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Nasseny1

Nasseny1

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I don't remember a time in my 16 years of living where I loved my body, to tell you the truth until last year I only began to take notice, I ignored my health and weight all through school, because it hurt to much to take notice and realize what I've done to it.

Past:

August of 2006, I wanted to lose weight so badly, I pursued losing it in the most unhealthy way, I lost 20 lbs in one month by starving myself at 500 cals a day. I was determined that this was the only way to achieve losing weight, I was very very wrong. Not only did I get 24 hr headaches and stomach hunger pains but my hair thinned and my skin turned a slight shade of yellow. I wasn't doing anything right, I kept this up until January. When finally I couldn't do it anymore, I don't know if I were to be classified as any eating disorder even though binge and purge were involved. However, I did realize on my own, that there is a better way. I tried to look amazing by starving, but I just ended up looking worse and having low grades. I want to do it right now, I want support. My family doesn't know how to give support, they just know how to insult you.

Now:

August of 2007, I have made better healthy eating habits, and I try hard to think positive to push away my depression. Its working, I haven't lost weight so far, I want to fix my frame of mind, and generally how I am before I can do something huge, like this. I'm nervous. I don't know if you understand me, or not, I am afraid of what you'll think to tell you the truth. But I'm trying to belive in myself, and stop being so suicidaly-depressed.

The Details:

My Age: 16 years old
My Height: 5,2
My Weight: 160 lbs
EDIT: My Goal weight is now 115 lbs.
(X)Goal Weight: 100 lbs
The Time: 7.5 Months, If I lose 2 lbs a week.
The Exercise: Dance Dance Revolution, Crunches, Pilates, man..anything I'll try.
The Caloric Intake: 1200 per day.

Going to study: Fashion Design in Ryerson University
School: Richmond Hill High, ON, Canada

The Help and Support: Not much.
The Motivation: Not really there.

The Need: Support and Motive. (That is Why I am Here)





Thanks For Making This Site. Theres no better place.

:)


EDIT:

ACTIVITY: 1 HOUR, EVERYDAY

RUNNING, STAIRS, UP: 900-1000 CALORIES BRUNT
17 CALORIES PER MINUTE

1 WEEK (900calories) = 6300 calories = 1.8 pounds lost
2 WEEKS = 3.6 pounds lost
It will take 3 weeks to lose 5.4 pounds.
5.4lbs x 8 weeks = 44.8lbs lost.
Ok I found the amount I will lose using just running up stairs with this site:
 
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for motivation - remind yourself why you want to lose weight - and what your goals are... and keep reminders of those handy... support we can provide - post regularly in your diary and the support will come.

Do some reading around the forums for nutrition and workout guidance and have fun while you are here
 
Ok guys so I checked on the scale today and I lost about 2 pounds. Small, but a difference. I'm doing well with eating, Im scared I might eat something fatty and high calories though...I don't know how long I'll keep up this eating style. And I have been recently having thoughts on going back to 500cal/day. Im trying, Im happy I havn't been depressed in the past week, thanks to healthy eating, although I gotta say, Im tempeted to not eat at all. Im not that patient really, 'I want to lose it all over night' is kinda the way I think sometimes, so thoughts on losing as much as possible in as little time as possible really pleases me, but I know better. The faster you lose it, the faster you will re-gain it.
 
Sunday September 2nd 2007:

Alrighty, I exercised soo well yesterday, and I did soo much of it. It's making me so happy, this morning I'm another pound less (probably the water thing) but it is still nice to see that scary scale go down. YAy! I feel alive, I can do this! Yes! I've been keeping my calories at 1200 and exercising!! It feels great!! I didn't know I'd feel this happy!

Exercise yesterday:
Running Stairs
Crunches
Dancing

With exciting Music!!
 
Hey Nasseny,

Glad to see you started a diary here. You're last post really put a smile on my face. I'm really glad to hear that you're feeling good and your mind seems to be in the right place. Remember to continue to keep your caloric intake at a healthy level and keep exercising. I think you've realized that there is no quick fix. Try and keep positive and remember with each day that passes, you are another day closer to your goal. Good luck on your journey and keep us posted. We've got your back :).
 
Wednesday September 05 2007

^ awww thax your comment made me feel so fuzZy and warm inside.

Ok, the couple days ago I had a weird thing where I ate too much, maybe it was the lack of sleep, I had probably only 4.5 hours of sleep, and I usually have 7 + sleep. I heard that if you have less than 6 hr of sleep your apatite increased by 15%.
However, I did overeat but instead of the normal 1200 cals, it was 1500 cals, which is not huge but it sure wont help in losing.
So now I am back on track, I remembered that just because I fall out of my healthy-eating-habits, ( thats what I call it, instead of a diet, because I'll do the better-habits all my life, instead of 6 months) It doesn't mean life is over for me, I'll just get back on top of things.

Ok so heres the problem now:
I wake up go to school, I'm there by 10:10 AM to 3:30 PM, then I go to work at 4:00 PM to 7:00 PM, by the time I get home I have become really tired, and strained.

You see, I work with kids (3 years old or lower), this an't no walk in the park. If we plan on actually having a walk in the park, I end up having to hold some children (back ache), running after them if they are trying to run away from the group. And I'm constantly worried I'll lose one (If I do, I'll go to court. Those are the rules -_-) So I count attendance a hundred times to I make sure they are all a counted for. I'm bending over, carrying, pushing, pulling, dealing with temper tantrums.
Its a killer, by the time I get home I'm to tired to exercise. I even fall asleep trying to take off my clothes.
I want to exercise but, I'm not sure what I can do that will rid me of the lack of energy I get when I reach Home.

Extra:
The Help and Support: Great!
The Motivation: Well.

The Food: (Order I ate.)
1 apple = 50 calories
1 really small pare = 30 calories
3 whole wheat slices = 180 + 90
cinnamon spread = 60 calories (maybe)
2 slices chicken = 30 calories
1 slice roast beef = 30 calories
spaghetti = 370 + meat 59
rice krispies = 90 calories
2 whole wheat = 180
slice cheese = 60
sauce = 45
Total: 1333 calories (Im over, X_X )
 
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September 06 2007

The scale shows one pound less!! omg, ok, calm down, It just might be that water weight thing again....ugg its so hard to tell if I lost fat or water..Ok thats it, im buying a new scale.
 
Saturday September 08 2007:

I've been feeling very depressed lately which caused me to overeat, and consume more calories in the day than 1200. I've been think about how long this will take, I want to be 60 lbs less now. Im bothered with my self, but my new scale says that I weigh less. I donno what scale to trust, I'm annoyed. I try to excercise but Ive been so sick, and the lack of energy, but even then I could excercise although my music is crap, and I get so easily tired of a song. I keep having to update my ipod. And good music is so hard to find, when will Michael Jackson come to music again with his new album? Man I'm so ****ed right now. I feel like shit. I don't know why, I hate what others around me think of me, especially my mother. They keep a close eye on me, and if I don't lose weight they notice, and then I feel like as though I'm losing for them, and not myself. I want to lose weight for me. They obssess in my weight loss, and I have bought clothes that don't fit, to motivate me to lose. I think to myself, why do I have to deal with this? My sisters get all the fun, and I'm stuck trying so desperatly for something they were born with. I wonder, a lot. I don't know, I'm just depressed right now, really.
I've also had these pesimistic thoughts of how I will never be a fashion designer no matter how hard I try. I love drawing, art, clothing, and it bothers me when others around me look at me funny when I say what I wish to become. They look at me as though they are saying, "You, a fashion designer, with that body??AHHAha"I feel like crap. Don't read this, its annoying I know, oh right...if you read that sentence you probably already read whats was prevous to it. Man. I'm so sad.

I feel so unhappy and uncontent, and I feeel like this even more when I lose weight, its just not enough.
 
EDIT: # 1 FOR ME!!!
Reason #1-
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<s>For my parents to be proud of me.</s>


Reason #2- I don't want to be looked at as the Fat One in the group of my friends, or the Fat sister.

Reason #3- I want to walk in the mall and think, "I can wear any size."

Reason #4- I don't want to have fights with my mother and father telling me what I'm wearing is too-tight, and I need to go back and change.

Reason #5- I want to be able to enjoy weddings, parties, because I wont look chubby and uncomfortable.

Reason #6- I want to go out. I don't even think of it.

Reason #7- I want a healthy body, toned body.

Reason #8- To stop dreaming of who I am going to be in the future, because I've realized that future has come and I am still the person who I dislike.

Reason #9- To be able to be fit enough for the delivery of children, although that is far away, I'm only 16 years old, I want to be fit for it.

Reason #10- When I do get children I don't my unhealthiness to be passed on them, and they will have to suffer.

Reason #11- I want to be the lady, that the women in my community talk about and wonder "who is going to get that perfect daughter".

Reason #12- When all those people in my life, who have made hurtful remarks on me, see me, they will slap them self, and think "I wishhh I neeverrr saiidd thatt."

Reason #13- To be able to pursue my dream of becoming a Fashion Designer, and actually be able to wear my clothes.

Reason #14- For all the females at my work (theres only females..ugg..daycare), To stare at me because I look good, and not because I look bad.

Reason #15- Its proven: When you look great, you get respect.
(They Tested This On TV: An overweight female stepped into a store, which doesn't permit refunding clothes, and asked to return a garment, and the owner said to her, "No, we do not allow that." Then the same store, a day later, had a fit, sexy-looking female wearing a red dress, say the same thing. And the owner said, "Yes, of course.")

Reason #16- To stop being so jealous of other girls my age.
 
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First i am really so sorry you are having such a down day. Always remember you have to do this for you, don't worry about what others think b/c their negativity will always get you down. Something i have done in the past that I'm working on again to remain positive are affirmations. When you think negative thoughts totally turn them into positive. Example: I'm never gonna reach my goal=I will reach my goal. If just thinking them doesn't work for you right them down and say them aloud as well. It might take some time but you have to change that negativity around to a positive but it will get easier and easier the more you practice. Keep coming back to your diary, that's a great tool and glad to see you using it. Lots of hugs to you!

I just read your last post after I originally posted this and I would love to see #1 being for YOU!
 
I feel better, I broke up with my boy friend today, and now im starting fresh, no crappyy bagage hangin' around me!!!
 
hey hunni.

Great start to your diary. Very interesting to read. AWESOME job on the 10lbs you have lost so far. keep on going :)

I think its natural to have down days, and depressed periods during your weight loss, most people i have spoke to have them. You have to just get through them, and keep TRYING to smile, and think about how well you are doing.
 
Hey guys, I've been 150 lbs in for a few days now, and when I lose like water weight the scale shows 149 lbs. Ok so here is the thing, I know that isn't offical, but do you know what I mean when I say its so exciting to see different numbers, like to get out of the 50s and try to lose in the 40s. Like you see the change.
 
Exercise:

Monday:
Crunches
Running Stairs

Thursday:
Dance Class
Crunches
Running Stairs

Friday:
RS
C
DC

Sunday:
DC
C
 
Hey there Nasseny,

Just came across your diary, and your weight goal is the same as mine, 100lbs, I'm assuming you're on the short side, as I am, haha. Just wanted to say, keep up the hard work, you'll get there, don't get discouraged!

You're at Ryerson- that was my school's rival university, haha.

Feel free to drop by my diary/send a message anytime. Take care!
 
OMG you are doing really great. I also want to try dance class. I did it when I was very young then I stopped/ I told my sister that if im sexy thin next time they have sign ups im joining.

thats really great though girl

I did the exact thing when I started I ate nothing and got sick now im starting off new and healthier.

You and me both are young we need to do this now cause we got a lot of life to live
 
So I have change my goal weight from 100 lbs to 110 lbs. When I took an online test my height and age should be like 110, but i kinda have a slightly medium frame. I donno. Its probably healthy too. Unlike 100 lbs....

Like, I wanna be that number 100 lbs at least once, its like the ultimate number to me. I guess because my sisters are all range near 100. I just feel like When I am 110 lbs I might have my over all goal to 100 lbs. Just so I can relief the thought in my mind.

Misty22, ahahah lol. the school thing is so funny. and Today900 you're so right, I mean so much we'll pass us by unless we change are atitude with food and exercise.
 
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