my journey seems like the neverending story....

brawny77 said:
I posted this on my thread. It is a thing someone sent me only I changed it up to kinda fit the attitude that will get us healthy.

Recipe for a great year.
"Take twelve full-grown months, free from old memories of bitterness, hate and jealousy. Cleanse them completely from every clinging spite and negativity. Pick off the little specks of pettiness and unhealthy habits. See that these months are free and clean as when they came from the storehouse of time. Cut these months into thirty or thirty-one equal parts; the whole batch equals one year. If you try to make up the whole batch at once you may spoil the whole lot.

Prepare one day at a time according to this pattern: into each day put 12 parts of faith, 11 parts of hope, 10 parts of prayer, 9 parts of kindness, 8 parts of patience, 7 parts of work, 6 parts of fidelity, 5 parts of courage, 4 parts of exercise, 3 parts of quiet meditation, 2 parts of generosity, and a dash or two or three of fun and play. Put love into the whole batch and mix with enthusiasm. Garnish with smiles and a sprig of cheer.

Follow these directions and a wonderful 2009 is guaranteed!"
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:iagree:I have to say this little poem is amazing... I love it... it's so so true..

Last year I had such a bitter year and this year for sure I am being stronger than ever and trying to leave the past behind and start my new year as it never has happened..:nopity: I had a pity party all by myself...

2008 goodbye:rant:
I gained 50 lbs like there was no tomorrrow.. the more I gained the more I ate.. My business as I am in real estate went down the tubes. I lost my motivation my faith... My little sister who is my bestfriend relapsed onto drugs after being 2 years sober. (This by far was the hardest for me) Not only did she relapse she started doing anything for drugs like stealing and stuff and got stuck into a bad situation and went to jail.. No one in our family has ever been in jail so it's been extremely hard to see here there. Sundays jail has become my second home because someone has to stay strong for us so when she comes out everything can start new.:cry:

I hate talking about my personal life but I notice that when I do I feel better. So all these issues made me gain 50 lbs of hate discust and depression...

Well 2009!!!! I made a promise for myself to get rid of all the bitterness, all the hate, all the depression and seek happiness, health, good true friends, faith in my business. I have little by little. I am more than happy everyday I wake up with a smile on my face. I have lost a little bit of weight.. I sold 4 houses since december till now. I just feel like little old happy Ivette again. Not that depressed monster I was turning into.. I have let all the negative vibes go and regain control of my life, health, and attitude... woohhooohere I come....:cheers2:
 
usedtobefatmatt said:
two nights with no reply?? I cant handle it, where are you????:toetap05:


Just kidding of course. Hope you are enjoying your weekend.

Matt
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Hi Matt!!!! I'm here... well yeah I had an extremely busy day yesterday and excersize sucked.. I really didn't do too much...Today guess what??? Im taking my dogs to a doggie party .. my friends dog kiwi turns one so off to the park I go.. I am going to make sure I get a lot of running done with the dogs there.. Other than that... everything has been dandy....:newangel: thanks for stopping by :hug2:
 
Alta818 said:
I'm really excited for you too!! And I know you will reach your goal because I have not ever seen you doing this with so much effort! I truly know you will Impress yourself as to how amazing your body can actually be .......:beating:

....and about you being the same wonderful cool chick...YOU ARE RIGHT :D:...

...I think weight sometimes hinders people from actually seeing that in FULL cause we are so often judged on our appearance or our actions....and telling you the TRUTH, not just because you are my friend....YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL :drool5:....inside and out....!!!

..I am soooo impressed and inspired as well by you!!! I love that you have joined my secret world...heheh....and that you are doing this too! It makes me want to try harder as well....for that .....THANK YOU!!!....:grouphug:
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I had just written you a whole three paragaraphs and they erased... awwwww im annoyed..

But anyways it went something like this... I agree with our talk the other day of not having to have sparks all day or rum... instead we are just conditioned to have something coming into our mouths all day.. :iagree: I have switched it all up to smart water coffee and green tea. .. and gee it working.. what do ya say...

I also came to a realization and understanding of why I would get so damn crunk at parties... because I had to be sippin all damn night .. and ur right rum to sip all damn night does get intresting :chillywilly:

Therefore to my next party I will take 3 gallons of green tea and I shall be fine all night... :rotflmao: that way we won't end up squatting behind a bush or walking thru a drive thru..... on top of not remembering that shit happen and having to hear it from 169 people is even funnniker... are you serious I did what????????????? slide through the bowling lane and drop the pins::: instead we can leave the party like nice little girls... :grouphug:

Even though these memories that I don't remember are awesome and make me pee in my pants... there so damn funny but knowing me and you girl.... on green tea we can still do some funny shit.. we can spice it up with a shot of caffeine or ginseng..

Amiga!!! te quiero muchisimo.. thanks for being such a true special part of my life.. in the good and the bad...
 
Im with ya 09 is gonna be fine!

I have a few black sheep in my family too. Most of my family is great but I have this one cousin that when people ask me "Are you related to Curtiss ____ I just cringe. Anyway congrats on selling a few houses. I wish I had one for ya to sell but actually I just built one out here on my 7 acres. It turned out very nice.
Your attitude just drips with positiveness...hang on to that.
 
A doggie birthday party??? How funny is that? Do they give doggie goodie bags at the end? Do they play pin the tail on the cat?

God are those bad jokes, sorry. Hope you had fun.


How old is your son?

Glad everything is going so well. Dont worry about those days when you get busy and dont exercise. They are going to happen. Just stay focused with your eating and you will be fine in '09.


Matt
 
usedtobefatmatt said:
A doggie birthday party??? How funny is that? Do they give doggie goodie bags at the end? Do they play pin the tail on the cat?

God are those bad jokes, sorry. Hope you had fun.


How old is your son?

Glad everything is going so well. Dont worry about those days when you get busy and dont exercise. They are going to happen. Just stay focused with your eating and you will be fine in '09.


Matt
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Omg... yes I just got back and both my dogs are passed out so so funny... my son is 3years old and he's so lucky to have such a cool mom.. :party:

Yes.. we got doggie bags to come home with leashes, brushes, treats and all kinds of stuff. My son was the one leading all the games... it was funny.. My friend who threw the party had games like let's see which dog drops all the pins first...and they got prizes:roflmao:

Our present to her dog was a cake I ordered from a doggie bakery can u believe?? It was so so much fun and different.. I will post some pictures so you can laugh ur ass off.. It was a good time..

I ran a lot today... The good thing is that yeah I have been eating very healthy and nutritious which I guess was where I let it go bad. I have also cut down on drinking to extremes.. I was drinking a lot for some reason.. but thanks to Altas analogy of why?? I agree and have cut dcwn. I still drink a lot but just not alcohol... hahaha :sifone:

well matt thanks for all your positive vibes... they are always welcome..
 
Great!
You are doing great!
Dont let anything or anyone slow you down.
Way to go my new friend!
I feel better already.
You are about to start noticing little things that show your progress!
 
I'm annoyed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I try hard to be happy and not show insecurities but today I had a huge meltdown.... I took my son to dance classes at noon with my two beautiful cousins with the best freaking bodies you have ever seen... I felt like such a fat ass!!!!!!!!

I know I'm on my way to weightloss, but still I felt like a blob... Then I go bowling with JJ my son for the first time and my insecurities just kicked me in the ass... In the lane next to us there were 3 women with like 18 kids and they were all so fit... I just felt horrible.. I don''t know why?? I know who I am and I tried hard to be happy but I just felt like ewwwww...

I know I'm on my way to being where I want to emotionally and physically and everything.. but I just felt like ewwww...:svengo:

It just goes by so damn slow.. I'm annoyed and frustrated right now...

Well I did 40 mins on the elliptical today and last night I did like 30 mins... I have been following my weight watcher diet and next friday we will see what my next weigh in is???

I hate showing my insecurities but this is what I'm here for.. No one said it was going to be easy!!! I know!!!! and no one said it was going to be fast!!!! I decided one day Ok.. I've had it I want to lose weight, and when I see it going so slow it devastates me...

On top of my depression and annoyance right now.. I have also had 2 rum and diets and 1 sparks........therefore... I want to be as real as possible as this is the only place I feel I can..............
 
I read this book once and the whole premice (did I spell premice right?) was to replace negative habits with positive ones. A good friend had given it to me. He had replaced dmoking with jogging. Thats what you are doing, especially with the exercise. Wouldnt you agree that the alcohol is way down and the exercise is way up. Maybe next time you could have only one drink? All I could think about when I was on my bike was that I wanted to try one of the new 64 calorie Miller Lite beers that I had bought today. (by the way it sucked, next time Ill ride 10 extra minutes and have a Sam Adams or a Shiner)
It is good that you are letting it all out here. You will sort through your feelings.
 
Ivette8uNOmore said:
I try hard to be happy and not show insecurities but today I had a huge meltdown.... I took my son to dance classes at noon with my two beautiful cousins with the best freaking bodies you have ever seen... I felt like such a fat ass!!!!!!!!

I know I'm on my way to weightloss, but still I felt like a blob... Then I go bowling with JJ my son for the first time and my insecurities just kicked me in the ass... In the lane next to us there were 3 women with like 18 kids and they were all so fit... I just felt horrible.. I don''t know why?? I know who I am and I tried hard to be happy but I just felt like ewwwww...

I know I'm on my way to being where I want to emotionally and physically and everything.. but I just felt like ewwww...:svengo:

It just goes by so damn slow.. I'm annoyed and frustrated right now...

Well I did 40 mins on the elliptical today and last night I did like 30 mins... I have been following my weight watcher diet and next friday we will see what my next weigh in is???

I hate showing my insecurities but this is what I'm here for.. No one said it was going to be easy!!! I know!!!! and no one said it was going to be fast!!!! I decided one day Ok.. I've had it I want to lose weight, and when I see it going so slow it devastates me...

On top of my depression and annoyance right now.. I have also had 2 rum and diets and 1 sparks........therefore... I want to be as real as possible as this is the only place I feel I can..............
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Like I have said before this is not easy and it is going to be hard at times. Your emotions are going crazy right now. Just think two months ago your body was all happy that it was status quo. It's human nature to fear the unknown. When we have an unknown, like your current situation we tend to break down a little easier.

On March 21, 2007 (yes i will never forget that date) when i found out i was a boarderline diabetic and weighed 350 lbs, I broke down and cried like a little baby. I cried to my best friend. I was a 36 year old man crying. At this point I knew enough was enough. I channelled that energy into what I needed to do for my family and myself. I never looked back. You need to be strong and stay focused. Everytime you feel overwhelmed, step back take a breath and remember why you are doing this. You will be fine.

Kick ass job on the exercise, keep it up!!

As far as the drinks go, Don't sweat it. You need to live a little and have fun but here is my thoughts on this. Sure I don't drink as much as i used to but I will never say no to a beer with the guys. What I dont do anymore is drink a 6-8 beers on a Tuesday watching the game by myself. Drinking is held to weekends and plan for it.

Always remember this is a lifestyle and not a diet. Enjoy the day.

YOU CAN DO THIS.

Matt
 
I will win and nothing will stop me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO INSECURITIES WILL COME THAT'S A GIVEN... I THINK EVEN THE MOST FIT PEOPLE HAVE INSECURITIES OR ISSUES IN THEIR LIVES.:nopity:

I TRY MY HARDEST TO BE A POSITIVE PERSON. I LOVE BEING POSITIVE. I READ ON MOTIVATION AND THIS YEAR I PROMISED TO APPLY IT TO MYSELF AND MY DAILY LIFE. :patriot:

TODAY I WILL MAKE A BUSINESS PLAN AND A LIFE PLAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOR 2009............:biggrinjester:

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND SUCESSFUL AND AT PEACE AND LOOKING HOT!!!!! NOT TO MUCH THIS IS WHAT I WANT.. WHATEVER I DEDICATE MYSELF TOO I ALWAYS GET. I AM NOT A QUITTER BUT REGARDLESS I DO AT TIMES LET MY EMOTIONS GET THE BEST OF ME...

MY BUSINESS IS GOING WONDERFUL NOW I JUST HAVE KEEP IT UP.. MY WEIGHTLOSS IS STILL AT AN ALL TIME HIGH BUT IF I KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING IT HAS TO IMPROVE.

IM READY TO START MY NEW WEEK....
 
Positive affirmations work!!!!! Do it!!!!

I feel ya woman!!! Insecurities get the best of me A LOT as well.....but the thing that's been helping me as of lately, is making a promise to MYSELF,.....fine....you wanna negatively bash yourself emotionally, you are going to have to BASH yourself....POSITIVELY, as well....sooooo.....every time I tell myself...."uggh, you are fat"..."uggg, this"..."uggh that".....I then, follow it by ...."NO, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL"...."YOU ARE SMART"..."YOU ARE SEXY"..."YOU ARE AN ATHLETE BEING BORN", ..."YOU ARE PROGRESSING FURTHER AND FURTHER by the MINUTE"......[/B]"YOU ARE JUST AS BEAUTIFUL AS ANY OF THESE WOMEN"......"MY SMILE SHOWS MY INNER BEAUTY WHICH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYTHING ON THE OUTSIDE"....!!!!

....i'm telling you woman, within SECONDS....your thinking changes....and your feelings change, and your actions change, and your results change!!! :D:

...you are doing AMAZING :auto:.....CONGRATULATE YOURSELF!!!!
 
usedtobefatmatt said:
No, 3.6 pounds ago it was an all time high. You have already lost some.



Matt
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No your right!!! I'm progressing its just at such a slow pace that I am getting annoyed... But your right every week I have been progressing.. My legs are sore which has to be a good sign... I do the elliptical. I have been eating healthy and yeah.. I guess I just need some vitamin b12 and b6 to get some more energy.... I need to be positive... I have felt like having my own pity party this weekend...

I start my sauna sessions today at 12:30. I am excited over that I hope that at 3pm. I come out a little bit more positive energy... I have my schuedule done.

I had to make an early lunch before my session.. A chicken breast broth soup with carrots.. you know what damn I'm a good chef. It tastes awesome.. yeahhh...

Thanks for all your motivation and support.. It truly helps me to turn on my laptop and check and get affirmations that everything I'm doing is really happening... That by the end of this year I will just be looking back at my diary and see a huge transformation. A new person.. I can't wait..
 
Alta818 said:
I feel ya woman!!! Insecurities get the best of me A LOT as well.....but the thing that's been helping me as of lately, is making a promise to MYSELF,.....fine....you wanna negatively bash yourself emotionally, you are going to have to BASH yourself....POSITIVELY, as well....sooooo.....every time I tell myself...."uggh, you are fat"..."uggg, this"..."uggh that".....I then, follow it by ...."NO, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL"...."YOU ARE SMART"..."YOU ARE SEXY"..."YOU ARE AN ATHLETE BEING BORN", ..."YOU ARE PROGRESSING FURTHER AND FURTHER by the MINUTE"......[/B]"YOU ARE JUST AS BEAUTIFUL AS ANY OF THESE WOMEN"......"MY SMILE SHOWS MY INNER BEAUTY WHICH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYTHING ON THE OUTSIDE"....!!!!

....i'm telling you woman, within SECONDS....your thinking changes....and your feelings change, and your actions change, and your results change!!! :D:

...you are doing AMAZING :auto:.....CONGRATULATE YOURSELF!!!!
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Yes!!! your right I am doing wonderful thanks so much.. I truly love you for always just listening to me and being my friend... I can be real with you in every aspect of my life.

Well good thing I am following thru with this and I am going to my sauna sessions at 12:30 I will tell you how it goes...
Like an hour or two just one day a week.. I think it will be easier if I do it with someone. Its so beautiful there. I took JJ a few times.. It was so funny.. he was like mommie im tired.. hahahahaha..

Love ya chick..
 
Howdy!!! I tend to over simplify things sometimes, but you know what...

Time is going to go by regardless what you do! Things will happen for you!! You will get results!! As long as you stay commited to your plan!! Have good ones Ivette. :) :)
 
jzthedetermined said:
Howdy!!! I tend to over simplify things sometimes, but you know what...

Time is going to go by regardless what you do! Things will happen for you!! You will get results!! As long as you stay commited to your plan!! Have good ones Ivette. :) :)
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I know!!!! I agree!!! I say this all day to myself...... 6 months down the road are coming regardless....

:iagree: So better be it that I am doing positive down the road then not a positive. If not it will be wasted time.. I mean 2008 came and went and now here I am.. Here we are... Life is kinda funny sometimes... I understand it and now I just have to incorporate it everyday and be the happy person I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

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So yeaaaa!!! Today was my first day at the 2 hour sauna treatment.. It went awesome.. It's 25 sessions 3 times a week in a 2 hour body suit that just throws heat..

It's all natural and I really enjoyed it.. I have two more sessions this week and three next week before they take my measurements again to see where I'm at.

I'm pretty happy now, because I'm overall sticking it out like a trooper.. I can't wait for the end results...

Wooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bikini time ....
 
Ivette8uNOmore said:
So yeaaaa!!! Today was my first day at the 2 hour sauna treatment.. It went awesome.. It's 25 sessions 3 times a week in a 2 hour body suit that just throws heat..

It's all natural and I really enjoyed it.. I have two more sessions this week and three next week before they take my measurements again to see where I'm at.

I'm pretty happy now, because I'm overall sticking it out like a trooper.. I can't wait for the end results...

Wooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bikini time ....
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Yeaaaaaa!!! :party: Glad you liked it!!! Sounds like you are going to be one SLIM SLIM MAMA!!! :D:!!!
 
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