nataliejo's diary: Moving, flowing, grooving forward... change is coming...

nataliejo

nataliejo

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Hello everyone,
My name is Natalie jo. In my pants and shirts, etc. I weight 294 pounds..
Almost stark naked I weigh 290.0 pounds. I want to lost ten pounds by January fifteenth. By May I would like to be at 270 pounds, hopefully!

I have an old diary:
And Hello to everyone else who is familiar with me!

I just lost my guinea pig a week ago, and my bf, mutually broke up..

but he told I was fat and unattractive. That I should be ashamed of myself and pathetic.

Thats what I need to work on not being, and not having any self esteem doesn't work for me either. BUT I am not sure where to go from now. After the insults and what not. I should probably use it as my fuel to move forward. My real fuel; however, will be myself. I so wish to shed these pounds, lose them forever. My dream is to be down to 150-155 pounds and happy. I don't want to go any lower.

What I need to do:
Exersize everyday, irregardless of how cold or stubborn my lack of motivation is. Hmm ... lack of motivation can be a big kicker for me. But I have gone down from 315 pound in December to 290 in September, and now October.

My homework is doing great. I am keeping up, now to add a little movement into my life, now that my final for last term is done.

To enjoy literature is a nice retreat... Charles de lint is a wonderful writer and I am reading Kurt Vonnegut's "Slaughter House Five" All very good ...

Anyway ... I will not be splurging on Thanksgiving...
and I will becareful from now on. It will help not going over to my ex bfs house and having all his goodies in front of me...

but anyway ..time to move forward... flow forward ...feel forward ...and do this weight loss thing again ..
no quitting for me allowed. I must do it this time. So I shall report in at least once a week ..every Monday ... with my weight and on other days I will report my exercise and share stories ...

Thanks so much for your support everyone, and thank you to the new and few who are reading my new diary!

love yas
always
natalie jo :waving:
 
Hi Natalie Jo

I am sorry that you have broken up from your boyfriend. These things are always upsetting.

The good thing is that there could well be someone better just over the horizon. I seem to remember talk of a rather attractive lad at a coffee shop!!!

Ignore your ex's insults. People can say some hateful things at break-up time. You are an intelligent girl - and attractive too - he certainly spent long enough chasing you and buying you presents. He should be appreciating the fact that your weight has been reducing recently.

The decision to throw yourself into your project is a good one. You will enjoy getting to goal weight and sharing it with someone new and exciting.

Have you read Cats Meow's diary. I was just reading it the other day. She dealt with a broken engagement in a very positive manner.

Take lots of care
Love
Margaret
 
Omega said:
Hi Natalie Jo

I am sorry that you have broken up from your boyfriend. These things are always upsetting.

The good thing is that there could well be someone better just over the horizon. I seem to remember talk of a rather attractive lad at a coffee shop!!!

Ignore your ex's insults. People can say some hateful things at break-up time. You are an intelligent girl - and attractive too - he certainly spent long enough chasing you and buying you presents. He should be appreciating the fact that your weight has been reducing recently.

The decision to throw yourself into your project is a good one. You will enjoy getting to goal weight and sharing it with someone new and exciting.

Have you read Cats Meow's diary. I was just reading it the other day. She dealt with a broken engagement in a very positive manner.

Take lots of care
Love
Margaret
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Hey Margaret!
I'm glad you found my new diary! :)
I plan to keep it up this time. My first weight loss goal is 280 by the end of January and 270 by The end of May. I think that is plenty of time for me to lose twenty pounds...

You looked great in your pics btw ..

love yas
always
natalie jo
and btw... I forgot about Starbucks coffee man ..hm...
I will have to drop him a hint. He is a little pudgy ...he is my height ...
he is such a hottie! I guess this break up was a long time coming!

love yas
natalie jo:cheers2:
 
:waving: Hi NJ! Welcome to your new diary! I love the positive title! I posted in your old one before I saw you have a new one.

I think your WL goal sounds reasonable. Keep pressing on!

Cheers
Janice
 
Natalie Jo: I'm really sorry that you've had to go through all this upheaval. It's hard enough to manage "life" (especially such a busy one) without all this other stuff getting in the way. It's very sad that your ex turned out to have such a mean (and superficial) streak. Relationships don't always work out, but there's really never an excuse for that kind of deliberate cruelty.

As they say -- what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I'd like to believe there's some truth in that. Here's your chance to just focus on you, what YOU need, without dealing with anyone else's needs and expectations. You've done great so far despite everything going on, and you can keep it up. Five pounds a month seems like nothing, but multiply by 10 months and it becomes alot :)

Keep the faith.
 
Hi NJ

New diary New Start
Loving the title did make me chuckle!

Your Jan target is really realistic and you WILL do it

Have a good thanksgiving

Take Care
Sarah
 
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Natalie Jo: Just wanted to pop in and wish you a Happy Thanksgiving. Hope you have a good day and enjoy your break from school!
 
ABBAgirl said:
:waving: Hi NJ! Welcome to your new diary! I love the positive title! I posted in your old one before I saw you have a new one.

I think your WL goal sounds reasonable. Keep pressing on!

Cheers
Janice
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Hey Janice,
I think it is totally reasonable too ..

I am going for a walk later today, it will be cold, but on I go!

ttylater
love yas
natalie jo :biggrinjester:
 
Lagniappe said:
Natalie Jo: I'm really sorry that you've had to go through all this upheaval. It's hard enough to manage "life" (especially such a busy one) without all this other stuff getting in the way. It's very sad that your ex turned out to have such a mean (and superficial) streak. Relationships don't always work out, but there's really never an excuse for that kind of deliberate cruelty.

As they say -- what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I'd like to believe there's some truth in that. Here's your chance to just focus on you, what YOU need, without dealing with anyone else's needs and expectations. You've done great so far despite everything going on, and you can keep it up. Five pounds a month seems like nothing, but multiply by 10 months and it becomes alot :)

Keep the faith.
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Thanks hun ...
I am going to shoot for 270-275 pounds, just gotta keep my head up and keep trecking ...

I know, a lot has happened with me.... sniffles and now Alex

but I am better off with out him, like you said ...now I can focus on "ME" :)

Thanks for your support hun

always
love yas
natalie jo :biggrinjester:
 
rah said:
Hi NJ

New diary New Start
Loving the title did make me chuckle!

Your Jan target is really realistic and you WILL do it

Have a good thanksgiving

Take Care
Sarah
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thanks Sarah... :)

I really really really hope I can lose this weight :)

ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo :biggrinjester:
 
Hiya gals!
Well its been rough these past two weeks.

Finally did my final, and I luckily earned a C, normally I get higher grades, but this class was tuff, plus it was microeconomics and had so many graphs. It was loopy!

But anyway....
I have gained to around 295 pounds....
I was 287-290 pounds a little while ago.

I am so upset, but I went and had too much pie this morning!
Well a new start is on its way. I am going to exercise today and I hope its makes a dent .... after a while ...
and I have been trying to reach my friend, but her phone is disconnected ..hmm

love yas
always
natalie jo :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug:
 
Hi Natalie Jo

You have lost the weight before and can do so again. The main task is to refocus and get back on track. It is hardly surprising that you have gained again - I think that most people in America have been reporting sin days this week. Special holidays are always a bit like that. We will all eat something we shouldn't over Christmas.

Forgive yourself immediately - what is done is done.

Congratulations on passing your exam. :hurray:

Dont worry about not being able to contact your friend - I am sure that she will be in touch with you soon. I wrote to a friend recently when I couldnt get in touch by phone.

The decision to do some exercise is a good decision.

Making sensible decisions about our food and doing regular exercise is how we can make our dreams come true.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Omega said:
Hi Natalie Jo

You have lost the weight before and can do so again. The main task is to refocus and get back on track. It is hardly surprising that you have gained again - I think that most people in America have been reporting sin days this week. Special holidays are always a bit like that. We will all eat something we shouldn't over Christmas.

Forgive yourself immediately - what is done is done.

Congratulations on passing your exam. :hurray:

Dont worry about not being able to contact your friend - I am sure that she will be in touch with you soon. I wrote to a friend recently when I couldnt get in touch by phone.

The decision to do some exercise is a good decision.

Making sensible decisions about our food and doing regular exercise is how we can make our dreams come true.

Take care
Love
Margaret
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Hello Margaret,
Thanks hun!
I just came back from a twenty-three minute walk. I haven't walked for a month, not really walk. Now I am! I will walk for a half hour tomorrow. I will walk around the plazas twice...
I am happy the pies are gone, they are so fattening... mom threw away the apple pie and they ate half of the squash pie and I ate some as well ...too much ...
but tis good ...there still is banana bread, but I may have a piece before bread, but thats it. I am able to go with out food all night, but by six am I am hungry... I think I can completely stop eating at night...

I weighed in six oz less than two days ago. I was really depressed when I saw 295 in the morning to the point where I almost didn't go walking, but I shall refocus and am. I had four crackers with garden jack cheese...
one forth cup of Ruby Tangerine juice with the three forths being water... drinking a lot of tea with only one packet of sweet n low instead of two packets...

no soda so far and won't drink it ...
I am done with soda, its in the fridge ..but I am not touching ..
I am happy I got out for a walk, it was cold, but well worth it!:coolgleamA:

ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
 
Hi Natalie Jo

Well done for getting out on that walk. The first two minutes of a walk are always the hardest. It is much easier once you are out there. And you feel so good afterwards because you know that you have done what you know was right.

The wind chill factor made it bitterly cold on the walks that I have done today here too.

It is a pity that the pies were there - naturally you were going to eat them. You are only human. There is something about holidays that makes our closest relatives put temptation in our way - then they are surprised when we put on weight. How logical is that?

It is always disappointing when the scales go up - but I know that if I give up at that point I am lost. If you refocus and work at it - all these hiccups can be put right.

Stay focused - I know that you can do it.

Take care
Love
Margaret
 
Hi Nataliejo,

I am new to these forums, and hope you don't mind me posting in your journal.

I just wanted to say congratulations on going for your first walk. I too have just started walking to help me in my weight loss journey. I am lucky to have two dogs that need daily exercise to at least get me moving a wee bit, but over time I need to increase how much I do.

This morning at 5.30am (when they woke me to say 'c'mon mum, we need to go outside) it was cold and raining and we all got soaked!!! Ah well, once I was wet, it didn't matter how wet I got!!

Good luck on your walk,

Frankie
 
Thanks so much!

frankie said:
Hi Nataliejo,

I am new to these forums, and hope you don't mind me posting in your journal.

I just wanted to say congratulations on going for your first walk. I too have just started walking to help me in my weight loss journey. I am lucky to have two dogs that need daily exercise to at least get me moving a wee bit, but over time I need to increase how much I do.

This morning at 5.30am (when they woke me to say 'c'mon mum, we need to go outside) it was cold and raining and we all got soaked!!! Ah well, once I was wet, it didn't matter how wet I got!!

Good luck on your walk,

Frankie
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Thank you so much Frankie, for writing!
I love getting posts; however, I haven't been much of the poster on other diaries as much...
I have been down, but trying to do away with that. I take meds, but exercise does so much for the mind, body and the heart. I love the sun, and would be no where with out it. I think I used to get seasonal depression... its finally getting cold and I am making sure the house is above a certain temperature, but getting outside for my walk was wonderful. :)

thanks for the encouragement hun!

love yas
always
natalie jo :grouphug:
 
I love the sun too, and we are coming into summer here, so that should help with my walking. Today for some reason though, it's cold and raining. But I still went for my morning walk, and still have to get in another walk later today. I am just waiting for the weather to clear a bit, so will give it a few more hours, and if still not clear, wil just have to make myself go anyway.

I too suffer from depression, but getting outside helps me clear my head and helps me alot. I am sure it will help you too.

Best wishes,

Frankie
 
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