Newbie's "I will do it" journal

Forgot to add this part. The whole 'I'm starting life afresh and on a quest to lose weight' thingy is making me all energetic and hyper. Problem is I have my final exams coming up in less than 10 days and I am afraid I am too keyed up to sit down in a place and study. I need to focus, but its too difficult. Also, staying at home is making me worried about all the calorie filled food in the kitchen. The worst part is, its diwali time in 5 days and the sweets have already started arriving. Our refrigerator is stocked with sweets already and this weekend is going to be sweet making time. I dont' know how well my will power would hold, considering how it has been almost a year since I'd had sweets. Touch on wood.
 
Ah. The sweets time has begun and I am finding it really difficult to refuse. No, I am not talking about the temptation to just bite off that piece, but rather the courteousness involved in accepting sweets when they are offered. I had to eat half a piece of that absolutely mouth watering piece of sweet and worse yet, my sister had to literally grab it off my hand. It was that yummy. In my defense, it has been just 3 days. My will power mainly comes from not looking at yummy food in the eye. I do not have the power yet, to look at tasty food and say no. Hopefully, I will get there in some time. The upshot of all that festival eating is that I had to work out a lot more today. I walked briskly for about 90 minutes burning off about 300 calories.


So yeah, I am happy to say that I have kept to my limit of eating 1200 calories AND working out. According to my plan, I will need to work out for only 30 minutes thrice a week. However, I work out everyday now. After college opens, things will probably even out. According to my fitness diary, if I eat this way, I will lose another 2 pounds in 2 weeks. :) Here is to new hopes and changes in life.


Good night everyone!
 
Today was not a good day at all. :( I had to attend this function in my family and despite my thriftiness I ended up eating over 700 calories. But that is not the worst part. I had to meet a bunch of old friends and guess the place that they chose. Yep, an ice cream parlour :( I didn't have to eat that ice cream, but I did. The absolute worst was those french fries. The ice cream was not more than 300 calories but the fries were about 500 calories. Damn! I wish I'd my phone with me then. I would have counted the calories. I ended up over eating by about 400 calories today. I burnt off about 200 calories by walking in the evening. Altogether, not a very satisfactory day. I'm planning to sleep early and go for a brisk walk in the morning tomorrow to burn off some calories. Signing off tonight.
 
Found this in a thread and this looks very interesting. Today can be my day 1 :)



Day 01 - Your stats

Age
Height
Weight
Waist
Hips
Tights
Shirt/dress size
Pants size
Highest recorded weight
Goal weigh[/i]
Day 02 - How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day 03 - A picture of your fitspiration. What features do you like about this person?
Day 04 - Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day 05 - Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day 06 - Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day 07 - Do your friends and family know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they support you?
Day 08 - Your workout routine.
Day 09 - Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day 10 - What was the hardest thing you gave up during your weight loss journey?
Day 11 - Your favorite fitspo blog and why?
Day 12 - What food plan do you normally follow each day?
Day 13 - Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day 14 - What is your ultimate goal weight/look?
Day 15 - Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day 16 - When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day 17 - What is your favourite treat meal?
Day 18 - What food is your weakness?
Day 19 - When is your favourite body part to work on? Why?
Day 20 - What is your favourite form of cardio?
Day 21 - What is your favourite resource for healthy living info?
Day 22 - Quick! What are the 5 things you like best about yourself?
Day 23 - Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day 24 - When did you first notice your hard work paying off?
Day 25- When you reach your goals, what do you plan on doing to maintain your results?
Day 26 - What excites you most about reaching your goals?
Day 27 - How do you stay on track in tempting situations? (e.g. BBQs, Birthday parties, out with friends, etc.)
Day 28 - Have you had any setbacks you’ve had to overcome? How did you do it?
Day 29 - Your definition of beauty.
Day 30 - 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
 
Day 01 - Your stats

Age 23
Height 158cm
Weight 70kg
Waist 32
Hips 37
Tights
Shirt/dress size XL
Pants size 34
Highest recorded weight 73kg
Goal weigh 55kg[/i]
 
I've been a little busy with studying and everything. My diet isn't going too bad considering that it is festival time and everything. But yeah, it isn't going as well as I expected :( I was kind of hoping that I would have lost some weight by this time. I haven't lost much to be honest. I know that it has been just one week and that I have to be patient and it is going to go on for much much longer. The only positive outcome is that people who hug me tell me that I have become narrower around the waist :) Now that feels really good. However, I am not looking at myself in the mirror much because that is one sure fire way to get me depressed. I will have to wait until a few weeks for that. My boyfriend's birthday is in a few weeks. Exactly in one month to be precise. I want to lose some weight by that time. Now on to my day diary.


Day 2: How tall are you? Do you like your height?

I am 157.5 cms. And nope. I don't like my height :( I've always been a tall kid since childhood so I kind of took it for granted that I would grow tall, at least taller than what I am. But somehow, after 12, I grow wider than taller :( I pretty much stopped growing when I was 13. That has always been a sad fact for me. So I try to wear clothes that make me look taller and I love heels.
 
I know it has been long, but I am having exams right now. But tomorrow is the last one and after that I am blissfully free for a week before college starts again. I have been doing pretty well on my dieting. I have not weighed myself though. Not sure whether I should. Don't want to expect too much and get depressed. So I am gonna put it off for another day when I am confident enough. Tuesday to Thursday is gonna be a difficult time because there will be no exams and I will be sitting at home getting bored. So I am gonna sit and plan my future regarding colleges, admissions, studies, jobs, etc. And do some of my part time work that I couldn't do during the exams. Hopefully that will keep me away from "I-am-bored-so-let-me-eat-something" food. :) On a better note, I am going for a trek this weekend. This is my first official trek. It is for two days and I am hoping to have some good fun. :) Here is to losing weight and having fun in the trek :)


Day 3:

A picture of my fitspiration. Well I don't really have any one to get inspired from or anything. It is not that there is no one but I feel that no matter who the person their situation and mine were completely different and so looking at that person would not really make me relate to that person. Maybe if I find someone whom I can relate to, I might get inspired from them. But I am not really a "She is my role model and I get inspired from her" person :)


P.S: Oh forgot to add. I am using Myfitnesspal from my phone and I must say it is brilliant. One of the best apps I have ever seen. :) It is an online journal and you can enter your current weight, goal weight, exercise plans and it would give you how much you will have to eat per day. It is simply amazing. Everytime I crave a food I just go check my diary, see the calories in that food and see whether I can afford to eat it. :) Even though I haven't logged into WLF, I have been able to keep track of my eating with this app :)
 
There it was. My first cheat day. I honestly did not intend it to be one, but it turned out to be one. Everything just came crashing down, all the crap that's going on in life around me now. My past relationship, problems at home, my future and I completely lost it :( I over ate about 1600 calories and feel terrible about it. What does one do when all the crap that has happened in their life that caused them to over eat and become fat comes again? I am a very emotional eater I guess, so what do I do when I crave too much comfort food? Any suggestions??


Day 4: Your greatest fears about your weight loss

My greatest fear is that nothing will happen. I fear that after working really hard (excepting my cheat days) I am afraid some days that it will have no effect whatsoever and I will not lose weight at all.
 
Hi Newb ;)



There are a lot of ways that you can distract yourself when you are craving comfort food, you can go for a walk, you can call a friend, or something that really works for me is online clothes shopping, I go and look at all those things I would love to fit into and it puts everything back in perspective. You can also make sure you are prepared before hand, you know that the things that have caused you to eat emotionally in the past are threatening you again, so stock your house up with healthy alternatives that will kill the cravings. If you look online there are tons of comfort food recipes that have been “healthifiedâ€. For me, I looooove mashed potatoes and pasta, but I found a recipe online where you make mashed “potatoes†out of cauliflower which totally fixes my cravings, or I have spaghetti squash on hand when I need pasta.



But I think also you have to address your emotional eating as well, you are in a situation that you have been in before and your reaction to the situation (emotional eating) ended up making you less happy in the long run. You get to do this again and challenge yourself to do it differently this time. Being successful with your weight loss efforts can be your one saving grace, the one thing that is going right in your life when everything else feels like it's going wrong. It's the one thing in this whole situation that you can control, so you have to decide, at the the end of the day, are you going to have emerged from this situation making choices that made you happier, healthier, and stronger? Or are you going to re-live the pain the you felt when you put weight on before? Losing weight when it feels like stress is coming at you from every angle is extremely difficult, but that only makes it just that much more rewarding, at the end of every good day you get to sit back and say, “look what I overcame today.†And that feels so much better than having to count up the calories of a cheat session (or the guilt that comes picking up all the wrappers when you're done.) Take it one day at a time, and one choice at a time – stay focused on the long term and make sure that you are being honest with yourself about whether the choice you are about to make is really going to help you work towards what you want. It can be hard to put yourself as a priority when it seems like no one else is (the stuff at home, your relationship), but you have to focus on why this is important for you and why you are going to take this time to make your life better. So you had a tough day today, tomorrow is a whole new day and give yourself some time to think about what you will do differently and how you will prepare for it. I feel like I can really relate to your situation and these are the thought processes I use and it really helps me.



Good luck, stay focused, make sure to take the time to value yourself and remember why this is important to you :)
 
Originally Posted by Sparked


Hi Newb ;)



There are a lot of ways that you can distract yourself when you are craving comfort food, you can go for a walk, you can call a friend, or something that really works for me is online clothes shopping, I go and look at all those things I would love to fit into and it puts everything back in perspective. You can also make sure you are prepared before hand, you know that the things that have caused you to eat emotionally in the past are threatening you again, so stock your house up with healthy alternatives that will kill the cravings. If you look online there are tons of comfort food recipes that have been “healthifiedâ€. For me, I looooove mashed potatoes and pasta, but I found a recipe online where you make mashed “potatoes†out of cauliflower which totally fixes my cravings, or I have spaghetti squash on hand when I need pasta.



But I think also you have to address your emotional eating as well, you are in a situation that you have been in before and your reaction to the situation (emotional eating) ended up making you less happy in the long run. You get to do this again and challenge yourself to do it differently this time. Being successful with your weight loss efforts can be your one saving grace, the one thing that is going right in your life when everything else feels like it's going wrong. It's the one thing in this whole situation that you can control, so you have to decide, at the the end of the day, are you going to have emerged from this situation making choices that made you happier, healthier, and stronger? Or are you going to re-live the pain the you felt when you put weight on before? Losing weight when it feels like stress is coming at you from every angle is extremely difficult, but that only makes it just that much more rewarding, at the end of every good day you get to sit back and say, “look what I overcame today.†And that feels so much better than having to count up the calories of a cheat session (or the guilt that comes picking up all the wrappers when you're done.) Take it one day at a time, and one choice at a time – stay focused on the long term and make sure that you are being honest with yourself about whether the choice you are about to make is really going to help you work towards what you want. It can be hard to put yourself as a priority when it seems like no one else is (the stuff at home, your relationship), but you have to focus on why this is important for you and why you are going to take this time to make your life better. So you had a tough day today, tomorrow is a whole new day and give yourself some time to think about what you will do differently and how you will prepare for it. I feel like I can really relate to your situation and these are the thought processes I use and it really helps me.



Good luck, stay focused, make sure to take the time to value yourself and remember why this is important to you :)


Sparked!!! Thank you sooo much!!! :) This is the best advice I have received regarding emotional eating. I have in fact been pondering on ways to tackle my emotional eating habit and I have realized that there is only one criminal here and that is my relationship. I always find myself in emotionally draining relationships that end up making me feel empty and craving for food. I have now decided to take a step back and look at things from a proper perspective its working out :) I found myself in really stressful situations a few days back, but I literally turned my back on comfort food and I felt very good later on. :) It has given me a new confidence that I can do this. I have sat down and actually written down why this is important to me. Thanks a lot for your support :) :) :)


Now for my update!! I have found a new love and that is trekking!! I went for a jungle trek this weekend and it was super amazing!! I met a bunch of great people and altogether had a great time!! :) Planning to take this up regularly from now on. The best part is, my fitness has improved by leaps and bounds with just one trek. I can now climb a flight of 6 floors without catching a breath :) This has never happened to me ever! I now have a very good reason to look forward to weekends :) I have always been very sporty and its great to get back to the outdoors :)


College has started and this is my last semester. 5 more months and I will finally be done with college :) Its a heady feeling. Planning to make the most out of it.


Something that Sparked said made me think of something. When I was on WLF last year, I was writing down my short term and long term motivations and I had written that I did not and could not find a short term motivation which made me wonder whether I really did want to lose weight at all. I think I have finally figured out the motivating factors and why I want to lose weight. It is the fact that I CAN. It makes a big difference to my entire personality and outlook towards. I do very well academically and otherwise, but this has always been a thorn and now I am glad that I am on my way to getting over this obstacle. It gives me the feeling that I can hold my life together even when lots of things seem to fall apart. :) It's like the ultimate confidence booster :)


Day 05 - Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

I want to lose weight because I hate being unhealthy and unfit!!! I am a very independent person and being unhealthy sometimes makes me dependent on others. And oh yes, the ego. I can't stand to look like a loser in front of other people when I am so successful in other endeavors. So yes, I am doing it for myself. I am doing it to increase my confidence. With confidence, my attitude, outlook everything changes. It is a pleasure to look at myself in the mirror and not cringe :)
 
Aww I'm so glad if I was able to help at all! I can definitely relate to the emotionally draining relationships, I've been in situations where I spent all my energy supporting someone else and when no one was there to support me in return, I let food do it instead. It wasn't until I got into a relationship where we both took care of each other that I had the ability to focus on myself a little. That's so awesome that you were able to overcome the comfort food, it feels so good to know that you can do it!


And, dang, bravo for being able to climb 6 flights of stairs without being out of breath! I have a class that's on the 6th floor and there's always a little panting going on by the time I get to the top!


Sounds like you are in a great place to do this! Just keep reminding yourself of those goals you made!
 
Originally Posted by Sparked


Aww I'm so glad if I was able to help at all! I can definitely relate to the emotionally draining relationships, I've been in situations where I spent all my energy supporting someone else and when no one was there to support me in return, I let food do it instead. It wasn't until I got into a relationship where we both took care of each other that I had the ability to focus on myself a little. That's so awesome that you were able to overcome the comfort food, it feels so good to know that you can do it!



And, dang, bravo for being able to climb 6 flights of stairs without being out of breath! I have a class that's on the 6th floor and there's always a little panting going on by the time I get to the top!



Sounds like you are in a great place to do this! Just keep reminding yourself of those goals you made!


Yeah, I can completely relate to that. Turning to food for support and comfort!! I am just glad that I am out of that place now. :) :)


And thanks :) :) I am proud of the conquest of those flight of stairs. It was me or them :) And keep going, you will get there one day, where you can look down upon those 6 flights and smile without breaking a breath :) :)
 
It has been a long time since I posted here. I have had bad health problems in the last few months. The last 6 months have been really horrible. I ate right and exercised but continued gaining weight and after a point I just gave up. I started gaining weight, having headaches, amenorrhea and I just did nothing about it. It was a bad downward spiral and I lost all my friends during this time. After undergoing tests, I have been diagnosed with PCO and I am currently under medication. This is truly one of the worst depressions of my life and I have no one to turn to. I don't even have the spirit to do anything about my weight gain. I weigh about 165 pounds and I am slowly losing my will to do something about it. There is of course, that last shred of fight in me and it has made me come here for some support.
 
No matter what happens, I know I have to go on. So, here is another new start.


Had a good breakfast just now and took my meds. :) Looking forward to a good study session today. Hopefully, the temptors who make me eat more will stay away from me today and I can continue having a good productive day.
 
I have had my own troubles with my diet. As I inch closer to my goal weight, it's becoming more and more difficult. And the only thing that's constant is that, tomorrow is a new day. We can always renew our commitment tomorrow. I'm back on track now, 2nd day of doing so after almost 3 weeks of deviations and I only hope I can stay on it until my goal.


Be optimistic. It's a daily renewal of commitment. Not easy but the results are worth it :):)


Lets do this!!!!!
 
Originally Posted by Wild at Heart


I have had my own troubles with my diet. As I inch closer to my goal weight, it's becoming more and more difficult. And the only thing that's constant is that, tomorrow is a new day. We can always renew our commitment tomorrow. I'm back on track now, 2nd day of doing so after almost 3 weeks of deviations and I only hope I can stay on it until my goal.



Be optimistic. It's a daily renewal of commitment. Not easy but the results are worth it :):)



Lets do this!!!!!


Yeah! It has been an uphill battle almost everyday. There have been so many times when I have decided to give up, but there is this small thing somewhere within me that never lets me give up. So, I just need to focus on that part :) :) :)


Thanks for the support!!!! :D :D
 
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