New member with troubles

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TrumpetGuy

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Hi everyone. I am new to this forum and I thought maybe it could help me out and give me some support.

I will spare you all the details as I'm sure you have heard them a thousand times before.

I am a 27 y/o male. I was overweight my whole life. 275 at my heaviest. About a year ago I decided to finally deal with it. I lost about 20 pounds, then stalled, then I got really serious. Exercised ALOT and really watched what I ate. All said and done I got down to about 175 or so.

My troubles run a little deep now though. I am so afraid of putting any weight back on. I never want to go back to the way I was. The problem is I went a little crazy to lose my weight. I was eating only about 1300 calories a day and burning about 4000. My girlfriend was really worried that I was going too far and that I was exhibiting signs of an eating disorder. I have tried not to worry about my weight and body so much but it is very hard not to. Over the past month or so I have not been eating too healthy and I have gained some weight and it has been devastating to me.

I look at my body and I am not happy with it. I am way fitter than I used to be and people always tell me how good I look and how skinny I am, but I am just not happy with myself. I see extra skin/fat on my belly that I could never fully get rid of. I don't want to obsess over exercise and food but it is so hard. I just want to go through life and not have to worry about these things.

Does anyone else have similar experiences? How do you cope? This is the hardest part about weight loss for me. It is way harder than physically losing the weight ever was.

Thanks for reading.

Todd
 
I'm always thinking about my weight. It's all I think about. I think about it before I go to sleep, sometimes while I dream, and it's the first thing I think of when I wake up. Depending on the day, since my work schedule is totally random, I try to go to the gym for 2 hours and I don't eat anything I know I'll regret later. I watch my calories, even going as far as checking calories in a stick of gum.

It's the weirdest thing, because you have to think about it all the time. You have to otherwise you'll manage to mess up somehow, but you also can't think about it to where it's the only thing you ever think about.

Congratulations on the success you have made! Don't quit.
 
Thanks Chelster. It is tough. I have been eating pretty well this week and I feel a lot better and my daily workout always makes me feel great.

It makes things harder that I love to cook, and I especially love to bake. I know I should allow myself to indulge everyone in a while, but when I do it is almost like I can't stop myself. That is something that I have been working on. Before I ate nothing that was unhealthy and I never indulged. That of course lead to going way overboard when I would have something. The holidays were especially tough. A lot of cookies were consumed :) Lately I have been trying to have some stuff around the house and "train" myself to be able to have a little and not go crazy. It is still so hard.

I feel like a basket case most of the time. It is totally a mental battle.
 
Me too.

My brother's favorite ice cream is also my favorite ice cream. I'll be watching TV and he'll come over and sit next to me with a mountain of mint green and chocolate chips smothered in magic shell. I'll feel my hunger grinding and I'll get up and move away. Then my mom gets mad at me and says that I'm being a bitch to my brother. No one in my family understands.

They all think I'm somewhat off my rocker.
 
Hey Todd,

Thanks for telling your story. It sounds like you have serious stuff going on.

One of things that I have instituted in my life are systems. I have systems for eating and exercising that allow me to stop thinking about weight loss and let me enjoy life. I like beer, pizza, chips, etc, but it all fits into the system. I make mistakes, but the system moves forward on schedule.

Think about what type of systems you can put in place to make this weight loss into a machine, not a nightmare.

Frank
 
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