I've not been on here in ages. Got really depressed and stressed with uni and i've put on weight

not a lot but i feel all fat and yucky, had to go to liverpool feeling all bloated and horrible.
I'm just finishing off my dissertation just now and then i'm joining the gym on monday, i've no excuses, i've plenty of time now, and after my exams I have every single day to work out.
I've got a goal bikini. And a mini goal pair of jeans, for some reason I have the same jeans in black and white boht the same size and the white ones are too tight for me, I can wear them but they make me look all squeezed in, I'm going to watch how they fit me for a rough guide.
I'm not really going to be out much this month so I dont even have alcohol to ruin my dieting, although I never usually find alcohol a problem for some reason, I think because I tend not to eat the next day after I've been drinking, it takes my appetite away.
I was looking at my liverpool pics, it's weird, i'm smaller and almost slimmer than my friend but I look fatter, like my body is smaller proportioned than hers but she had a flatter stomach and slimmer shoulders, it's not fair that my frames so small

I cnt eat as much lol.
I'm so motivated, hopefully this time I can stick to it. I'm fed up of feeling horrible and less good than other people, I know it's silly but that's how I feel. If I can even gt back to the weight I was last summer i'll feel good, I felt brilliant then, I wasn't skinny but I was slimmish really only had to lose a bit of weight in my stomach and the top of my legs.