My Journey: Positive Outlook For 2013

Measuring can be great motivation. I remember once at the nutritionist I hadn't lost any weight I was the same but I had lost 2cm of my waist and thighs.
 
Hey great job on the inch loss :hurray: don't worry about the scales like everyone's been saying. It's pretty obvious from your measurements, you are losing. And your workouts are amazing!!! Must be doing wonders for the way you feel. Hope the foot pain is nothing major.
 
Well, today was very... um... bad! Started at 206.2lb, the same as yesterday. For breakfast I had a couple slices of homemade zucchini bread. My pre-lunch snack was Doritos (why I bought more, I don't know) and my actual lunch ended up being salt & vinegar chips (my mom bought them for my dad, I "stole" some). Dinner was a couple of slices of frozen pizza (after it was baked of course...lol). Desert was some Ben & Jerry's ice cream (strawberry cheesecake.. mmmmmm!!).

I did not exercise. I wanted to give my foot a break. I tried twisting my ankle around a bit to see if I could feel the tug and it was still there. I figured resting it would be best. I did tear my aquarium's filter apart and gave it a good cleaning which burned *some* calories, no where near what a workout would, but at least I got some moving in.

Tomorrow I'll be on the ocean all day which is good. I won't have as much junk food in front of me. Of course I won't be able to exercise either. Friday and either Saturday or Sunday will be chill at home days so I'm going to try to get some real exercise in those days for sure.

I kind of feel bad for slacking this week, but at the same time I don't. I mean I'm on vacation after all! We all need to cut loose and just take a break from everything at times. I have my whole life ahead of me to try to get into this new lifestyle. Slacking one week won't cause me to spiral out of control again. I won't allow it to happen.
 
Hey Mandy,
You are right, one week won't hurt too much...but don't make it a habit. If you are like me, your habits got you where you are today! Enjoy your vacation!
Sarah
 
Well today got off to a very rocky start. We found out at just before 3am that my grandmother passed away. She had been dealing with cardiac issues and was supposed to be going in tomorrow for some testing to figure out when her surgery would be. As a kid we were pretty close. She used to watch my brother and me when we didn't have school and she'd take me bowling a lot. As I got older I grew away from her as most kids eventually do. I still went to visit with her from time to time, but not nearly as much as I probably should've. My grandfather is taking it pretty well considering. I think he's going to be lost for a while, but the family will take turns watching out for him. It's really heart breaking for my mom, my uncles, and of course my grandfather. My aunt who passed away in April is from this side of the family. So not only did my grandfather lose a daughter, now he's also lost his wife in about 4.5 months time.
 
What a rough time you've had this year. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts. Wishing you all the strength you can get right now
 
Thank you all for your well wishes.

Yesterday was hard. Not so much for me, but for my mother, uncles, and especially my grandfather. They all gathered at my grandfather's house yesterday to make sure he was handling things ok. I stayed at home with the dogs. My grandfather is the type of person who has a very hard time showing emotions and I was worried that it would be just way to overwhelming if I was there too. My mom said he was doing ok, but obviously he's very hurt right now. He's going through a lot of emotions. He's worried about what he's going to do with the house, how he's going to take care of it. He's in his mid 80's himself and his health has been deteriorating as well, but he still gets around ok and is capable of caring for himself. I think he's just in shock right now more than anything else. My mother was running around like mad yesterday making arrangements. The services are set for next Friday.

The family is over there again with him right now. I'm at home again taking care of our house work so my mom won't have to deal with it. I'm handling things ok. I broke down late last night more so because of fear about what's going to happen with my grandfather. I hate that this is happening to him. I really wish I could do more for him. This feeling helpless thing really sucks. :(

In the grand scheme of things my weight is the furthest thing from my mind, but I did weigh in today. I was at 206.8lb yesterday and I'm at 206lb even today. I'd like to get taebo in today, but I'm not sure if I'll feel up to it later. I might just wait until my mom comes home to see if she wants to go for a long walk. I guess her answer will dictate what I'm going to do next.

Thanks again for your well wishes and for letting me vent. It's appreciated.
 
I'm very sorry for your loss. The walk might help you both feel a bit better if you can manage it. Your Mom is lucky to have such a thoughtful daughter. Be sure to take care of yourself too.
 
Thanks Q. I just got home from picking out flowers for the services. Speaking to my mom set me at ease a little bit. She said my grandfather looked really good today. He was able to get a good night's sleep last night (9:30-6am) and he was in better spirits today. He still has a ways to go, but it sounds like he's starting to make some peace with everything.

We're about to head out again to find a centerpiece for one of the flower arrangements we picked out. The book showed a beautiful all white religious statue in it and that was the arrangement we all fell in love with. When we told the florist that's what we wanted she told us she couldn't get that piece so now we're searching for something else to use. Talk about being irritated that the book shows one thing, but we couldn't get it! I offered to buy dinner tonight since we're most likely going to be ordering out. Will be trying to pick a 'healthier" option anyway.

My mom is holding up really well. Especially after today's visit with my grandfather. It really helped to calm her nerves quite a bit.
 
I'm sorry for your loss Mandy, losing a dear family member is never easy. Sometimes a brisk walk alone, where you can stop to cry or just breath fresh air is a good therapy. Take care of yourself and don't eat the food you think is comfort food..it will not bring comfort in the long run...just eat sensibly and take things one step at a time. Death is part of our life..sucks but true.
Good choices to you,
Sarah
 
Thanks guys.

Sarah, surprisingly I'm not turning to comort foods. The only bad eating I've been doing is the ordering take out and that's just out of convenience because of all of the running we've been doing. As far as ice cream and chips (my usual comforts), I haven't had any.

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I'm dealing with this pretty well. I feel bad in saying that though. I feel like I should be grieving more, but I'm really just more concerned about my grandfather. He is doing as well as can be expected. He wanted to be left alone yesterday afternoon so the family respected his wishes. We've spoken to his neighbors and they checked in on him to be safe. So far, he's holding up well.

My mom and I spent a few hours yesterday afternoon trying to find that statue for the flower arrangement. We came up empty handed. This morning we were on our way to pick up an angel statue which we decided would be our back up. Along the way we spotted another florist shop so we stopped in just as a last resort to see if they had the one we were looking for. Luckily for us, they had the very one we wanted. We snatched it up and already delivered it to our florist shop so it'll be ready for the services.

I don't know how many of you believe in signs like this, but I wanted to share this short story with you. My mom got a call from my aunt's roommate (this is the aunt that passed away in April). She said she had a dream about my aunt Wed night into Thurs and she was very happy and was at peace. She couldn't remember what the conversation was about, but she kept saying how happy my aunt was in her dream. This dream happened the same night that my grandmother passed. Maybe it was my aunt's way of saying they were together again. It's kind of eerie, but thought it was worth sharing.
 
Good choice on staying away from the comfort foods Mandy!! Keep up the good work while you are caring for others!
Sarah
 
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