Natsky's Diary: 100 pounds to lose!

[Natsky]

Hello everyone,
This is my new diary. I am not new to this, but I feel like it. I have been somewhat fat all my life. I was put on steriodal meds when I was young due to arthritis and its has messed with me since. I was anorexic and bullimic for a while, but of course that is no way to live. I have found a peace with in myself over that.

but now I weigh a wopping 275

or around there. My scale is acting up. ugh, need to get a new one. Will do in February.

but I was to weigh 175 pounds. So I have one hundred pounds to go. I am
5'5.5... yes the point five means something to me. It used to be point nine, but arthritis can make you shrink, ooo lucky me! lol
I need to take things in stride.

but this weight loss thing is hard. The bandwagon, as I call it, can be difficult to stay on when you reach the plateaus.

But I am going to conquer my fear and walk to my hearts content leaving behind all the negativity that drove me crazy!


well ttylater all..
I dont have a real dead line to lose this weight, because I seem to flucuate, but I have started losing weight.

now its just meaning to get a new scale, things will be clear to where I stand.

thanks for reading
and I hope to hear from you wonderful people

always
Natsky

 

[sophia28]

Hi Natsky, welcome back to the board - I'm a newbie myself but thought I'd to say hi & thanks for popping into my journal

I just read your introductory page and it made me feel for you, really. But hey the good thing about this forum is that we're all in the same boat, needing lots of support, cos this journey isn't easy that's for sure. Just got to hang on in there

About those jerks who shout out of cars, they are just that ---> jerks!!!
and in the grand scheme of things they mean nada --- nothing --- zilch.

I know it's hard to ignore them but urrggghhh, they are so not worth even a tiny amount of your brain to be used to think about them, so please don't make them make you feel down.

Sorry to hear you're having a bit of trouble getting back to exercise, but it's one step at a time. Baby steps. If you persevere, walking will soon become dead easy and you'll be ready to go back to jogging. Honest!

Have you tried Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds DVD's? They might be an idea, and you can do them in the safety of your own home, just to start you off, if you see what I mean. They're quite fun and effective too.

Or else Get yourself a nice mini iPod with a fab playlist turned up nice and loud to drown out the rude eeeeejits if they dare shout at you and have a nice stroll.

Take care & see you around the boards !

 

[Natsky]

Hi Natsky, welcome back to the board - I'm a newbie myself but thought I'd to say hi & thanks for popping into my journal

I just read your introductory page and it made me feel for you, really. But hey the good thing about this forum is that we're all in the same boat, needing lots of support, cos this journey isn't easy that's for sure. Just got to hang on in there

About those jerks who shout out of cars, they are just that ---> jerks!!!
and in the grand scheme of things they mean nada --- nothing --- zilch.

I know it's hard to ignore them but urrggghhh, they are so not worth even a tiny amount of your brain to be used to think about them, so please don't make them make you feel down.

Sorry to hear you're having a bit of trouble getting back to exercise, but it's one step at a time. Baby steps. If you persevere, walking will soon become dead easy and you'll be ready to go back to jogging. Honest!

Have you tried Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds DVD's? They might be an idea, and you can do them in the safety of your own home, just to start you off, if you see what I mean. They're quite fun and effective too.

Or else Get yourself a nice mini iPod with a fab playlist turned up nice and loud to drown out the rude eeeeejits if they dare shout at you and have a nice stroll.

Take care & see you around the boards !

Hello Sophia,
I used to listen to music when walking. I just never thought that maybe wearing music while walking during winter would be a good idea. I have been walking with my somewhat short fiance and it does keep me back. I need to walk faster and before you know it, I am way ahead of him, but at least I walk, even though its slow. But I think I am going to start walking by myself when he goes to karate. I think I shall take my music with me. or actually borrow the music from the library. They have a good idea of whats in and a complete set of different kinds of music, what a variety.

thanks for the support and the advice. I took what they said to heart far too much. I wish I had been stronger, but now I am stronger. Just about everyday I am yelled at out a window. Now I try to ignore it and keep walking... my coach is actually my fiance, with out him I would weigh a lot more right now. He has kept me going, walking. But now I have taken over and am walking my butt off.

ttylater
always
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

Walking nut!!

Hello all,
Well I ended up walking for an hour and a half...

It felt good, except for my feet and ankles. I have a heel spur I found out. Xrays of course. Most peeps have them. Now I just have to find those shoe pads that go inside the shoes.

But wow did it hurt, but it was so worth it. I am going to take a walk tomorrow, hopefully forty minutes to an hour. Probably up the hill to the hospital. Its the only hill there is in this area. And I am going to listen to my music.... Sophia you are right.

Need to leave those jerks behind and taking a jaunt, well speed jaunt outside. The snow has really covered the ground and they didn't do too good a job on the sidewalk. I feel like I am walking a trail in the woods. There is so much snow.

Pain, but well worth it. Arthritis always is a reason to keep walking!

always
Natsky

 

[sophia28]

Yay, that's the spirit!!

Well done to you for walking an hour and a half, that's brilliant! And glad you realise those doofus-heads are nothing to bother yourself about. What counts is your progress and nowt else.

I had a couple of 'jerk' incidents while I was out jogging a few years ago but I really put them in their place; they didn't know where to hide, lol. Honestly the last thing I need is to be distracted while I'm concentrating on breathing properly, and running as hard as I can...That's how I look at it to be honest.

Wow lucky you having a sports coach as your boyfriend, that must be so motivating. I'm dead jealous. And it's great to hear that he is helping you so much.

Hope you get your shoe pads sorted ... crank up that volume, and enjoooyyyyy ! That's what keeping fit should be all about, after all

Take care of yourself

 

[ABBAgirl]

Welcome to the WLF! You'll find lots of advice, encouragement, and inspiration here. At times the teaching may come across as rather blunt; not all are gifted with (nor see the need for) diplomacy - but most of the ones who give great advice around here do really know what they are talking about!

I had plantar fasciitis and a heel/bone spur when I started my WL journey. I am the same height as you (ok, you have .5" on me, you lucky duck!) and weighed 211 lbs. I joined Weight Watchers to help me get a grip on portions. Then I started walking. Then I got on my treadmill. And yes - it hurt like STINK! Plantar fasciitis had me literally limping, especially in the morning. But I kept at it, and made sure to stretch all the time.

In a nutshell, I am approaching my goal weight and FEEL FANTASTIC!! I totally recommend getting a used treadmill - loads of people have them just taking up space. If you put up an ad saying you want one for free, you will likely get one!

Sorry to ramble. I want you to be encouraged and really watch your portions and keep on moving!

Cheers and best wishes on your journey,
ABBA

 

[Natsky]

Yay, that's the spirit!!

Well done to you for walking an hour and a half, that's brilliant! And glad you realise those doofus-heads are nothing to bother yourself about. What counts is your progress and nowt else.

I had a couple of 'jerk' incidents while I was out jogging a few years ago but I really put them in their place; they didn't know where to hide, lol. Honestly the last thing I need is to be distracted while I'm concentrating on breathing properly, and running as hard as I can...That's how I look at it to be honest.

Wow lucky you having a sports coach as your boyfriend, that must be so motivating. I'm dead jealous. And it's great to hear that he is helping you so much.

Hope you get your shoe pads sorted ... crank up that volume, and enjoooyyyyy ! That's what keeping fit should be all about, after all

Take care of yourself

Hiya Sophia,

I walked through the building today... but not much else. I did the laundry, la la da ..etc...


I pretty much was the homebody today, but Tomoorow! I am walking for an hour. Half an hour to Hannafords, and a half hour back. I will try my hardest to move at a moderate pace, but between the arthritis and the snow and ice it will be hard, but hey, who said it wasnt going to be easy!!

Hope your doing well
and thanks for dropping in!!

always
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

Welcome to the WLF! You'll find lots of advice, encouragement, and inspiration here. At times the teaching may come across as rather blunt; not all are gifted with (nor see the need for) diplomacy - but most of the ones who give great advice around here do really know what they are talking about!

I had plantar fasciitis and a heel/bone spur when I started my WL journey. I am the same height as you (ok, you have .5" on me, you lucky duck!) and weighed 211 lbs. I joined Weight Watchers to help me get a grip on portions. Then I started walking. Then I got on my treadmill. And yes - it hurt like STINK! Plantar fasciitis had me literally limping, especially in the morning. But I kept at it, and made sure to stretch all the time.

In a nutshell, I am approaching my goal weight and FEEL FANTASTIC!! I totally recommend getting a used treadmill - loads of people have them just taking up space. If you put up an ad saying you want one for free, you will likely get one!

Sorry to ramble. I want you to be encouraged and really watch your portions and keep on moving!

Cheers and best wishes on your journey,
ABBA

I think with Diabeties 2, I think a podiatrist is in order. Definitely the next plan of action. Made a call for the vision center to hook me up with glasses, yearly exam, etc. I think my eyes have become worse, but what can I say, now they only can get better, and so they will ...

thanks Janice
always
natalie jo
or Natsky

 

[sophia28]

Hey just popping by to say hi and best of luck with your hour long walk tomorrow. I know you will be just fine. Just take it easy - don't want any injuries or anything on that ice, now.

But you see you are making good progress so it's all cool.

What's great about this site is we're all rooting for each other here 100% and that's kind of comforting to know -- we're all in the same boat and working hard to get great results cos they are so worth it.

Gotta dash off to bed -- you take care now

 

[Natsky]

Hey just popping by to say hi and best of luck with your hour long walk tomorrow. I know you will be just fine. Just take it easy - don't want any injuries or anything on that ice, now.

But you see you are making good progress so it's all cool.

What's great about this site is we're all rooting for each other here 100% and that's kind of comforting to know -- we're all in the same boat and working hard to get great results cos they are so worth it.

Gotta dash off to bed -- you take care now

Hiya Sophia!
Thanks for stopping in!

The walk should be nice. I know I am awful, I have worn my sneaks walking over much snow and ice and the pain was incredible. I think I will stick with the boots. They bother my arch I am sure, but they do fine.

anyway again, thanks for stopping in!
and I shall now stop in at your diary and see how you are doing and congrats on the movement of the scale, just noticed your ticker. I should get one, but I am going to wait until I get my actual weight. The scale here is probably four pounds lighter than it is supposed to be.

take care
always
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

Hello world,

Thanks for stopping into everyone who has stopped in. Not many have lol but thats cool...

So today is a walking day, like everyday should be. I think I am going to walk Sunday through Friday and take my day off on Saturday, because I generally clean that day and do laundry, just one of those busy days. Every Saturday. I walk the cat every night, she is overweight. She has lost four pounds because of where we now live, its nice. They warned us that if she kept going that she would end up with diabeties and insulin shots and I can't afford that. So I am doing my baby right and making her walk, now its my turn. I did run up and down the hall yesterday, it was exciting, I didnt think I could run lol
but I did. I chased the cat home, she was flying, Her feet barely touched the ground. Than I came at the top of this set of four stairs and she was kind of chilling, waiting for me, than she dashed to the front door.
We stop her at bingo everynight and they make jokes about my fiance and I and our cat. I put Simply Devine at the top of my door.
I decorate for every holiday, well now I have decorated for spring, because I cant wait till the snow melts lmao, but Pat, this funny woman, 60 years old, said there was no way I was devine because I went outside with out my coat and mittens onto the back deck the other night just to watch the river. We live on a river front. The river is behind us and we watch the ice float down and stay on the sides. Its really nice, they guys putting in the windows said we had the best view, and we do.

anyway, so we are taking a walk down to Hannafords. Going down is a half hour ..coming back will be harder, because we will be carrying groceries, but it will be good for my arms. Strengthen them. It will take a half hour to return, so thats an hour.

Tomorrow I am walking down there to health and human services and giving them my spend down for medicaid. ....

the one good thing about not working is I have taken up hobbies. I always recieved As in my art and English classes. I am actually a blocked writer lol I have written one hundred typed pages into a book I am writing. But I seem to be branching out into new ideas lol since my reading blitz. I read everyday for a few hours. Sketch whatever may be in front of me, including the scenery on the river or the bank across from us. I did a pick of the bank behind us and it actually isnt that bad!!

but today, is walk walk walking day!!!

I want to buy a scale, but I wont have the money until Tuesday. So Tuesday I am buying a scale! Finally to know what I am reading on the scale... lol I need this. Not knowing is kind of putting a dent in this weight loss project. u know. I need to know where I am starting from. Its like a blank canvas to write on. Now I need to write, but I need to know more about the canvas before I begin.

I do, I feel like a blank canvas and I only need to live live live and I will fill that canvas with such beauty. I only need to walk an hour a day and take good care of myself and I will come out on top!!

thanks all for reading
love you all
always
Natsky

 

[AngelicaHope]

hello natsky^^
i didnt even realize you had a diary =P
good luck with buying your scale.
it does help alot to know where you are starting from.
have a nice day =D

 

[Natsky]

hello natsky^^
i didnt even realize you had a diary =P
good luck with buying your scale.
it does help alot to know where you are starting from.
have a nice day =D

Thanks for visiting Angelica!!

I love the last part of your name "Hope"... there is always hope!!

and we will do this!! together!!
ttylater
always
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

What a wonderful week of weight loss!!

Sorry I have been absent peeps. I read this great book on beating diabeties. Which I have, #2 from weight gain in the past. But I am actually losing weight, by following the advice the book gave. I don't binge at night anymore!! I have half of a peanut butter sandwhich with something to wash it down with. I keep the drink in the fridge ready and I have the sandwhich ready and easy to get too, because I guess my Mg/dl is supposed to be around 140, which could explain why I binged in the past, it was always 85-94 at night. And than I would binge. I have now learned how to eat!!

No more chocolate, only in special occasions. I have not given it up completely, but I had the first bit of chocolate this month today in a small ice cream at friendlies and this was our Valentines lunch, because he will be working on Valentines day!! but he got me a something special lmao. He gave whatever it is to a friend and they are hiding it from me!! lol I love putting stuffed animals on the couch top. So.. I hope its just a stuffed animal, a little one, I am pretty easy to please. Better than flowers, it will always be with me. lol I fhave a blue and yellow dragon with sparkles on the couch now and my guatamalan blanket my sister bought me in Gautamala. Forgive me, I dont know how to spell the countries name. Dumb me, wont even look it up, but I am so excited. I have lost four pounds and I am on the rag lol. Wowser. I am so happy, its all downhill from here on out and I bought a great scale, which holds two peeps at a time. So my lovely man can weight himself as much as I do.

He is my coach. He can piss me off sometimes, but he is right about the food I eat. I am actually eating less at dinner and he is surprised lol he doesnt like it, I dont think, but I think its a good sign that the stomach is lessening in size, because I am not as hungry. Good thing. Never thought I would lose weight again! but all is good!

Well thanks for visiting all..
love you
always
your friend
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

Hello everyone,
I know I haven't been on for a few days, but I ended up not staying on track. Friendlies is right down the street, not even that far, and I keep telling myself that my fiance and I won't go, but it always ends up that we go ... ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!


but I dont think we are going to go out for Valentines Day. What if I cooked supper for him? Thats an idea. Tomorrow is supposed to snow, but I have noticed I seem to thrive off the snow usually. It makes it harder to walk; however, it is harder of the ankles... and with athritis it tends to be very painful between the cold and the choppiness of the treck I walk...

but I am going to do it. We are walking down to Hannafords, which is thirty minutes away and walk back, which is thirty minutes back, carrying our groceries. I will at least get a thirty minute walk in, maybe an hour. I would love an hour, but most likely we will want to take the bus back home, because we will be carrying diet drinks and what not. No soda! Never soda! the only sugar drink I drink is Arizona once in a while and Cranberry juice. The Cranberry Juice is very good for you, prevents UTIS. But the juices sugar I think is wayyyy too much for me. It just send my AIC up!!

anyway gettting back on track
and I cant seem to figure out how to set up a ticker? Any hints?

always
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

Hello everyone!!
Well today was a pretty good day. Going on my little walk once my fiance is back with the mail.

I found out I was a size 16-18 shirt!! I can believe the 16. I havent been a size 16 shirt since High school. Incredible. And now I am 31 years old. And this year I will be 32. I really pray I can lose this weight.

My fiance had a dream of me at 210, a sexy dream! I wont give details. but I was excited that he isnt dreaming of the multitude of hotties he may see out there. He says he just wants me at a healthy weight, which is cool. He says he loves my body the way it is. Which is awesome. I just wish I could get on my walks more often. But right now its 50 degrees, its raining, but we are going walking. I am thinking a half hour to forty minute.

I will report when I get home!

love yas
always
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

So I did it! I walked thirty minutes and also bought my fiance some stuff for him Valentines present package. I just need to go to a gift store in the Lilac Mall and get him some hot little candles. He likes to take other candles and mix each kind of candle to come up with scents I love!! He is so good at making candles. I bought him votive holders, he has been looking for something that would hold his creations. I love when he made this raspberry candle holder for me. It had a front that when you put the tea light behind it, it would glow purple into the room. He really caught my attention than last May. He made me my very own candle and holder made out of raspberry scentted wax, I was very impressed. He is very crafty.

Anyway this September, which is aways off is our ceremonial day. We will be doing it at an orchard close by. I am going to wear a gown, not a brides gown, but this red brides maid gown, that looks like only a bride could wear it. With this cape, which is the same framed cape that Stevie Nicks wears. I am so excited. We wanted a druid ceremony, but we are just thrilled with the modern touch enveloped by the druid touch. Awesome!!

but anyway, I walked for thirty minutes and tomorrow I will be walking for an hour to finish gift buying and we are getting a belt for the vac, so I can vac the apartment finally. It needs it. A woman's touch lol Everyone is aghast with what I have down with our or was his place. Its fabulous. Its a mixture of him and I and he loves the way I have made it so homey for myself as well!
Good stuff!
Well on to tomorrow. I am going to read diaries and than move of the puter to a book I am reading. From the Dragon Quartet books. I am now in book two, Water.

laterz
love yas
Natsky

 

[Natsky]

So I walked for thirty minutes, regardless of how I was feeling. Its a cloudy and bit of a gloomy day, but my fiance and I got outside and did our thing. We walked to Ben Franklins, a craft place and I picked up my sketch pencils. I think ones that can work on wood. I am going to make a cute little sign for my mom to hang on the wall. It will be made out of wood. Use special hard glue to glue the wooden letters and the hearts on the wooden table top-...


All I need is to buy the wood. I have the pencils. I am going to sketch it up on my pad and decide what exactly I want to do and what colors I wish to use.

I want to buy Water color pencils. They give the look of using watercolors, but its all sketch pencils, special ones.

I am getting into the whole art aspect of my genetic way. It really does run in the genes. My mother has always been very crafty and my sister has a degree in the Arts. A Bachelor of Arts. And she is going to work with kids, in hopefully a hospital, cancer patients, using art therapy. She has already done some of her internship working with Cancer patients at the hospital in Springfield MA... but she wants to work with kids, not adults. Lizzy is a very beautiful human being and loves children. She is trully a treasure. My sister has a mind of her own. I knew she would do something with her art degree, something big. But everyone said negatives to her when she was studying. She is awesome. My sister Joanna has a lot of growing up to do, definitely. But I hope she does in time. Now she is heading in the arena of wanting a child or children. She will come about. She is very kind, she just needs to learn how to love... I know... sounds off, but until recently she had cut her family out of her life.

Im doing good. Took a half hour, slow walk, today. But I bought a training and strengthing dvd and I hope to get some good work outs out of it. I bought it at the dollar tree, but man its the best one I have seen so far ... looking forward to that...

anyway ttylater
always
natsky

 

[AngelicaHope]

lol i attempt to be crafty but i cant say im good at it =P
good for you walking no matter how you feel
i need to borrow some of that motivation^^

 

[AngelicaHope]

Happy Valentines Day!!!

i hope you and your fiance have a lovely time ^_~