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PEC

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So i've been around about 3 weeks and i'm finally starting my "diary".

My basic stats:
Height: 5'8"
Starting Weight: 228
Highest Weight: 230
Current Weight: 223
Age: 26
Sex: F


I've always been a "bigger girl" and for the most part i'm pretty confident with my body. However, over the past six month i have been constantly gaining weight and don't feel healthy like i used to.

We all have excuses, mine is have my boyfriend breaking up with me and then in that process i sprained my ankle; so not only was i brokenhearted but i couldn't do my usual cardio workout.

I'm very comfortable having a goal weight of 180. From the reading i've done it's at the upper portion of health weight for a woman my height.

I've always ran. I'm completed countless races, but since my injuries i've only completed one race at the beginning of May (12K). I just joined a runners group for training for a 5k, even though i've done many 5k's i hope this group will give me more motivations.

I've never counted calories before in my life but today i did. I weighed my meat and cheese. I measured my cereal. very interesting and helpful. I'm not going to count calories going forward yet but i am working on portion control and my alcohol intake.
 
PEC said:
My basic stats:
Height: 5'8"
Starting Weight: 228
Highest Weight: 230
Current Weight: 223
Age: 26
Sex: F
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:smilielol5: At first I thought I was looking at my own diary page. We are almost identical in stats. I'm 27 though.

Congrats on your 5 pound weight loss!
 
Thanks for the feedback!!

I do feel my goal is realistic. Maybe things will change when i reach that weight but as of now i am really happy with a 180 goal.

I haven't been good at working out yet since returning from my vegas vacation. I have this 10 page research paper hanging over my head that i am avoiding and has to be complete by June 1st. EEK. I think that stress is probably holding me back a little but hopefully i'll force myself to the gym tonight. A little 30 minutes of intervals on a treadmill seem to help me focus.

Food has been ok for me. I did have a glass of wine last night but only one glass.

Dinner is my leftover baked chicken and probably some frozen peas. I got the baked chicken from the today show on monday morning ( i love the today show!!)
 
I should mention that i only weigh myself Monday mornings, so if you notice i don't have my SW, GW, & CW it's b/c it's not a Monday. :)
 
Hi umm... PEC(?) okay I guess that will work... BTW, my name is Karl.

Thanks for swinging by my journal earlier. Love to meet new people. Yeah my workouts can get intense sometimes, but they are the primary thing that keeps me honest since tracking food has never been a strong suit with me until recently.

A runner and a Cyclist huh? Any triathlon aspirations? I can't run to speak of... too old... too fat.. too much potential damage to my knees, but I love cycling and swimming.

Looks like your exercise will not be a problem. We all need to find our weaknesses and figure out how to conquer those areas. I'm here for ya, I'll be around!
 
Hey there PEC, seems like you are off to a flying start!

Good idea to weigh and measure your food at first at least so you can get a handle on what is what calories wise, but you know that I am sure :D

WEll done and keep up the great work!!! :hurray:
 
reluctantcabbie said:
Hi umm... PEC(?) okay I guess that will work... BTW, my name is Karl.
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Hi Karl. Yeah PEC is an acronym nickname i've had for almost 10 yrs, strange but i figure it works here.

Usually exercise isn't my weakness but since i'm not good at changing my food intake i'm hoping to really amp my exercise for the next couple months. I'm done a relay triathlon with a group once, i was the swimmer. Yeah i want to do a full triathlon but right now don't have any friends interested in joining me and there aren't any sprints in my area so it's a big commitment. I'm hoping for one next spring...

Again this morning i couldn't get myself out of bed, it's crazy. I wake up at 6 ans see the sunlight beaming into my room but i can't talk myself to get out of bed early enough to get some exercise in. I'm really hoping this is just me "catching" up on my sleep after vacation.

So far today i'm had a banana and a slimfast shake (out of pure lazy/lateness) and then drinking water. For lunch i weighed out 2oz of Jenny-O turkey/ham = 70 calories and two pieces of wheat grain bread=140, a glaze of miracle whip light ~10cal 2 slices of tomato~15. that is 235 add a pear (100cal) =335.

I have a business networking thing tonight with open bar (beer and wine) i'm always so nervous at those things that i tend to drink more than i want (don't worry i don't drive to them usually walk or ride depending on distance) I'm hoping to get a light beer and nurse that the whole evening.

Thanks Kori!! It's always nice to know people are stopping by and reading :troll:
 
So I was reading back through my couple of post and realized i didn't put down my biggest "hurtle". I binge eat. For the most part i eat pretty well and exercise, i'll do this for like 3 weeks and then i lose control. I'll be shopping for normal groceries and i see cookie dough, or i'll see the candy lane and i can't stay away.
I've said it before that i'm fairly comfortable in my body, but for some reason i don't want people to judge what i'm buying so i'll buy a packet of starbursts instead of a little bar and a bag of thin mints so people think i'm buying them for an office or something and then i just "have" to eat them all right then.

I haven't gone on a binge for a few weeks (since i've started posting here) but i'll have one some day. (most likely June 2nd since that's my ex's birthday) I need to lean that one cookie is okay but a bag of cookies is bad.

Plus did anyone watch the inside NBA before the game last night? Odom just eats candy all the time; it's crazy and it made me want to go get some candy. Luckily i didn't.
 
Hey PEC, I do that too! I can be in some semblance of control for a few weeks at a time, and then out of the blue I have a day where I don't just fall off the wagon, I take a running dive off of it!

We'll be around to pick you up and dust you off if you fall.
 
Grrr...i couldn't fester the will to ride my bike to work this morning and it's gorgeous outside. I'm so frustrated with myself.

Luckily I get off work at 1pm today and am going on a hike (my weekly friday hike) with my best friend.

I was super hungry last night and ate two tacos with cheese and romaine lettuce. At the business thingy last night i only had one Miller Lite and i was super happy because i ran into a guy i went to high school with that i hadn't seen in 7 years. He's matured a lot but of course mentioned his girlfriend...But i still think it'd be fun to hang out with him and hopefully he can introduce me to some more guys our age (that have actual jobs)

I kept really busy after the business social time by cooking the tacos and planting my two tomato plants. I'm still avoiding my paper which is a horrible thing to do but in 3 days i'll have it done or it'll never be done...at least it will be over.

I'm so excited for June to be here!!
 
Today was good and bad.
I got up and had a slimfast shake. It's my prerace meal everytime. I drink it early but it give me lots of energy. Then i went and completed a 10k in the hot sun, it went pretty well, the worse part was the race was pretty casual and our "water car" forgot about me and missed me so i only got water once after 4 miles. Eh... at least i didn't cramp up. I finished in 1:27:39 which is really close to a 14 mile pace. AND i took a break at an exxon to use the bathroom and get my hat wet so i wasn't dying of heat.

BUT the bad part. I had 20 oz of coke (the picnic after the race) a wheat ham sub (dry=no mayo or other dressing) few doritos, and then half a medium receses peanutbutter blizzard. the other half is in my fridge. but it's 4:30 and that's all i've eaten.

i have a banana that i'll probably eat soon and then the rest of the blizzard. I could have done worse with the food but I should do better.

anyways i'm off to put aloe on my body.
 
Hey PEC,

Well done on the race! :D

As for the binge eating you mention, I have the exact same problem about picking up food in the grocery store. But I found a solution. I put what I want in the cart. Junk food or whatever. And I continue to walk around the store with it. And by the end of my shopping, I realize that I don't REALLY want it, so I put it back. It's all an urge thing, you gotta satisfy the first urge and that's picking up the food. And by walking around it gives you time to come to your senses and realize that's not the right thing to buy.

You're doing so well so far.

Calories are the only things that matter, so you should just incorporate the junk food you had today into your calorie counting. As long as it's apart of your calorie intake it doesn't matter much, and allows you freedom to mess up a little bit without it being a catastrophe.
 
Woke up this morning and rode my bike to breakfast. Had ham and egg scramble with some potatoes and 2 pieces of wheat toast. Then rode home, bike ride ~15 minutes each way. Usually have a big sunday breakfast then a dinner around 5ish with some kind of fruit snack (i.e. apple/orange/pear) in between.
It felt nice to ride and loosen my muscles after the run yesterday. Feeling a little sore but not too bad. Writing my paper today so not too much activity planned for today.
 
reluctantcabbie said:
Hey PEC, I do that too! I can be in some semblance of control for a few weeks at a time, and then out of the blue I have a day where I don't just fall off the wagon, I take a running dive off of it!

We'll be around to pick you up and dust you off if you fall.
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Thanks Karl! it's so nice to know that i won't be judged if i dive off the wall.

dreamingblue said:
Hey PEC,

Well done on the race! :D

As for the binge eating you mention, I have the exact same problem about picking up food in the grocery store. But I found a solution. I put what I want in the cart. Junk food or whatever. And I continue to walk around the store with it. And by the end of my shopping, I realize that I don't REALLY want it, so I put it back. It's all an urge thing, you gotta satisfy the first urge and that's picking up the food. And by walking around it gives you time to come to your senses and realize that's not the right thing to buy.

You're doing so well so far.

Calories are the only things that matter, so you should just incorporate the junk food you had today into your calorie counting. As long as it's apart of your calorie intake it doesn't matter much, and allows you freedom to mess up a little bit without it being a catastrophe.
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Thanks Dreamingblue!! I'll try that at the grocery store, maybe it will help walking around in the store a little while longer. I think i did ok last night with a banana another 250 calories of slimfast and my blizzard.
 
Alright...Paper not going that well i keep getting distracted. A friend came into town and I got invited to a bbq at her parent's.
between breakfast and bbq i ate a pear but really wanted more food. I rode my bike to the bbq it was uphill!!! my legs were burning and i had to stop a couple times cause the hills were so big; but let me say the ride home was awesome!!i petaled like twice and that's all.
I think i did a great job with eating i had two thin short pieces of wheat bread with butter, ~4oz of chicken with no skin, an ear of corn (no salt pepper or butter!!) spring salad precovered with fat free raspberry vinaigrette. for dessert is was a rootbeer float, but only 4 ounces of rb and a scoop of ice cream. (only drank water with dinner)

BUT...I just got home a bit ago and i'm hungry!! I had two glasses of water since being home I'm gonna start some laundry and clean up my downstairs to distract me. but i think from the portions i had at breakfast and dinner i shouldn't eat much more. Maybe i'll weigh out some goldfish for a snack, hopefully i won't do it though. I really am hoping for a pound or two loss for this past week. I can't wait to weigh in tomorrow!! (that's a bad thing if i fail)
 
Good luck finishing up your paper. One thing that I do not miss about college.

dreamingblue's suggestion about walking around the store until you don't want what's in your cart anymore is a great idea. I've done this quite a few times when I feel the need to buy things I don't need. After walking around for a while, I find myself feeling okay about putting just about everything back.
 
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meme said:
Good luck finishing up your paper. One thing that I do not miss about college.
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Thanks for stopping by MeMe. Yes getting a Masters is fun :willy_nilly:

So I weighed myself. I kinda knew this would happen because of the timing of last week's weigh in (I know what time in the month i weigh the least) but i was really hoping for a little loss. Oh well i'm still on track and I'm still fairly positive, at least i didn't go up.

HW: 230
SW: 228
CW: 223
GW: 180
 
Hi Pec!

Looks like your doing great :) don't worry to much when the weight gets stuck. Everyone loses weight different. Like me.. I tend to lose 2-3 pounds in a day then teeter back and forth between 2 pounds for weeks. It'll move :p
 
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