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Dany826

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I happened upon these forums today and thought I'd sign up to hopefully become part of a support system that's greater than myself.

I'm not TERRIBLY overweight (about 40 pounds, which is pretty bad for me though), but I've had body image issues my whole life, starting at 14 when I developed bulimia and subsequently became anorexic. I finally woke up about 10 years later after having my first child and realizing what I was doing to myself, and haven't thrown up or starved myself since, thank God.

I'm now 39 and gave birth to my second child when I was 30 and now my body is like, taking revenge or something, because I have about 40 pounds that I cannot take off, no matter what. I'm stuck at the same weight I was when I was 9 months pregnant with both of my children, and it's getting rather depressing. I KNOW in my head what I need to do, but there seems to be a link missing that makes my body follow in line. It's like there is this other person living inside me that's just bent on staying overweight and unhealthy. I've made changes over time to what I eat and drink, and really what I need to be just doing now is getting some regular exercise. My body HATES getting up and exercising. Nobody knows why? Maybe it's allergic, who knows? I end up starting something for about 2 weeks or 2 months and then stopping again. Of course, after I stop, I'm right back at square one after a couple weeks, and I just want to rip my hair out.

I guess what I really need is a weight loss buddy who understand what it's like to be a work-from-home mom with her butt glued to the computer during the day and homeschooling a child and being hooked on computer games. I'm thinking my biggest problem is lack of accountability and that I'm very good at making excuses for myself when I'm left to my own sneaky devices.

You guys seem to be a great community and so yea ... here I am.
 
Welcome!!

welcome! well i just join this forum too and everyone on here is extremely nice and helpful! I am sorry you had to go thru such a horrible sickness while growing up, but you should be proud of yourself for overcoming something so dramatic and painful. I know what is like to have to be in front of the computer all day because thats all my job is, though i wouldnt know how hard it is to have to raise a child ontop of that. when do you ever have time for yourself? i know exercicing is hard, im not a big fan, i wish i was because you benefit from it so much, not just by your appearance also it plays a huge part and helping you reduce stress and it even helps to put you in a better mood. but its just so hard!!:p i have the same problem sometimes as you, i'll get extremely motivate for 2 weeks and do great but see no drastic results so i quit. im so impatient. But just try to start off with one thing at a time, maybe increase your water intake for a week (water helps like magic with weight lost!) and then maybe the next week after that start doing some sit-ups or go out for a walk twice a week. Start small and work your way up, I feel sometimes that makes goals a lot more reachable. Good luck!
 
Aww thanks for the kind words!!!

I've actually switched to iced green tea several months ago and drink about 2 quarts of that (give or take) per day, with lemon juice and splenda and lots of ice (ice = water, right?). I tried straight up water but just couldn't do it. I also drink a glass of soy milk every morning and eat whole grain breads instead of refined stuff. I try to take my vitamins regularly and do what I can to leave unhealthy things behind. I've totally kicked my chocolate addiction (never thought THAT would happen and I'm pretty proud of that).

I just really need to get over my mental block to exercise. Blergh.
 
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