New Year New Me

jjjay

jjjay

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Hi guys.
I'm not so new, just haven't been here in a long while. I'm 34 years old and live in the north of England. Feeling very very fat and more than a bit disgusted with myself. And I really don't want to be in the same situation this time next year. My back and feet are hurting because of the extra weight and I struggle to wear high heels any more.

I haven't even stepped on the scales for 4 months (and really dont feel like I can just yet). So, I'm going to give it a couple of weeks or a month of good eating habits and exercise and face the scales when I can. At a guess I would say I'm around 210lbs. I was doing great a few years ago but fractured a bone in my foot and had to stop running for the last 18 months. It's only just started to feel ok again so I want to be running and losing weight. At the moment I'm a size 18 UK (but desperately trying to fit into my size 16 clothes for work) and I have to do somethign as I have no suits I can fit into at the moment.

It can't get any worse than this so...
no more chocolate, crisps, junk or large portions
under 1800 cals a day
exercise

Not that complicated really. Should be able to get it through my thick skull.

I'd ultimately like to run the Bupa 10k in May. That's my goal. Wish me luck!
 
Hi, welcome back.
Good luck with your journey. I don't think it's terrible to abstain from the scale to start however I highly encourage you to either take pics, or do measurements, or both. I didn't get great pics from when I started and it was hard for me to see the changes in the mirror, but comparing pics side by side and it was like 'wow, I can see a change!'

Also, don't cut out the 'bad' foods you like completely. You will feel deprived of them, and it's harder to stick with a 'diet' if you cut out the foods you like. 1800 calories is a great goal for calorie counts. Not crazy low but should give you a good loss! Weight lifting is key to preserve your lean body mass, so you can eat more calories as you lose weight and after while you maintain.
 
HEY!!! You stole my diary title!!! lol thats ok, i'll forgive you! Glad your back!!! Lets rock 2013!!!
 
Thanks Mystic - I can't quite face pics of myself at the moment but will take measurements and you are dead right about not going into complete denial of all things nice - it would just make me binge at some point. Thanks for your support :) - I do have a question for you though, how do you get your ticker to show in your signature?

Hey Trusylver - you got to make me do those pushups!!

Korrie - sorry!! You are welcome to use it too!

ijustwannabefit - heyheyhey! Nice to see you again. I haven't officially signed up for it yet but work always put in a sponsored team of 40 or 50 and usually quite a few drop out near the time. I'm just going to concentrate on getting back to running 5k training runs as I know I can up the distance to 10km on the day itself if I'm running 5k comfortably...which I'm nowhere near doing at the moment! Just round the block will leave me gasping for breath lol!

So sitting here with my bowl of weighed out cereal...250 cals including milk. A new year. Lots of things I want to achieve.

I managed to find a size 18 suit jacket in the sales on Monday which matches a pair of trousers that I have that still just about fit...phew...so I actually have something I can wear to client meetings in the next month if I need to. That makes me feel slightly less panicky every time I think about what I am going to wear work-wise.
 
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Yay, Jjjay!

Clothes is what has made me determined to lose the blubber again. I have barely anything that fits! About two outfits. I got sick off seeing all my too-small clothes hanging up in the wardrobe, and stuffed them in a dark pit of my house. I bought a pair of size 18 jeans in the River Island sale, and THEY ARE TOO BLOODY SMALL arrggghhh. On new years eve, I had the choice of two loose-ish size 16 dresses. But the trouble is, they have got shorter where I have put on weight,not just eurgh,-shes-fat short, but arse crack type short. I had to go casual. On new years bloody eve, and I felt so un-glam, and bloody awful.

I remember going shopping in topshop and river island when I was a size 12-14, not long ago at all, this Autumn in fact, I knew I wasn't exactly a skinny minnie, but I felt great. I had a bit of a podge, but nothing like the tummy I am currently growing, which is actually threatening to take over the universe. On the 21st/12/12, I was surprised when it didn't just explode and destroy the planet.

Sorry, I know I have gone into a self centered rant, but, the point is, I know your pain :)

I'm gasping for breath as well, going to start on the rebounder soon, and build up my fitness, I hope to be inspired by you and your 10k run training missy. Hows your foot? Maybe you can alternate running with the cross trainer so you don't put it under too much stress. I know not everyone likes those tho. Just make sure you get yourself a really decent pair of shock absorbing trainers.
 
you will be back to your old running ability in no time :)

now drop and give me 10 pushups :gnorsi::toetap05:
 
jjjay said:
Thanks Mystic - I can't quite face pics of myself at the moment but will take measurements and you are dead right about not going into complete denial of all things nice - it would just make me binge at some point. Thanks for your support :) - I do have a question for you though, how do you get your ticker to show in your signature?
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Um, you make a ticker, I use tickerfactory.com, then come on here on at the top right hand corner click on 'settings', then on the left hand side a little ways down click on 'Edit signature' then just paste the link of your ticker there.
 
Okay! After a not very good weekend...I am now on track!

I have decided to see what life would be like without bread and potatoes for a while - mainly because I eat a lot of both, particularly bread and I want to get to a point where I can take it or leave it!

So today:
breakfast was an egg omlette (no milk, just whipped eggs) with 1/4 cup chopped roasted chicken breast
snacks - raw carrots, 2 nectarines, 2 sml oatcakes and a rice cake
lunch - green salad with 1/4 cup feta cheese and M&S calamari (plain, not battered)
dinner - went out to eat but didn't have any of the bread or potatoes...v small chicken liver salad starter, small lamb wellington (practically nouvelle cuisine small!!) and vegetables and salad. Small portion of chocolate mousse.

I've added everything up, including quite an honest appraisal of portion size which was all a lot smaller than normal and its about 1700-1800 calories (i.e. 700 cals for the lamb wellington - probably an overestimate).

Walked 15 mins to the restaurant and back. 20 press ups in my room before going out.

Clothes don't fit! Eek! 1 day down...many more to go...I can keep on the straight and narrow...The first week is the worst!
 
Feeling really positive today - like this is something that I CAN do. I weighed in at 212lbs last week which really frightened me - that's a stone more than the last time I said I wasn't going to get any heavier. I refuse to be that weight going forward.

I don't actually feel that hungry. I'm thinking about trying a 5:2 fasting kind of pattern - will read up on it and have a think.

Another 20 press ups done today (the half ones - on knees...but better than nothing!). They are getting more doable so I might be able to switch to proper ones soon.

Hmm my ticker seems to have gone from working...to not working. I wish they'd sort the signatures out on this board!
 
Hey - nice to see familiar avatars :) from 2011 (i changed mine - haha)

Good luck with your weight loss journey!! see you around!
 
hey guys! It is so nice to see old "faces" or rather, hear old names!!

Feeling good this morning! I was 207 on the scales!!! From 212 last Friday (which really depressed me!!). I know its first week water loss etc... but still...it all helps with the motivation!

I tried one of these fasting days last night - went through the whole day on 420 calories and then got home and couldn't keep it up. I ate a two egg omlette with tomato and ham (300 cals or so) - so still a fasting kind of day. The book should arrive in the post today so I'll read up all about it. I need to do something around my blood sugar levels/craving/metabolism as that's what gets me. Still no bread or potatoes - 2 days and counting! Considering how much bread I usually eat, this is a major achievement. Today is a more normal calories day 1800 or thereabouts. Lots of walking too as I'm working in Manchester so end up parking miles away from the office.

Arms and stomach now aching from the press ups competion! LOL!! They are getting easier to do though (easy is the wrong word...less really hard?)
 
Hey! yay for 207 lbs - look forward to seeing that on mine! :)

Well done on avoiding potatoes and bread - good luck with keeping it up!
 
Thanks Justina :)

On one hand, a gooood day - walked for 80 minutes from one office to the other to the station etc..., ate 1800 cals for the day, still no bread or potatoes...on the other hand - around 400 of those calories were chocolate / sweet things. If I'd just cut those out, it would have been a GREAT day!

I'm feeling a lot less sluggish and having a far fewer ups and downs hunger-wise during the day with less processed carbs. It's quite an interesting experiment.

The other big thought I had today - walkign past some lovely women's clothes shops in Manchester, all with sales on, is just how beautiful some clothes are...if you are thin. For so many years, my clothing purchases have been based on:
- how fat or slimming does this look?
- will it "do" in the circumstances
- do I feel ok in it rather than terrible?
- out of desperation - "got to find SOMETHING" that I can wear for that occasion that looks alright.

Ironically, I like clothes and I like shopping. I just find it a real trial when weight and not feeling/looking too fat is at the centre of it all. So, I would like to lose weight, get down to a size 12 and for once be able to try on the beautiful clothes and be concerned with cut, quality, questions like "is it a classic base piece for my wardrobe that I can mix and match and will last for years" "is this a WOW dress that I can walk into that party wearing" - I don't know, I guess choose clothes on a basis other than "do I look fat".

I'd like to be able to buy some boots without finding I can't zip them up over my calfs.
I'd like to be able to wear high heels without my feet hurting
I'd like to be able to wear skinny jeans without my belly folding over the top
I'd like to be able to wear oversized clothes and look all "kooky and girly in a man's shirt" as opposed to "fat girl wearing baggy clothes to hide under".
I'd like to be able to wear a neat little shift dress with a jacket for work

So there is only one conclusion - I have to lose weight.

It won't be good for my bank balance...but then again, I spend too much trying to find comfort pieces of clothing that stop me from feeling too bad about how I look - and then get really narked when I catch sight of my reflection from a particular angle and my jumper or trousers that I relied on to feel ok in...actually look pretty awful. I KNOW its not the clothes, they haven't changed...I KNOW its about how I feel about myself but still...
 
Pretty inspirational post!! I especially liked your reasons to lose weight!! I should probably print it and put it on my fridge lol!! :hurray:

jjjay said:
I'd like to be able to buy some boots without finding I can't zip them up over my calfs.
I'd like to be able to wear high heels without my feet hurting
I'd like to be able to wear skinny jeans without my belly folding over the top
I'd like to be able to wear oversized clothes and look all "kooky and girly in a man's shirt" as opposed to "fat girl wearing baggy clothes to hide under".
I'd like to be able to wear a neat little shift dress with a jacket for work
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very good post I have copied it as well and will print and put up by my desk at work

we WILL do all of that if we all stick together and support each other

:)
 
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