New here, scared to even try...

[angelisagemini]

I'm 25, and while I was always a little chubby I'm at my highest weight ever. I was around 130 pounds when I got married and now almost four years and a baby later I'm approaching 180.
I HATE my body. I don't go anywhere because I can't find clothes that fit me, my waist is two sizes bigger than my legs and I'm just under five feet tall, so I'm stuck in yoga pants pretty much every day.
My husband is in the military and he's completely fit, and I'm just so embarrassed for him to be seen with me.

I know to eat healthy, and I like exercise once I get going, but I just don't do it. I try for a day or two and then I just give up. It just seems like such a huge amount to lose to me and I'm afraid of failing. I've only lost weight once before and I was not doing it in a healthy way, probably about 2 steps away from an eating disorder. I just need to learn how to eat in moderation, and only when I'm hungry.

I guess what I'm trying to find here is some accountability. And some support and tips for working out at home. There's nothing like a gym full of Marines to make me want to go home and cry.

 

[ecky1]

Keeping a diary here really keeps you accountable so go and start one in the diary section. Don't feel embarrassed about the gym. People will respect you for improving your health. I was the same the first time I went but soon realized that nobody took any notice of me at all.
Work out the calories and write down everything you eat. That really helped me.
Make sure you drink lots of water.
Start to walk daily and if you don't like exercise just put on music and dance and jump about like a crazy person you'll burn up loads of calories like that. Young children can be a help with weight loss, you can run around and dance with them, pick them up and swing them about etc etc it all burns up calories and is fun.