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bigdogmom

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Hi All,

I've been lurking here for a week or so, added a couple of posts and I'm now ready to start my own diary. I'm hoping this is just what I need to get moving in the right direction again.

I'm 5'1 1/2" tall and currently weigh 149.8, I'm 46. My goal for now is 130. I haven't seen that number since my DS was 2, he's now turning 21 next week. For my height I'd probably be best in the teens, but I haven't seen those since I was one.

you can see from my ticker, that I've got started. That start happened about 3 years ago. For the last year or so I've been stuck right around the number I am now. Why? Good question with probably a combo of answers. My top pick at the moment is hormones.

Those have been screwed up since my DD was born 14 years ago. I've had several procedures done to try and fix the situation. At one point I was on progesterone for a year. I was able to lose then, even got within 5 lbs of goal. They took me off of that when the did another procedure. Anyway, it all ended with me having a complete hyster in Nov.

Due to surgery, I was sidelined from exercise for a few months. I've been back up and running with that for the past 3 months though. 2+ months ago I joined a gym and work out 3x a week. ST for 30-45 min and Cardio for 30. I'm working with a trainer, so I know what I'm doing should be right. I know I'm building muscle as my arms are growing. Any guy would love to have my arms. I'm also getting stronger which is a good thing. The bad thing... I'd like for my inches to be shrinking, not growing. LOL

Food wise, I'm an organic kind of gal. I eat whatever I can organic and fill in for the rest. only whole grains for me, no white stuff. I also avoid HFCS, CS and any processed sugars. I also avoid hydrogenated oils and partially HO. I read every label and use very little prepackaged items. HAve done all that for approx 10 years.

I try to stick to approx 1600 cals and I use Fitday to record what I eat. I keep my macro nutrients at approx. 25% pro, 25% fat and 50% carbs. I divide that into 3 meals and 2 or 3 snacks, making sure I have protein with each time I eat.

I bake my own bread, so I know exactly whats in it, although I eat very little of it, my family enjoys it though. I make my own yogurt, plain. And cook most stuff from scratch.

Ok, so looking at the above, what's my problem.... my theory, it's that I can't seem to keep all of those balls in the air at the same time. What I eat doesn't change, but the quantity does at times. Exercise hits it's lows now and again. But I think, for now it's a hormone thing. I just started onto HRT on Tues to try and see if that will help. I'd like to lose the hot flashes for summer too. LOL

oh, one other thing, I did read the sticky on HIIT and I gave that a go at the gym on Tues. I'm going to try incorporating it a couple of times a week and see if that shakes me up a bit.

I'm open to any and all suggestions. I'm hoping by journaling here and getting the added inspiration that I will finally get where I'm going.

Breakfast today:
1 c. oatmeal (whole rolled) with 1 Tbs ground flax seed, 1 tsp natural peanut butter, 1/2 scoop protein powder and 1 oz of raisins. (320 cals).

Thanks all for reading an commenting.

EDIT**** After a few days and re-reading this, boy it doesn't sound too good. Please scroll down and see my new enlightenment. A much better post I believe and more realistic. Thanks.
 
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I was wondering if you were going to start a journal, I looked for yours after you posted on mine. Welcome! I have found this online journaling to be the best motivator. I am super impressed with your diet, very healthy. I have heard only good things about HIIT, I look forward to hearing if you have positive results with it. Good job joining the gym, it must have been hard for you to have been sidelined from exercising for so long.

Good luck with your journey! I will keep reading your journal to see your progress.
 
Funmom - I've been wanted to get the started for a few days now, but just ran out of time Thanks for checking up on me. Why not give the HIIT a try yourself?
 
I am trying to get a little more in shape first, so I don't have a stroke or something, LOL

Right now I do walk/run intervals on my treadmill for 45 minutes. Let me know what you do, and how it's going.
 
Funmom - I do the HIIT like in the sticky, but I've started with just 5 intervals. I'm going to up it next time. I also do run/walk intervals on the TM. 2 mins at each level for 35 min.
 
Well today got away from me. I didn't eat to badly, but things just got very changed around from my initial plan. I was running all day, so I had to make some changes. no fast food though. I went to work, then the gym, then to get my hair done. Then DD and I went shopping and I got some new clothes. From there we stopped at my SIL's she had picked up some cases of fruit for me wholesale. Then home to make dinner. After that we ran to pick up some paint primer. Tomorrow I will tear this place apart and clean it good. Then we will be going to another SIL's for fireworks and eats. I'm taking a salad, I think.
 
TGIF. I could use a rest day, but instead I need to clean this house. It's driving me insane.

Breakfast has started off well. 1c Go-lean Crunch, 1/2 banana and 2/3 cup skim milk for a total of 288 cals. Oh and two cups of tea, decaf no sweetener.

Plan for today. Vac, de-clutter, pay bills, laundry, stretch, make something for tonights party.

Have no clue what dinner will include, so I'm making sure to take something I can eat.

I'm hoping my new exercise video comes today and I will try that for some extra cardio.

Have a great day all and drink your water.
 
Wow! reading all of the running around you have been doing makes me feel like I need a nap myself! LOL

I haven't read the sticky re: HIIT, I will check it out.
 
Funmom - I didn't quite get to all of that today. I made hummus for the party, i'll take whole wheat pita along to go with it. I did vac the bedrooms and decluttered a bit of my closet and one drawer. Then went to visit with a friend for a bit. DH should be home any minute and we will head out. Have a great Friday. Did you check out the sticky?
 
Wow, what a 24 hours. We had our firework party and I didn't do so hot with what I ate. Today I began again. I was out this morning and then headed to the gym.

I had a great WO. I can now do 21 regular push-ups, not motified, not from my knees, but real push-ups. http://weight-loss.fitness.com/images/smilies/hurray.gif
:hurray: I'm psyched about that. I know i'm getting stronger.

I didn't WI today as I know I had some salty stuff last night. My fingers were little sausages this morning. I will get on the scale tomorrow.

I have my pedo on too and just finished with some housework. After dinner, we are headed to do some shopping, so that should add to my steps for the day.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
 
so last night after doing some cleaning, I found an old diary I used for recording my weight, measurements etc. The date was Feb 1991. The interesting part is I was just 9 pounds less than I am currently and the measurements are very similar to what they are now. Tells you just how long I've been fighting this monster.

It was neat to have the confirmation equal what I remembered.

Anyone else ever have something like that happen?
 
New realizations

After reading a thread "Fear of Thin" here on the site, I sat down and did the first part of the exercise. Wow it really makes you think and makes you re-evaluate.

I do tend to make excuses and it is from fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of attracting attention. I used to be really shy, I've grown out of that some now, but I think that is part of it. Fear that I will fail. And many others.

I am working on those now. I see that much of it stems from a parent for who some things were never good enough. She is a perfectionist of the tall order. What did I do, I married another one. I love my DH dearly, but he has much of the same traits as my DM.

I have spent a lot of time saying "why bother, it will never be good enough anyway". Well it's time to grow up. It's time to realize that the only person I need to please with my weight loss is me. If I am happy with what I weigh or how I look, it doesn't matter if it meets others expectations or not.

As the saying goes, "the only thing to fear is fear itself".

I did some work on that last night, with some mental gymnastics to talk myself past all of that. I have a book called "Feelings...Buried alive never die" I pulled it out after reading that thread. I needed to go back there.

2 years ago when I was so close to goal, is when I first read it. I was applying the principles and it was working. So I decided I need to use it, apply it and keep working it.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I know that sounds so over used, but its true. I'm ready, I'm tired of being afraid of nothing but myself. I give myself permission to accomplish this goal. I'm going to embrace it, love it, work it and make it happen.

I'm done with messing around, done with taking one step forward and two steps back. I am going forward and downward. I will make goal.

I'm 46 years old, time to grow up and face those fears once and for all. :hurray:

off to journal my breakfast and plan my day.
 
Sorry I haven't been by in a while, thanks for turning me onto the fear of thin thread, I will check it out. It sounds like your head is in the right place and you have been doing some great workouts, I know you can reach your goal this time. You have extra support from this site on your side now too. Have a great day!
 
Funmom - thanks for the vote of confidence. Yes, that fear of thin tread is great.

Good news, I lost 1.4 this week. YEAH. I'm headed in the right direction again. I also had an awesome WO at the gym. I have yoga tonight too.
 
Wow ever since reading that fear of thin article, my brain has been working over time. There is something that keeps flashing through, I haven't been able to grasp it yet, but I know its there. I think sometimes I'm trying to hard to figure out what it is. It is exciting to try and find it.

I hope as I relax tonight or in the nights to come, it will work it's way to the surface. Then I can deal with it once and for all.

Wish me luck.
 
Busy day today. Eating was so-so, but I did do yard work and just took another walk. I've got to get a handle on this coming weekend.

a friend's daughter is home on leave and called me about going to lunch tomorrow. I'm planning as of now to just order a salad. I've got to stick to that, because the place we are going is definitely not calorie friendly. LOL

Have a great night everyone.
 
Great idea planning ahead, that's the only way to go out to eat without blowing your diet. Sounds like you are on the right track, keep us posted.
 
Went to lunch today. Had a steak salad. Just the right amount of steak on there, to keep my protein up. However, they put french fries on the salad. I used very little dressing, so that helped a bit. Then hit the gym for a really good WO.

now to make it through tomorrow. Picnic at my DA's and most of the stuff will be fattening. I'll manage though.

Sat is a grad party, that one should have some healthy stuff, plus I will hit the gym before going to that one.

i'm pushing for a loss this week, even if it's small.
 
The picnic went well. I think I did great with what I had to eat. Then my cousin brought her Wii over and we were trying her Wii Fit. That is really cool. DD now wants that for her BD next month and I think it would be a great investment.

Has anyone here tried that? It is definitely worth looking into if you've got a Wii.

Have a great 4th everyone.:patriot:
 
I have not tried the Wii fit, but it does look cool from everything I've seen and read. There is a thread about it on the exercise through weight loss section. It seems that most people find it beneficial. My birthday is in August, I am pushing DH to get me one. I need A LOT of variety in my WO's or I get bored and stop.

Good job on trying to eat right and getting your WO's in. What restaurant puts french fried on their salads? If someone was craving french fries I don't think they would order the salad...it's so hard to make healthy choices when there are things like that!
 
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