hey everyone...im here in hopes to find some support in my weight loss. its really hard when your on your own with no one to encourage you.
So here's my story...
All my life I was a healthy and lean kid. I was always active and carefree. Then several years ago my best friend that I grew up with said our friendship was over. This was the hardest thing ever. She was the only person I was close with and so I was left feeling very alone. As the years went on, I buried my hurt and began making new friends. Then my closest relative revealed that they had been suffering from some life threatening habits. And after that I saw this person drop to a deadly low body weight...as this person is today. I began to develop my own ed and started gorging myself with food. I went from having binging episodes a few times a month, to a few times a week, to everyday, to several times a day. I gained 35lbs over a few months. I stopped exercising out of rebellion and anger. I became very depressed. This was very abnormal for me. I use to be so positive and loved life. I would always have a smile on my face. But over the past year, those grins turned to despair. I would cry myself to sleep everynight and scream out to God to end my life and take me home....
A several months ago, I began to get real. I realized the damage I had done and wanted out. So I began to exercise regularly again...but my diet was still unhealthy. But a few months ago I began to incorporate healthy foods. Its been about a month now that I have been really good.
I've been working hard for about 8 months now...and the weight wont come off. I have developed muscle in place of the fat. This is not what I want though. Yes, I would rather have muscle, but I want to shrink. I one wish is just to fit into my old clothes. I don't want to be super thin, just my old healthy lean and fit self.
My biggest problem area is my butt and thighs. I have gain muscle here and now I look bubbly. I want to shrink these areas.
Any help from anyone would be wonderful. If anyone knows any exercises or foods to help me out...let me know.
THanks for listening...
Rose
So here's my story...
All my life I was a healthy and lean kid. I was always active and carefree. Then several years ago my best friend that I grew up with said our friendship was over. This was the hardest thing ever. She was the only person I was close with and so I was left feeling very alone. As the years went on, I buried my hurt and began making new friends. Then my closest relative revealed that they had been suffering from some life threatening habits. And after that I saw this person drop to a deadly low body weight...as this person is today. I began to develop my own ed and started gorging myself with food. I went from having binging episodes a few times a month, to a few times a week, to everyday, to several times a day. I gained 35lbs over a few months. I stopped exercising out of rebellion and anger. I became very depressed. This was very abnormal for me. I use to be so positive and loved life. I would always have a smile on my face. But over the past year, those grins turned to despair. I would cry myself to sleep everynight and scream out to God to end my life and take me home....
A several months ago, I began to get real. I realized the damage I had done and wanted out. So I began to exercise regularly again...but my diet was still unhealthy. But a few months ago I began to incorporate healthy foods. Its been about a month now that I have been really good.
I've been working hard for about 8 months now...and the weight wont come off. I have developed muscle in place of the fat. This is not what I want though. Yes, I would rather have muscle, but I want to shrink. I one wish is just to fit into my old clothes. I don't want to be super thin, just my old healthy lean and fit self.
My biggest problem area is my butt and thighs. I have gain muscle here and now I look bubbly. I want to shrink these areas.
Any help from anyone would be wonderful. If anyone knows any exercises or foods to help me out...let me know.
THanks for listening...
Rose
