CryingRaven
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On My Way to a New Me
Hello everyone my name is Tammi, since this is a dairy I’m going to blather all about myself and my weight. And my love of food... XD
I have always loved food especially home cooked food. My family didn’t really make any fancy meals. Usually every meal was from one pan, and we didn’t have set times of the day for a meal. So if someone wanted something, we either had to cook it ourselves, or wait until Mom cooked something.
Meals were not healthy by any means, and quite frequently we would go whole weeks eating the same thing every day. My dad didn’t mind doing that, so he didn’t see anything wrong with making kids eat it too. After all who needs fresh viggies and fruit?
Often my dad would go on kicks where he would decide to lose weight. He wouldn’t go on normal diets or anything like that. He would decide to eat beans for every meal. I remember one time when I was about 6 I didn’t want to eat beans because I was soo sick of them. and the only other thing to eat was ramen noodles. That was it, there was no vegetables, no fruit. Just beans and noodles. I opted for the noodles even though I didn’t want them.
I am told that before I was born my dad even tried some kinda drink diet. While he was on it, he told my 12, and 14 year old sisters, that since they were too fat, they had to do it along with him.
All of my young life I was thin. I think it was either because I didn’t want to eat what we had, or because as I got older I had become so nervus living with my family that I couldn’t eat.
There was a lot of suff going on in my home life but I won’t get into that.
Well once I turned 18 I moved into my sisters house. She made wonderful meals and had salad every night, I was in heaven!
I learned a lot from living with my sister, but I still was not on my own and not calling the shots with the meals. I was no mooch though, I worked at a factory building boats. And for the first time I had money that I could spend on what I wanted, so I became addicted to pepsi. I would buy it at work because I was soo tired that I felt like I needed it. Some of the girls in my area were even into taking pep pills but I stayed clear of them.
While I lived with my sister I went from weighing 110 to 145. I still looked good because I am 5'5" But I felt huge because I was used to being tiny from near starving. Once I moved out to live with my husband I didn’t know a whole lot about fixing meals. I have never been good at it and I don’t really enjoy cooking. It’s the eating I enjoy. XD
So for a time I was kinda just going though and making what ever he wanted. And let me tell you my husband wants nothing but noodles. You could feed this man cheesy noodles for the rest of his life and he would be happy as long as he had some veggies and meat on the side. I was still drinking pop a lot. Like about 2 to 3 liters a week maybe even more. This went on until I got pregnant with our daughter Elizabeth. While I carried Elizabeth I behaved myself very well no pepsi and healthy foods. I did really well by not putting on a ton of weight. And once I had her most of the weight went with her. But I breast fed her and because it made me soooo hungry all the dang time, some times I didn’t make good choices between meals. So I put on a few more lbs. by the time Liz was weaned I was about 160. Then I continued to make bad choices, and I was still eating meals like I was feeding two and not just myself.
It got to the point where I wasn’t feeling like looking at myself in the mirror. I would get depressed because I had to by bigger clothes and nothing looked right on me. All my fat went to my chest and tummy so my pants wouldn’t stay up right unless I pulled my belt tighter than was comfortable.
So once I got to 180 I had, had enough! I was tired and knew I didn’t feel good about myself. I wanted to be thin again like I was back when I was 145. But I had to make a decision for myself. I knew that the pop would have to go and most other sugar in my drinks.
I bought a water filter and stopped buying pop. I had two very, very bad withdrawal headaches. But other than that it wasn’t so hard. Cravings were the worst, my weaknesses are BBQ chips and pop and I still crave them at times. If I get any I’ll buy small amounts so that I won’t eat too much at once.
I have lost 11 lbs so far and it really makes me feel like I can do this! I’m trying to lose slowly, and I’m not really dieting because I don’t want to be on a diet for the rest of my life. I’m just counting calories and eating proper portions. I drink lots of water but not to fill myself up, I fill full with my portions. But the water helps me not think about pepsi. If I’m not thirsty I don’t think of pop. I’m running and exercising as well. And I hope to get toned all over, I don’t want to be just thin, I want to be toned looking and fit.
Oh and also let me tell you, I feel ten times better without that caffeine in my body. My headaches are much better than they were before and I have more energy.
Ok well that’s about it. Feel free to comment.
Thanks Tammi.
Hello everyone my name is Tammi, since this is a dairy I’m going to blather all about myself and my weight. And my love of food... XD
I have always loved food especially home cooked food. My family didn’t really make any fancy meals. Usually every meal was from one pan, and we didn’t have set times of the day for a meal. So if someone wanted something, we either had to cook it ourselves, or wait until Mom cooked something.
Meals were not healthy by any means, and quite frequently we would go whole weeks eating the same thing every day. My dad didn’t mind doing that, so he didn’t see anything wrong with making kids eat it too. After all who needs fresh viggies and fruit?
Often my dad would go on kicks where he would decide to lose weight. He wouldn’t go on normal diets or anything like that. He would decide to eat beans for every meal. I remember one time when I was about 6 I didn’t want to eat beans because I was soo sick of them. and the only other thing to eat was ramen noodles. That was it, there was no vegetables, no fruit. Just beans and noodles. I opted for the noodles even though I didn’t want them.
I am told that before I was born my dad even tried some kinda drink diet. While he was on it, he told my 12, and 14 year old sisters, that since they were too fat, they had to do it along with him.
All of my young life I was thin. I think it was either because I didn’t want to eat what we had, or because as I got older I had become so nervus living with my family that I couldn’t eat.
There was a lot of suff going on in my home life but I won’t get into that.
Well once I turned 18 I moved into my sisters house. She made wonderful meals and had salad every night, I was in heaven!
I learned a lot from living with my sister, but I still was not on my own and not calling the shots with the meals. I was no mooch though, I worked at a factory building boats. And for the first time I had money that I could spend on what I wanted, so I became addicted to pepsi. I would buy it at work because I was soo tired that I felt like I needed it. Some of the girls in my area were even into taking pep pills but I stayed clear of them.
While I lived with my sister I went from weighing 110 to 145. I still looked good because I am 5'5" But I felt huge because I was used to being tiny from near starving. Once I moved out to live with my husband I didn’t know a whole lot about fixing meals. I have never been good at it and I don’t really enjoy cooking. It’s the eating I enjoy. XD
So for a time I was kinda just going though and making what ever he wanted. And let me tell you my husband wants nothing but noodles. You could feed this man cheesy noodles for the rest of his life and he would be happy as long as he had some veggies and meat on the side. I was still drinking pop a lot. Like about 2 to 3 liters a week maybe even more. This went on until I got pregnant with our daughter Elizabeth. While I carried Elizabeth I behaved myself very well no pepsi and healthy foods. I did really well by not putting on a ton of weight. And once I had her most of the weight went with her. But I breast fed her and because it made me soooo hungry all the dang time, some times I didn’t make good choices between meals. So I put on a few more lbs. by the time Liz was weaned I was about 160. Then I continued to make bad choices, and I was still eating meals like I was feeding two and not just myself.
It got to the point where I wasn’t feeling like looking at myself in the mirror. I would get depressed because I had to by bigger clothes and nothing looked right on me. All my fat went to my chest and tummy so my pants wouldn’t stay up right unless I pulled my belt tighter than was comfortable.
So once I got to 180 I had, had enough! I was tired and knew I didn’t feel good about myself. I wanted to be thin again like I was back when I was 145. But I had to make a decision for myself. I knew that the pop would have to go and most other sugar in my drinks.
I bought a water filter and stopped buying pop. I had two very, very bad withdrawal headaches. But other than that it wasn’t so hard. Cravings were the worst, my weaknesses are BBQ chips and pop and I still crave them at times. If I get any I’ll buy small amounts so that I won’t eat too much at once.
I have lost 11 lbs so far and it really makes me feel like I can do this! I’m trying to lose slowly, and I’m not really dieting because I don’t want to be on a diet for the rest of my life. I’m just counting calories and eating proper portions. I drink lots of water but not to fill myself up, I fill full with my portions. But the water helps me not think about pepsi. If I’m not thirsty I don’t think of pop. I’m running and exercising as well. And I hope to get toned all over, I don’t want to be just thin, I want to be toned looking and fit.
Oh and also let me tell you, I feel ten times better without that caffeine in my body. My headaches are much better than they were before and I have more energy.
Ok well that’s about it. Feel free to comment.
Thanks Tammi.
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