My life has been a country song...

[nc_bmac08]

SoSel, where are you? If you fell off the wagon let me know, cause I'm draggin your ass back on it.

 

[SoSel]

I'm here. I'm just having a hard time right now.

The diet had to end. I got really sick. My friend's mother talked to her father, a doctor, and basically said that I crashed. There is a minimum of calories that I need for daily living and I wasn't eating near that. So, I guess my body went into "starvation mode" and is now holding on to everything I eat. Being near food made me sick for a few days. Finally, about last Friday, I started eating normal again. Then Sunday night I got a stomach bug -or something- and now I'm back to my pre-diet weight. And sick.

I have nothing to show for the Hell I went through, except discouragement. I don't even want to step foot in the gym. I feel like I'd die of embarrassment. I don't feel stronger, or smarter, or re-focused. I feel sick.

I cried and cried over all this. I want to give up and just face a life of bigness.

 

[nc_bmac08]

I think thats a bad idea. You deserve more than that. Ultimately you are going to do what you want to do, but I know you can get healthier and thinner if thats what you want. I'd be glad to help you with diet. I'm down about 36lbs now so I know a little bit about what to eat. Come on, you can do it and we can help

 

[nc_bmac08]

Well, you know where we'll be when you're ready to come back.