My Name says it all... I'm officially brutesquad...Ms Brutesquad.

[MsBrutesquad]

I am 5'2'', pushing 300 lbs and I am female... HOW embarrassed am I? Very. I have never been this large in my life, and I lack motivation. I smoke far too much weed (daily), I try to eat lots of vegetables but that just canceled out by all of the junk that I eat after. I find going to the gym HORRIBLE because I feel embarrassed and out of breath. I get a hot flash when I walk up a small set of stairs! Its getting out of hand, and this lifestyle needs to come to an end. My long term goal is to lose 100 lbs within the year. I know that within the first months I will lose a majority of my weight. Anyway the purpose of this post is because I want to make it known that today is the day I take accountability, my boyfriend has wanted to do this with me for quite some time and I feel that I hold him back from his weight loss goals. He is always saying how much he wants to quit smoking weed, and I agree (Its the mature thing to do.) until we are out of pot and I turn into a crazy bus. I get really upset and irritable. It may have something to do with the fact that I hate my outer appearance and when I'm high I forget about that... but who knows.

Over and Out,
Ms. Brutesquad

 

[Flumes]

Hey MsBS,

I think you are overwhelmed by everything you say is against you. The weed, the junk, the gym, etc.

You made it here...that means you want to try to lose weight.

Start small. Go for a walk, cut out soda, drink more water, etc. Just do something. Don't get frustrated because you cant lose weight...be positive and focus on one little thing towards a healthier lifestyle.

Its going to take time. Lots of time. So relax, and focus on one little thing. Then before you know it, it will be easy to add something else, then something else.

Positive.

Good luck and hope you post your progress...no matter how small it is...its a step towards being healthier.