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I just thought I might share my story. I'm a 20 year old male and I currently weigh about 268 at 5'9'' height. I started gaining weight when I was 5. I think that I was 213 pounds when I was 12.

One day when I was 13 I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't need to go to a nutritionist or get onto some weight loss program. I already knew what to do. I think we all know what foods are healthy and what are not. I put myself on a low-calorie, low-fat diet (it was NOT low-carb, I did not believe in that then or now). I eventually lost nearly 100 pounds within a year.

So, here I was, about 117 pounds (at 5'8''). People were calling me anorexic/bulimic when I was not. I had an overactive metabolism. I was still on my diet but I was not starving myself and I did not feel hungry. Sure, looking back at pictures, I did look VERY thin, but it wasn't on purpose. Unfortunately, while we do have a culture that can be very prejudicial towards fat people, there is another side to that which can lean thin people to become fat due to all the crap they get from others. As a thin person, I experienced constant questioning from those around me, accusations that I was anorexic or bulimic, and also to pressure to eat junk food or stray from healthy eating. People were also telling me not to exercise. and by people I mean my mom mostly. I don't mean to blame my mom for anything but she was really pushy about it. She bought me junk food and was demanding that I eat it.

Eventually, I began to give in. I tried things, this here, this there. It was very gradual. And then it just kept going out of control. I didn't exercise anymore, and there was an increasing prevalence of calories and high fat food. I got fatter and fatter and fatter. Within a couple of years, I had become obese again. For some time now I had maintained a weight of 280 pounds or so until mid-January of this year when I started my diet. It's been more than a month so far and I'm down 12 pounds to 268. to tell you the truth I haven't been exercising much and my weight loss has been due to the dieting. Exercising is a lot harder than dieting for me right now because I am self-conscious about exercising in public but I'm going to do it anyway because I want to be thinner.

this time, I won't go down to such a low weight, and I'll also build muscle too because I don't really want to be as skinny as I was, but more muscular.
 
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Well that is definitely a different kind of story but I wish you the best. 5'8" and 117 lbs certainly sounds unhealthy to me for a male. My older sister was hospitalized with eating disorders when she was in high school and some of the matter of fact speaking in your post reminds me of how she used to talk back then. I think you have some significant challenges to overcome just try to keep an open mind and don't be afraid to ask for advice. If you already have all of the answers then why talk to anyone? Know what I'm saying? Just think about it.
 
I think it's great that you're 12 lbs. down. I "started" a month ago, and I'm doing poorly. I'm about the same weight, maybe actually even heavier. I just can't seem to get motivated to work out/eat right. For breakfast and lunch i do great, but dinner I always splurge.

As far as working out in front of other people, if you're looking for some low-impact cardio that likely won't have people looking at you, just walk on the treadmill. Do a good 3-4 miles in an hour, and you'll be surprised at how quickly you see results. Also, something I'm doing that's helping is taking the stairs exclusively.
 
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