It's strange I have so much I want to say but somewhere between my head and the keyboard it all gets lost in translation. I did something yesterday that I haven't been able to stop thinking about. A friend of mine had planned a large birthday party for himself. After taking a shower, I threw on my trusty blue t-shirt and to my surprise it didn't fit. Well that's a lie, I wasn't surprised. I had been in denial for months carefully avoid scales, mirrors, and clothes that I knew were starting to get snug. I tried on shirt after shirt each one felt like it was tighter than the last till at about the 5th shirt I felt like I was suffocating. This isn't what is troubling me though, it's what I did next that I haven't been able to get out of my head. I picked up my phone and sent my friend a text telling him I wouldn't be able to make it for some bullshit reason. The thought of going out in public seemed terrifying to me, so it was last night that I decided [strike]should[/strike] need to lose this weight that has imprisoned me for as long as I can remember.
Two Hundred Ninety One Pounds is how much I weigh. I never saw myself as the guy who was a couple of big macs from being 300 pounds, but that's who I was. A few months ago I clocked in at a more reasonable 230 lbs, but after leaving home for my own place I ballooned. The crazy thing is, I always planned on losing weight. Never a solid plan but whenever I would imagine the future I would some how magically be skinny.
I'm a 21 year old college junior. This should be the best time of my life. After this it's all work and taxes. I think one of the main reasons I want this so badly is women. I mean why else do men do anything? Never had a girlfriend, never been out on a real date, never.....ya know. It always was a little(understatement) depressing that I've never been that close to another person.
Anyway I'm not sure how I'm going to go about doing this. Never really exercised or attempted to eat healthy. Reading about the proper weight loss techniques would probably be a more productive use of my time than writing this. But I like knowing that my weight loss manifesto is out there in the infinite abyss that is the internet. Well I better get to googling. Thanks for reading.
Two Hundred Ninety One Pounds is how much I weigh. I never saw myself as the guy who was a couple of big macs from being 300 pounds, but that's who I was. A few months ago I clocked in at a more reasonable 230 lbs, but after leaving home for my own place I ballooned. The crazy thing is, I always planned on losing weight. Never a solid plan but whenever I would imagine the future I would some how magically be skinny.
I'm a 21 year old college junior. This should be the best time of my life. After this it's all work and taxes. I think one of the main reasons I want this so badly is women. I mean why else do men do anything? Never had a girlfriend, never been out on a real date, never.....ya know. It always was a little(understatement) depressing that I've never been that close to another person.
Anyway I'm not sure how I'm going to go about doing this. Never really exercised or attempted to eat healthy. Reading about the proper weight loss techniques would probably be a more productive use of my time than writing this. But I like knowing that my weight loss manifesto is out there in the infinite abyss that is the internet. Well I better get to googling. Thanks for reading.
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