Aw, I wish I had been back over here to read what you guys wrote to me before yesterday, and maybe I would have been more motivated to keep back on track!
You guys are right- probably will not be weighing myself for quite a while now! Thanks for helping me keep it in perspective.
Penguinita- yeah, it mostly was a "what the hell I want it" sort of thing. xD Really related to my sub-par eating the day before...I tend to eat too little, not feel hungry or deprived that day, but then the next day I am hit with those horrible binge cravings and can't even think to counteract them!
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Anywaaaayyy, it's my
21st BIRTHDAY today!!
I'm not actually super excited as I should be maybe...but pretty much all that's different is that I can buy alcohol and get a horizontal driver's license. lol
This evening I'm driving to the city where my university is to meet up with three of my best friends and have a small party, just watch a movie and go out for a drink. I'm really looking forward to it!
Yesterday I celebrated with my family. The tradition is that my mom makes me a watermelon cake, which is actually just a watermelon stood up and sort of cut into some interesting shape with skewers and fruit or whatever sticking out of it. xD And of course, I ate nearly the whole thing!
But with regard to diet....not doing so hot. Tuesday I did alright, but Wednesday (yesterday) I fell off the wagon SO HARD yet again. I did okay in the morning, but in the evening I started off having all the puddings I had leftover from Monday's binge, then a bunch of fruit, then an extra sandwich, then all the watermelon, then a whoooooole bunch of tortilla chips, then raided the pantries of the people whose house I'm watching for all their junk food. >< Ugh, so silly of me! Probably have eaten like 10,000 calories over the past 3 days.
What happened was that I got sucked into the "last time" trap...you know, whenever there's like a major time-marking event coming up, and you think, after this birthday/holiday/whatever, I'm
really going to get serious- might as well have everything I can now!! vv
But in all fairness, I really am ready to get a bit more serious now. Well, at least after today maybe, after all the cake and alcohol I'm bound to be around.
What I really need to do, I think, is get a bit more strict with my food. I've sorta been wishy-washy with it until now: rounding calories to the nearest 100s, not even counting how much vegetables and fruit I have if it's difficult to measure quantity, that sort of thing. I'm just so lazy, is all! So what I'm going to do is make a list of 300 calorie "meals" and just make sure I choose 5 of them each day. That way, all the counting and planning will be done, but I'll still have a little bit of spontaneity.
So, my meals are:
-turkey or tuna sandwich (150 calories from meat, 150 from bread, as long as I don't change up brands!)
-protein bar
-grilled chicken or fish and 100 calories of vegetables
-2 eggs/200 calories mixed nuts/string cheese/2 cups cottage cheese and fruit or rye crackers
So if I have 5 of those over the course of the day, I should hit close to 1500 calories, which is between 500-1000 calories of deficit for me, by my calculations.
