eaustralia728
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Hi guys,
I'm here because I'm 15 years old, a sophomore in high school, and I really struggle with my weight. More specifically, my eating habits. I'm not obese, but I would consider myself overweight, and no, I don't think I'm just another teenager who's overreacting. I am 5'6" and currently 160 lbs. I am extremely strong due to my background in athletics so I do have muscle but I do also carry around some extra fat. I was an elite swimmer and I travelled around the country to compete at high levels. I had been swimming for 11/15 years of my life, and I very recently quit. Although I initially thought I was just burnt out, looking back i think I was just so incredibly frustrated with my body and how it was holding me back and not allowing me to reach the new heights that my competitors were reaching. I just wouldn't admit it to myself then. This isn't the only way my weight has held me back in my life. I haven't worn a bikini since like second grade, and I dread the summers. I am extremely insecure and have issues socially because I am so ashamed of myself and expect others to view me in the same way. Around people I know, I am very comfortable but with people who I've just met I feel very inferior and judged due to my weight. It really stole a lot of my childhood from me and prevented me from doing things that I would've loved had I not been so insecure. It started in fourth grade when I remember putting on a shirt for the first day of school that I had picked out and really liked, but I couldn't wear it when I saw how fat it made me look in the mirror. Middle school was awful. I went through some depression because of my weight and my inability to control my eating habits. Then, in eighth grade, I acquired a severely traumatic head injury and was unable to perform physical activity safely for 5 months, and unable to perform anything more than mildly intense for 8 months. My weight went from 130 lbs to 160 lbs. when I returned to swimming it dropped back down to 140, then I quit and now it's back up to 160.
I cannot stick to a diet, no matter how hard I try. I've had success in 2 week spurts or so, but it is so difficult for me. I really struggle with over eating. Since I am 1/5 kids and the oldest, there is a ton of junky snack foods in my house, and my weakness, ice cream, all the time. None of my younger siblings struggle at all with their weight. They're all what you would consider "skinny". For some reason, I got the sucky genes. So even when I get my dad to buy me healthy foods to eat, I am always surrounded by temptation. I've gone off track too many times to remember and started over too many times but I really want to be serious this time. I've never talked to anyone, not even my mom and dad, about my weight struggles or that I'm self conscious. It's too embarrassing for me. I'm reaching out because i want to see if doing this with the support of other people with allow my habits, and my life, to take a turn for the better. I don't want to fear the beach this summer. I want to enjoy my life and not have to continuously battle this obstacle. I want change. I really do.
I was just gonna say hi... I don't know how this turned into my life story but I guess it's good to get out there.. Thanks for anyone who read this. I hope this can be the start of something great!
I'm here because I'm 15 years old, a sophomore in high school, and I really struggle with my weight. More specifically, my eating habits. I'm not obese, but I would consider myself overweight, and no, I don't think I'm just another teenager who's overreacting. I am 5'6" and currently 160 lbs. I am extremely strong due to my background in athletics so I do have muscle but I do also carry around some extra fat. I was an elite swimmer and I travelled around the country to compete at high levels. I had been swimming for 11/15 years of my life, and I very recently quit. Although I initially thought I was just burnt out, looking back i think I was just so incredibly frustrated with my body and how it was holding me back and not allowing me to reach the new heights that my competitors were reaching. I just wouldn't admit it to myself then. This isn't the only way my weight has held me back in my life. I haven't worn a bikini since like second grade, and I dread the summers. I am extremely insecure and have issues socially because I am so ashamed of myself and expect others to view me in the same way. Around people I know, I am very comfortable but with people who I've just met I feel very inferior and judged due to my weight. It really stole a lot of my childhood from me and prevented me from doing things that I would've loved had I not been so insecure. It started in fourth grade when I remember putting on a shirt for the first day of school that I had picked out and really liked, but I couldn't wear it when I saw how fat it made me look in the mirror. Middle school was awful. I went through some depression because of my weight and my inability to control my eating habits. Then, in eighth grade, I acquired a severely traumatic head injury and was unable to perform physical activity safely for 5 months, and unable to perform anything more than mildly intense for 8 months. My weight went from 130 lbs to 160 lbs. when I returned to swimming it dropped back down to 140, then I quit and now it's back up to 160.
I cannot stick to a diet, no matter how hard I try. I've had success in 2 week spurts or so, but it is so difficult for me. I really struggle with over eating. Since I am 1/5 kids and the oldest, there is a ton of junky snack foods in my house, and my weakness, ice cream, all the time. None of my younger siblings struggle at all with their weight. They're all what you would consider "skinny". For some reason, I got the sucky genes. So even when I get my dad to buy me healthy foods to eat, I am always surrounded by temptation. I've gone off track too many times to remember and started over too many times but I really want to be serious this time. I've never talked to anyone, not even my mom and dad, about my weight struggles or that I'm self conscious. It's too embarrassing for me. I'm reaching out because i want to see if doing this with the support of other people with allow my habits, and my life, to take a turn for the better. I don't want to fear the beach this summer. I want to enjoy my life and not have to continuously battle this obstacle. I want change. I really do.
I was just gonna say hi... I don't know how this turned into my life story but I guess it's good to get out there.. Thanks for anyone who read this. I hope this can be the start of something great!