Ugh, since I started school I just slowing keep crawling back up. I think I really need to find a buddy or I am just going to keep slipping.
I have really been down lately, which doesn't surprise me because last year this time I suffered from depression. I need a butt kick!!!
I used to not eat when I wasnt hungry, but when I was supposed to eat. You dont feel hungry, because you stomach is used to not eating. What will happen eventually is you will not be able to eat, because it will hurt to eat and than you will go up and down on the scale, because you will be yoyoing ..
its called anorexia ...a start to it. but if you can start eating on schedule ..thats what I had to do. You may want to jump into my diary... youll see how painful it is to get back to eating. I gained weight because I didnt eat. It is difficult, but you must eat as close to your supposed caloric intake should be. Its really bad if you dont eat enough.
It all started when I was sixteen. And peeps would say if you lost a few more pounds you would have all the boys chasing you. Thats when I started barely eating for two weeks and than binging for two weeks .. I went from 275 at 16 to 185 at 18 and than when I hit 21 I only drank shakes and I lost sixty pounds in three months ..congratulated from my mom, two weeks later in hospital and on my death bed, because the docs were like ... you need to eat ..or your gonna die ..tonight ...
so I started eating ..it was painful at first, because I wasnt hungry. I was in so much pain from eating when I usually wouldnt eat.
Your walking a fine line.. I am on the VDAY challenge tooo and I wrote you ..and I knew something was up, because I saw you kept going up and down ... the why is because your not scheduling and your not eating what you need to survive on daily activities and also on your exercise days. Its not lack of exercise that is making you gain. Its the yoyo caloric intake ..
hun you need to eat healthy. The only way you will make it to a healthy weight is to eat ..not over eat ..but eat .. not junk food ...but just eat ... healthy things ... start eating your snacks ..make yourself meet your goal ... I do ... I am down caloric intake right now. I have fought the past two weeks to get back on track... I was barely eating during the day ..and yesterday was the worst .. I could barely eat dinner .. I ended up in horrible stomach pains and I couldnt sleep, but because I ate all my calories during the day .. I didnt eat at night, got a nice full rest of sleep overnight and I woke at nine am and ate breakfast with my fiance ...
its good now .. I know what I need to take in and am really doing it ..and I am not in pain .. yesterday was the last day of crisis... but once you start undereating you can slip back into that horrible habbit .. eat ..move a bit ... cut down about two hundred calories from the caloric you need ..so just cut two hundred to start.
You will feel lethargic, depressed, not motivated, unhealthily dizzy eventually and passing out will be next. But your probably depressed because your not eating ... not eating takes a great toll on you mentally as well and if you want the donut once in a while .. eat it.. I have lost six pounds in the last two weeks and I have been eating more ... and barely exercising ... I go everyother day for a walk.. it was leisure today ... I didnt want to rush...
I am supposed to eat 2500 calories a day .. if I was sedentary I would be using ...around 2449 calories a day just moving around ... so that leaves me with exercise and cutting it down some calories to intake .. I have only cut it down two hundred calories ..
go to fitday.com and start entering your food ...etc and good luck
keep up on the VDAY Challenge .. I think we have a good groupe .. but I cant express how much you need to eat ...
ttylater
always
best wishes
natalie jo
you will find your balance eventually ... no one is writing in my diary now... because I was freaking out over food ..but I was freaking because I know with what I was doing .. I could die ... and I was in pain from eating little things .. I fell backwards on my old habit.. anorexia ...
Best wishes hun
I hope you reach your goal ... the healthy way..
always
natalie jo
