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[Desperate2BThin]

So, my story is long. With my family history, I'm pretty much destined to be fat. Most everyone in my family is or has been fat at some point. I myself am currently heavy for the 3rd time in my life. Other than getting a bit chunky as an early teen, the first time I really started to gain a lot of weight, I was a senior in high school. By the time I graduated I weighed 157 lbs. I continued to gain weight after graduation until I was 212 lbs at age 19. At some point I decided enough was enough, and I started dieting and exercising until I got down to about 155-160 lbs. Unfortunately however, I stopped exercising and went back to my old eating habits until I was back up to 205 lbs. At age 21 I once again decided that enough was enough and began to diet and exercise once more. A year later I weighed in at 132 lbs. A weight I had not been since I was 16 years old. I kept the weight off for about 3 years, and then gradually went back to old eating habits and stopped exercising yet again. I began to slowly put the weight back on, and by the time I was 26 I weighed 165 lbs. It was around that time that I became pregnant with my first child. During my pregnancy all bets were off, and I rapidly gained weight until the scales touched 265 lbs by the time I delivered!!! I had gained 100 lbs during my pregnancy!!! It has been a little over 3 years since I gave birth to my son, and I'm only down 20 lbs. I have tried several times since then to lose weight again, only to give up usually around a month or two into my efforts. It seems SO much harder this time to get the scales to budge. Not to mention, mustering the will to put that much effort into weight loss again just seems so daunting. I have SO MUCH to lose this time. I feel desperate to be comfortable in my body again. I just feel so trapped. I get discouraged so easily nowadays. Currently I have been putting in a real effort for the last week, and have seen NO weight loss. I plan on hopefully joining a gym later this week. I thought that maybe if I joined a forum and had people to talk with when I needed to that it might help. So, here I am.

Age: 30
Height: 5' 7"
Current weight: 245 lbs
Goal: 155 lbs
Dream Goal: 135 lbs

 

[4everSome1Else]

Hello and Welcome Desperate2BThin
Your story seems like something I've gone through since grade 7-8.
I've been up and down with my weight, the smallest 'Ive ever been was probably at 130-140 and that was in grade 7-8. I did make a huge change in my lifestyle about a year ago and went down to around 140
I understand what you mean though, this is one battle that never really ends.
When we really think about it and change our life for good, it's about eating healthy, exercise and loving yourself/body.
You must ask yourself a lot of questions before really doing this. It's not about being thin
that won't work, it's about changing your life and being healthy..right?
I am no pro, but I do wish you the best on your lifetime journey.
I think a really good thing is to stay here in this forum. It's really helped me focus a lot when it comes to what I eat.

 

[Desperate2BThin]

Hi 4ever. Thanks for your reply Yes, it is definitely not just about being thin (though that is a great bonus, right ; ) I recently went to the emergency room for what I thought were heart attack symptoms! It turns out it wasn't my heart, but esophageal spasms, but that was enough to make me take another serious look at what this weight is doing and could potentially do to my health. I need it to come off! For many reasons.

Good luck in succeeding in your goal, and thanks again for the reply!