strengthinmind
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Hello I'm new here and I'm going to go on a massive rant huh! Basically I'm 20 years old 175 cm tall and weight 87 kilos. the way I think is really not healthy. this year has been really tough for me I separated with my long term boyfriend, gain some weight 
, had family pass away gained more weight moved to europe for a year to get away from problems at home but the food is just amazing here and gained more weight
I went from weighing 85 kilos which I know was over weight to being 105 kilos at my highest. When I was 105 kilos I was so upset with myself depressed etc. I went to the doctors and he put me on Duromine it worked of course I lost 10 kilos while on it eh 95 kilos I moved to europe. While in Europe like I mentioned I put weight on again and I got really frustrated with myself. Sometimes I would go weeks and weeks eating healthy and walking everyday for at least 45 minutes... sometimes I would just pig out!! and then sometimes I go days without eating properly at all ie eating an apple or an egg or some tuna for the whole day and starving myself which to be honest that is what going through my mind right now because that's the only time I saw results..I could actually feel my bones!! and it scares me that I feel this way because I know which path I am going down and I don't want to but when I see results it's so hard not to.
I currently weigh 87 kilos since I've been in Europe for 7 months. People comment you have lost weight and whatever it makes me feel good. Then i go through stages where i don't eat much at all and exercise and i weigh myself and it says i've put weight on!! my lowest weight has been 84 kilos... I put 3 kilos on in 3 weeks!! errrrr
Anyway I really think I need some guidance I've tried doing it on my own and I am proud that i lost about 15 kilos on my own (the duromine I put that back on
) but I don't know how to knock this wall down it's like I want to be 70 something so bad I can't even remember the last time I saw 70 something but I just can't do it... SOMEONE help me pleaseeee 
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, had family pass away gained more weight moved to europe for a year to get away from problems at home but the food is just amazing here and gained more weight I went from weighing 85 kilos which I know was over weight to being 105 kilos at my highest. When I was 105 kilos I was so upset with myself depressed etc. I went to the doctors and he put me on Duromine it worked of course I lost 10 kilos while on it eh 95 kilos I moved to europe. While in Europe like I mentioned I put weight on again and I got really frustrated with myself. Sometimes I would go weeks and weeks eating healthy and walking everyday for at least 45 minutes... sometimes I would just pig out!! and then sometimes I go days without eating properly at all ie eating an apple or an egg or some tuna for the whole day and starving myself which to be honest that is what going through my mind right now because that's the only time I saw results..I could actually feel my bones!! and it scares me that I feel this way because I know which path I am going down and I don't want to but when I see results it's so hard not to.
I currently weigh 87 kilos since I've been in Europe for 7 months. People comment you have lost weight and whatever it makes me feel good. Then i go through stages where i don't eat much at all and exercise and i weigh myself and it says i've put weight on!! my lowest weight has been 84 kilos... I put 3 kilos on in 3 weeks!! errrrr
Anyway I really think I need some guidance I've tried doing it on my own and I am proud that i lost about 15 kilos on my own (the duromine I put that back on
) but I don't know how to knock this wall down it's like I want to be 70 something so bad I can't even remember the last time I saw 70 something but I just can't do it... SOMEONE help me pleaseeee hehe