today was a rough day. I had one of my cheat days yesterday, still on track, it was within my diet parameters, but I did slow down my weight loss intentionally bc it was giving me some mental trouble and I start grad school so soon! I'm excited!
So back on topic, I had a cheat day, and it was too much. I cheated more than I should have, and drank tons of soda, it was not good. This, in addition to caffeine pills saturday and sunday, and I am feeling unhealthy. Add on top of this that I did not drink my customary pre-weigh in water to flush out excess water weight. All of this, as well as the heightened drama of waiting more than two weeks to weigh in, led to a huge let down. I feel like I am doing so poorly, when I know, rationally ia m doing fine. I am on this diet still, still logging every calorie after 7 weeks. This is huge for me, I have never stuck to a change this well for this long. I am successfully taking off the weight, but I think lately I have let the hhealth focus dissapear. i focused too much on sheer calories eaten and have let exercise slow down as well. I am happy this weigh in showed me everything i have let slide, and I will work hard this next week to fix these things, but I will also remember I have come a long way, I am doing alot to get healthier, and I have stayed the course. If I am going to move forward with this, I need to let it be a natural part of me, and I feel like it is. These are the last thrashings of my bad eating habits, I'm moving back to eating clean again, and maybe I will have to more int he future, but maybe not. I am losing my taste for the real unhealthy foods.
