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Thanks LaMa, and you are right experimentation is good, helps you find better and new strategies. Lately I have been eating more raw cucumber, zucchini, and lettuce for snacks. Filling, easier on the stomach than broccoli and cauliflower and pretty low calorie. Only problem is my protein is suffering a bit. It would be easier if I did not feel the need to eat a lot, but right now I am finding it easier to give in and eat low calorie things than not.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 
Maybe improvement is good enough and perfection is too much to ask for. Although your protein intake IS important.
 
LaMaria said:
Maybe improvement is good enough and perfection is too much to ask for
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I think you got that right, there is no perfection in this world...

No binge today, but I am still having a bit of a struggle stopping my eating after a meal... Guess I always will.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 
I had another binge dream tonight and I'm wondering if it means I didn't eat enough yesterday. It didn't even make sense. I was hiking and came across a gas station on top of a mountain (because clearly mountain tops with only a dirt road leading up to them are great places to sell gas). So I went in to buy something to drink and cleared out their sweets section instead. Even though upsetting my digestion is the LAST thing I want to do while hiking.
 
I am not sure binge dreams mean much more than that you have been thinking about bingeing. I am not a big believer in the meaning of dreams though. Better to dream it than do it, did it feel good to wake and realize you had not?

No binge here, but I did struggle a bit later in the day. Sometimes I think the more I eat the more I want to keep eating and binge. Maybe eating more early in the day and going hungry at night would help?? Not sure I want to try that right now.

Lets not binge tomorrow.
 
I usually feel less hungry in the evening when I eat more earlier in the day but not everyone is the same. I wouldn't say I've been thinking about binging other than some mild regret over overeating during the weekend but who knows?
 
I am always thinking about bingeing, always... For me the more I eat the more I want.

No binge today, and I was pretty busy most of the day so that helped.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 
alligatorob said:
I am always thinking about bingeing, always...
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Reminds me of how the Ankh-Morpork Times' resident photographer, a reformed vampire, talked about light... And makes me wonder if that isn't something you should be talking to a counselor about. Having to do this on willpower all the time sounds so tough.
 
LaMaria said:
Having to do this on willpower all the time sounds so tough.
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I guess it never occurred to me there was an alternative. I believe the desire to eat and eat more or less constantly is just a part of my nature, and always has been. Do you think a counselor could do anything about that? I am skeptical, but who knows. Are there "binge" counselors out there?

No binge today but I did have to use that willpower more than I would have liked.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 
You could try checking for a counselor or a doctor who specializes in BED or eating disorders generally. Those definitely exist, at least around here.
What you describe doesn't sound like what I've heard from other people who've lost a lot of weight. Maybe it has to do with how quickly you lost, maybe it's just how you're wired, or maybe it's something else entirely, but it's starting to worry me A bit and I think you deserve more help than our lay opinions.
 
Thanks LaMa, I will give it some thought. Maybe look around and see what might be available, as I said I am skeptical. I kind of think it is just the way I am wired, but being able to not think about bingeing so much would be better.

No binge today, but as always I was tempted. No more than usual though.

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 
Thanks LaMa, and no binge yesterday, it was a busy day that helped. I have been thinking about and investigating a bit (online) the counseling options LaMa, have not yet found a counselor in Utah who does BED, but still looking. I might at least try talking to someone once...

Let's not binge today!
 
alligatorob said:
I might at least try talking to someone once...
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Exactly. If you have the time and money it´s really worth a try. I´m absolutely not ruling out the possibility that it´s a physical thing for you, by the way, but dealing with constant cravings must be mentally hard as well. I remember watching a video about a little girl that at 4 years old was too big to walk. She was taken away from her mother for... 18 months or so? Quite long, I was kind of shocked. Thankfully she ended up recovering, getting to a healthy weight, and going back to her mom but she did have to stay on appetite suppressants because it wasn´t just her mom giving in to a whiny toddler all the time: she was genuinely hungry all the time.
 
Thanks LaMa, and I will see what I can find, even if it's online counseling. I don't want to spend a lot on it, but its possible my insurance will cover at least partially, and if it really makes a difference I will find a way. However as I said I am a bit skeptical, so will only do much if I think it will really help... I have no real experience with therapy of any kind, except my physical therapy of late, so am not sure what to expect.

No conventional binge yesterday, however I got into the artificial sweeteners again. I see that as a kind of no calorie binge, irrational as I should have known what the outcome would be. My guts hurt for much of the evening, a painful Superbowl. Not so bad as it was before, but not pleasant. They go in the trash this morning...

Let's not binge today.
 
Today I ate 112 calories above my target, including ~80 calories of fritos after I knew I was over target. I made a mistake when I figured my evening snack calories that put me 32 calories over target, the problem is that I think kind of thought what the hell, I'm over might as well continue. Not a good thing. Not sure its enough food or calories to count as a binge, but it didn't feel good.

I also knowingly drank more diet fake cranberry juice than I should have. That didn't feel good either. Looking back there is no question I was craving something sweet and gave into it. That's how I have gotten into trouble with the artificial sweeteners... Oh well, the battle continues tomorrow.

I have started looking for a therapist, but that is turning out to be harder than expected. I could only find one therapist listed in Utah who claimed to treat eating disorders, however when I called her it turns out she has moved to California and has a 6 week waiting list to do an electronic consultation. I also tried calling the National Eating Disorders Association, but could not get through. I then was able to do an online chat with them and got told I would go on a list to get an email referral, when my name came up, but the list is long, it could take weeks. I found a couple of residential facilities here, but that's not what I am looking for. Will keep after it, but am kind of discouraged right now...

Let's not binge tomorrow.
 
The waiting lists ARE discouraging, and I'm glad you're not in a bad enough state to get bumped up to the top, but it's better to be on it than not to be. Time goes quickly!

I personally wouldn't call what you had a binge but I do understand that you're worried it may be the start of a slippery slope :grouphug:
 
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