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Hello everyone,
My name is Becky, I'm 17 years old, and I'm very unhappy with my weight.
The thought of telling my boyfriend, my friends or even strangers online makes me extremely scared and embarassed, but I'm desperate to be happy with myself for my own sake. Strangers seem like the easiest people to tell and maybe get help from.
I started gaining weight after my grandparents died. Not only did I miss my grandparents, it was hard seeing my mother crying all the time, and my dad always focusing on her trying to make her feel better. She became depressed, 7 years later she still is, and I've felt very alone and neglected by her ever since.
Last month, I weighed 165 lbs (11 stone, 11 pounds) and was a size 16 bottom, 14 top. Today, I'm 157 lbs (11 stone 3 lbs), and a size 14 top and bottom. I've been dieting on and off for the past month or so, but the past 2 and a half weeks, I've been really focusing. I've been feeling weak, hungry and craving a lot of junk food. I gave in a few times and ate chocolate or crisps, and afterwards felt guilty and miserable.
My parents don't help me, they buy junk food for my dad (underweight) and for my brother (who is almost obese). They tell me I don't need to lose weight, and moan at me if they see more bones than normal, but then they call me fat, "jokingly". It's not jokingly to me, and hearing that coming from my own parents is heart breaking.
My boyfriend (of a year and a half, and one day) thinks I'm obsessed with counting calories, but he said hes proud of me for losing 8 lbs. He also says I'm not fat, but in the early days of dating him, he said I'm chubby (in a nicer way).
I feel so confused, like I'm the only one who can see it. I don't want to believe that they are lying to me, but I do at the same time. I'm miserable with the way I look. I need help and support, and no one is willing to give that to me.
The main thing joined this forum for is for advice on the amount of calories I should be eating. Usually (months ago, before dieting) I'd be eating around 1500-2000 calories per day. My "menu" for one day consisted of a lot of bread, biscuits, crisps, pasta, and hot chocolate.
I read online, that to maintain your weight (157 lbs), you should be eating how much you weigh (1570 calories). To lose weight at 1lb a week, minus 500 from those calories (1070 calories). I was wondering if this sounds correct? Before, I ate 1150 (plus 500 = 1650 calories = 165 lbs). I found that almost easy to do, except for little slip ups.
I'm finding it hard to stick to 1070 calories, and even today I've gone over that by around 150. It's almost 7pm and I'm starving. I wake up at 7am for college, and go to bed around 10-11 pm. How can I eat only 1070 in 15 hours?
Today, I've eaten:
7am: Ready brek, 135 calories (I weighed and calculated).
10:30pm: 2 pieces of thick toast and butter from the college canteen (I'm guessing around 260 calories)
1pm: 2 Jacobs crackers, half a wedge of The Laughing Cow cheese - 83 calories
1:30pm: Walkers cheese and onion crisps - 131 calories (I regret having these)
4pm: Two hot dogs (canned) on white buns - around 300 calories
5pm: Two white bread, tuna - 150 calories
Typing it up, I can see where I've gone wrong, but I don't know what to eat, when to eat it. I get £30 EMA and £20 from my parents a week, but it goes really fast, and all I can do is eat food that we have at home, which seriously is usually:
Baked beans in a can
Spaghetti in tomato sauce in a can
Hot dogs in a can
Bread
Milk
Mackerel in a tube/can thing
Plum tomatos in a can (these are good, 76 calories per big can)
Chicken soup (47 calories per packet, but don't fill me up)
Plus crisps, biscuits, etc.
ANY tips that anyone has will be appreciated very much. I'm pretty much desperate to have a diet that will be good for me, give me energy, but I can lose around one lb a week.
I'm excited about looking and feeling better and happier, but I'm at the stage where I need to kick myself up the backside carry on what I'm doing.
My apologies for rambling.
Oh, and I'm not sure if this is an American, Canadian, British, Japanese, anything forum, so if you're unsure about any of the words I've said, these are basically it:
Crisps - potato chips
Ready Brek - porridge
EMA - Education Maintenance Allowance - Basically I get paid £30 a week to attend college
Anything else, just ask.
Thank you, and I look forward to hearing anything from anyone.
My name is Becky, I'm 17 years old, and I'm very unhappy with my weight.
The thought of telling my boyfriend, my friends or even strangers online makes me extremely scared and embarassed, but I'm desperate to be happy with myself for my own sake. Strangers seem like the easiest people to tell and maybe get help from.
I started gaining weight after my grandparents died. Not only did I miss my grandparents, it was hard seeing my mother crying all the time, and my dad always focusing on her trying to make her feel better. She became depressed, 7 years later she still is, and I've felt very alone and neglected by her ever since.
Last month, I weighed 165 lbs (11 stone, 11 pounds) and was a size 16 bottom, 14 top. Today, I'm 157 lbs (11 stone 3 lbs), and a size 14 top and bottom. I've been dieting on and off for the past month or so, but the past 2 and a half weeks, I've been really focusing. I've been feeling weak, hungry and craving a lot of junk food. I gave in a few times and ate chocolate or crisps, and afterwards felt guilty and miserable.
My parents don't help me, they buy junk food for my dad (underweight) and for my brother (who is almost obese). They tell me I don't need to lose weight, and moan at me if they see more bones than normal, but then they call me fat, "jokingly". It's not jokingly to me, and hearing that coming from my own parents is heart breaking.
My boyfriend (of a year and a half, and one day) thinks I'm obsessed with counting calories, but he said hes proud of me for losing 8 lbs. He also says I'm not fat, but in the early days of dating him, he said I'm chubby (in a nicer way).
I feel so confused, like I'm the only one who can see it. I don't want to believe that they are lying to me, but I do at the same time. I'm miserable with the way I look. I need help and support, and no one is willing to give that to me.
The main thing joined this forum for is for advice on the amount of calories I should be eating. Usually (months ago, before dieting) I'd be eating around 1500-2000 calories per day. My "menu" for one day consisted of a lot of bread, biscuits, crisps, pasta, and hot chocolate.
I read online, that to maintain your weight (157 lbs), you should be eating how much you weigh (1570 calories). To lose weight at 1lb a week, minus 500 from those calories (1070 calories). I was wondering if this sounds correct? Before, I ate 1150 (plus 500 = 1650 calories = 165 lbs). I found that almost easy to do, except for little slip ups.
I'm finding it hard to stick to 1070 calories, and even today I've gone over that by around 150. It's almost 7pm and I'm starving. I wake up at 7am for college, and go to bed around 10-11 pm. How can I eat only 1070 in 15 hours?
Today, I've eaten:
7am: Ready brek, 135 calories (I weighed and calculated).
10:30pm: 2 pieces of thick toast and butter from the college canteen (I'm guessing around 260 calories)
1pm: 2 Jacobs crackers, half a wedge of The Laughing Cow cheese - 83 calories
1:30pm: Walkers cheese and onion crisps - 131 calories (I regret having these)
4pm: Two hot dogs (canned) on white buns - around 300 calories
5pm: Two white bread, tuna - 150 calories
Typing it up, I can see where I've gone wrong, but I don't know what to eat, when to eat it. I get £30 EMA and £20 from my parents a week, but it goes really fast, and all I can do is eat food that we have at home, which seriously is usually:
Baked beans in a can
Spaghetti in tomato sauce in a can
Hot dogs in a can
Bread
Milk
Mackerel in a tube/can thing
Plum tomatos in a can (these are good, 76 calories per big can)
Chicken soup (47 calories per packet, but don't fill me up)
Plus crisps, biscuits, etc.
ANY tips that anyone has will be appreciated very much. I'm pretty much desperate to have a diet that will be good for me, give me energy, but I can lose around one lb a week.
I'm excited about looking and feeling better and happier, but I'm at the stage where I need to kick myself up the backside carry on what I'm doing.
My apologies for rambling.
Oh, and I'm not sure if this is an American, Canadian, British, Japanese, anything forum, so if you're unsure about any of the words I've said, these are basically it:
Crisps - potato chips
Ready Brek - porridge
EMA - Education Maintenance Allowance - Basically I get paid £30 a week to attend college
Anything else, just ask.
Thank you, and I look forward to hearing anything from anyone.
