt like I'd gained the whole 58lbs back). The main thing is, you know what to do and you know how to do it

And you do kick ass. "I kick ass". Doctors orders are to chant this daily...hourly...every minute...
The sugar thing is so interesting. I honestly believe until recently that i was addicted to sugar. I'd calorie count, miss out good food and fill 1/3 of my daily calories allowance with bags of mini chocolate fingers or biscuits or chocolate bars. Even weight watchers chocolate bars... It was like I'd get all dizzy and weak if I didn't eat something sugery every few hours. I even scoffed a load of fruit - pineapple, apples, melons, grapes...all the sugery ones!
So I went cold turkey for a week - on anything with sugar in it or artificial sweetners - including squash, fruit, sauces with sugar, WW meals, processed meat, sweetcorn...you name it - if I didn't cook it and it wasn't sugar-free, I didn't eat it. I now feel free of the craving. I might have an occasional chocolate bar but its not the same as it was before. That week was utter hell though

I think it was all down to rampantly out of control blood sugar levels (given up wheat and processed carbs as well but that is another story!!)
Anyhowz, GO GO GO! 9lbs down and the rest of the weight will fall off. Stop beating yourself up and start praising yourself for doing good

Jay