Lol I love FF8, I'm far too insecure for my own good >.< gets in the way of alot of other things in life
My hair's a little longer now so maybe not quite as Selphie like lol
Going to post new pictures on a thread here at some point
try to get opinions on how to fix what I hate..
It's my
DUTY to advise you that you are a
CUTIE.
And, you rock with inner and outer
BEAUTY.
The
brightest star from the surface of the earth is the
SPIRIT of a YOUNG WOMAN, unbroken.
The most
vicious vision is from a YOUNG WOMAN with
WILL formed from the same
SPIRIT.
The most
ferocious HEART formed from the same
SPIRIT will
never die
DREAMS surrounded with
HEART,
WILL, and an
unbroken SPIRIT,
can not be stopped
(Chillen)
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Never lower head nor believe your beneath anyone on this earth.
None who criticize you are without fault of their own.
The Judgment of others and/or being overly judgmental of others can cause internal and external poison, and hamper true circumference of clear vision.
Does one look at another and truly see?
Maybe, if they were able to remove the spec from their own eye, but this isn't possible, because we all have specs in our eye; therefore, their vision of you are flawed as it comes from a flawed base to begin with.
Everyone STINKS, and sometimes persons need to take a GOOD WIFF of their own @ss, and just maybe this could make their vision just a tad clearer, once they get passed the self stink.
(Chillen)
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I would like your to read this article. I know its long, but TAKE TIME TO READ IT:
On personal judgment, sense and discernment
Making decisions. We all make them all the time. Big
decisions and little decisions. We make big decisions such as
who we will marry, what profession or occupation we are going
to pursue, where we will work, where we will live, etc. And we
make small decisions: how we will respond to a problem that
has suddenly come up during our day, what we will fix for
dinner, what store we will go to to purchase an item that we
need or want, how we are going to respond to a question someone
has just asked us, whether we are going to study hard and do
our school lessons or not, etc.
Every day is filled with a myriad of decisions. And these decisions are often not simple. They are often complex, involving many facets and
considerations, pros and cons. Often some kind of risk or
danger is involved and one has to assess the degree and
likelihood of that danger in making the decision. Whether one
is investing money in the stock market, choosing a spouse,
accepting a job, lending money to someone, or buying a used
car, there can be all kinds of hidden dangers.
The right decision is not always easy to know. Decisions usually involve
calling on our store of knowledge and previous experience. But
as complicated as the considerations may be, we usually quickly
assess all the many factors, make our decision, and go. And
many of these decisions we make shape and make our life. They
can make us or break us. And underneath all these decisions we
make all the time is personal judgment.
Personal judgment, good sense, discernment is what makes the world go around. It is behind everything. It is behind all the important decisions
made in this world. It is the most important ability a person
can have. By it we all live or die. No other ability is so
important to a person as judgment and good sense.
We all must make our own decisions. No one can make them for
us. Not even those who love us most and are closest to us.
Once we are adults, of age, we can do anything we wish. We are
free to act as foolishly, as stupidly, as we wish. And we all
live with the decisions that we ourselves have made. The fool
lives with the consequences of his foolish decisions and the
wise man lives with the consequences of his wise decisions.
The quality of our life is directly related to the quality of
the decisions we make. Our life at any moment is pretty much
the end result of the accumulating aggregate of all the
decisions we have made over our lifetime.
Good decisions come from good judgment and good judgment is
closely connected with knowledge, understanding, a seeking and
inquiring mind, seriousness, and a habit of reflective thought.
Poor judgment is closely connected with ignorance, lack of
understanding, lack of reflective thought.
Closely connected with personal judgment is another important
element: personal values, outlooks and attitudes. The godly,
upright man of principle makes one kind of decisions. The
ungodly, unprincipled man makes very different kinds of
decisions.
Generally speaking the man of good judgment is that upright man
ruled by sense, reason and conscience. It is that man who does
those things tht he ought to do, those things that conscience
requires; that man who is attentive to that debt that we all
owe to ourselves, to do that which is right. Not all men are
ruled by sense, reason and conscience. The common mind is more
likely to be ruled by impulse, feeling and base appetite. It
is the godly, reflective mind that is ruled by something
higher.
We see a person engage in some foolish action or conduct. It
may be something he has done or something he has failed to do.
We ask ourselves why he did it. Why did he do that? His
action revealed an error in judgment. What causes errors in
judgment?
What causes bad judgment? Bad judgment is generally
caused by distortion of judgment by some distorting agent.
What do we mean? What might this distorting agent be? What
kind of agents are we talking about? It could be one or more
of the following: laziness, cowardice, vanity, ego, pride,
anger, hatred, romantic infatuation, lust, envy, jealousy,
greed, etc. And because these distorting agents tend to be
sins we can see that foolishness and sin are closely connected.
Many of these agents, such as laziness, cowardice, or vanity,
for example, tend to be deeply engrained habits that present
themselves as character traits. A lazy person or a coward or a
vain person, for example, often makes poor judgments because of
the distorting influence of their character weaknesses. Their
weaknesses rule, distort and overpower their judgment. In the
case of a lazy person a large portion of the decisions and
actions that he makes every day may be strongly influenced or
decided by his laziness. How he does things, what he does and
doesn't do, almost everything he does, may be determined by his
laziness. Thus we see how a character defect can affect a
person's judgment and his life.
Everyone does his own thinking; no one can do it for him.
Everyone manages his own life; everyone manages his own house.
I manage my house. My wife manages her house. If one has
children each child manages his own house. No one can manage
our houses for us. We have to do it ourselves. Some people
are conscientious, work hard, manage intelligently and
responsibly, do those things that they ought to do when they
ought to do them, listen to that voice within when it speaks,
and have clean, well-swept, orderly houses. Other people are
sloppy, indifferent and careless, do nothing that they ought to
do, manage their houses stupidly and foolishly, and have dirty,
unkempt, slovenly, disorderly houses.
(Article by someone else.)
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I wrote this before, but post it again to provide you a sense of inspiration:
My wife isnt the most gorgeous, but she does contain the most inner and outer beauty:
My wife walks this earth with not being blessed and/or favored with the best genetics or body composition as compared to the so-called norm. She could easily fall victim to incorrect self-pity and in correct sorrow and depression (to make this list short). But she doesnt.
About 5 years ago, my wife was diagnosed with Lupus, and also has a bone condition called: Fiber Dysplasia of the front left facial bone (has had this all her life), she can carry an extra 15 pounds of water in her legs, get skin rashes, swelling of various tissues, bone pain, muscle aches and pains, severe migraines, severe sweating, to name only a few.
She has had several operations on her face where they literally shaved her front cheek bone and sinus area that continually gets blocked from the bone growth. She had one about 6 months ago, and this one was rather serious and needed to be done or she faced certain death due to the placement of the bone growth. (brief synopsis)
She never complains, and is not ashamed of herself, always puts herself last and her family first. She is always persistent: She is my idol.
Doctors say she won’t live past the age of 60. I say she will because of her heart. Whatever happens, when the night comes, I will pick up the pieces.
If you ever wondered what drives me, it’s my wife. I keep myself physically conditioned to be able one day to: cloth her, bath her, feed her, and put her to bed. I love her: She is my idol. When the night comes, I will pick up the pieces.
I must be prepared so I must keep my aging body fit for the task and not let her down or myself down.
What she lacks in beauty she makes up with her heart and soul: I love her.
I have cried and I have bled in the gym. I know the journey.
However, there is nothing I can’t bare when I look at her, that she hasn’t felt.
She is the one that boils in my heart of desire. I would do anything for her.
This one of the reasons I am who I am and act the way I do. I know I can make her life as happy with her medical condition, and want to set out to do similar things for other people. I know it can be done because I see it every day.
I see everyday what having a determined heart and soul can do to a person.
With all of her medical problems, the fire burns within. She leaves no doubt that we have it in all of us to spark the fire and overcome anything in our path of life. So I Chill mentally in this respect, thus my screen name.
She is proof that it "can be" all in the head.
She is an inspiring person to live with.
She doesnt hang her head to no one.
She isnt a jack of all trades, but SHE IS THE MASTER OF ONE: Herself.
Have I seen her cry? Yes of course. Have I seen her depressed? Yes of course. Have I seen the incorrect pity? NO.
Her outer branches sometimes whither, but the ROOT stays strong and brings water to the whithering branches.
YOU CAN DO THIS TOO.
Best wishes in all that you do in life and within fitness,
Chillen
