WinterRose
New member
This has been a LONG struggle for me. A very, very long & complex one. I am in the Winter of my life, struggling to bloom as a beautiful rose.
This journey isn't just about my outer appearance. It's about the condition of my heart...yeah the health of it...but go deeper than that...the very heart of me is struggling to be healthy.
I have always had a terrible self image. I was skinny growing up...all the way until I was 18 and got pregnant with my first daughter...16 years ago. Yet I never thought I was thin enough. When I gained 55lbs with my first child it was my worst nightmare come true. I struggled with depression during and after my pregnancy...I had been blue before but this was complete and utter despair.
I married my hs sweetheart who has always assured me I am the most beautiful girl/woman he has ever known or would want to know. But there is no convincing me!
I am at a place in my life where I realize that my outer appearance is a direct result of what is going on inside of me. I need to heal from the inside out. I am a Christian a follower of Christ. He is my answer...He is full of grace and love and wants to transform me from the inside out so here I am to journal that process.
This journey isn't just about my outer appearance. It's about the condition of my heart...yeah the health of it...but go deeper than that...the very heart of me is struggling to be healthy.
I have always had a terrible self image. I was skinny growing up...all the way until I was 18 and got pregnant with my first daughter...16 years ago. Yet I never thought I was thin enough. When I gained 55lbs with my first child it was my worst nightmare come true. I struggled with depression during and after my pregnancy...I had been blue before but this was complete and utter despair.
I married my hs sweetheart who has always assured me I am the most beautiful girl/woman he has ever known or would want to know. But there is no convincing me!
I am at a place in my life where I realize that my outer appearance is a direct result of what is going on inside of me. I need to heal from the inside out. I am a Christian a follower of Christ. He is my answer...He is full of grace and love and wants to transform me from the inside out so here I am to journal that process.
