My Journey: Positive Outlook For 2013

I SAW ONDERLAND THIS MORNING!!!! WEIGHED IN AT 199LB EVEN!!!! :D

I'm thrilled to death to see that, but at the same time I need to be cautiously optomistic about it. The way my weight fluctuates I won't really feel comfortable with being out of the 200's until I'm at least 195lb. Still, I'm beyond excited to see it below 200lb. To celebrate, I'll be having a Ben & Jerry's ice cream tonight. Haha... just kidding! It is funny to think that used to be my way of celebrating, but it really defeats the purpose. :)

Now, I'm so very proud of myself on how determined and focused I was throughout the month of October. I only missed 7 days of exercise, tonight will be 8 as it's a scheduled rest day. To add to that, one day I did do a double Taebo workout too. I did the "This is Taebo" cardio workout for the majority of the workouts. I also did a shorter Cardio Taebo workout (shorter by 10 minutes) for 4 workouts. The double workout I did was both of these and then I had one day of walking.

I started the month at 204.8lb and finished at 199lb. That's a 5.8lb loss. Which averages out to a 1.45lb or 1.16lb loss per week going by a 4 or 5 week average, mattering on how you look at it. I'm very happy with that. Sure I'd love to have a 2lb loss weekly, as I'm sure we all would, but my body just doesn't want to work that fast.

As far as inches lost. I'm sure my measurements are not perfect. I find it hard to believe that I lost this much, but I know I did lose so that's the main thing. Here are the numbers using 10/2 as the start date and yesterday as the end date.

Chest is down 1-1/2"
Lower abs is down 1"
Upper abs (more like rib cage) is down 1/2"
Waist is down 2" (I think this one is def wrong)
Left thigh is down 1/2"
Right thigh is down 1" (hmmmmmmm...)
Left arm is down 1/2"
Right arm is down 1/4"
Neck is down 1/2"
Under arms is up 1/4"

So anyway, that's my update this morning. My team won the World Series last night and I woke up in onderland this morning. Today is going to be a fantastic day! :)
 
:party:Oh Mandy that is so great.....even if you don't see it tomorrow trust me you will see it again...happens to me a lot. I knew you would do it, have been waiting till you do to post.

You nearly made me faint when you said I'll be having a Ben & Jerry's ice cream tonight, my head just went down till I read, Just joking.

I am sooo happy for you, keep it up.
Totally enjoy your HIGH and stick with it....more good to come. mrs woods.
 
Haha... trust me I would love nothing more than to get my Strawberry Cheesecake B&J ice cream to celebrate, but I'm not going to. I'll have it again... someday, but not today!! :)

It just really floored me a while back when I finally realized what I was doing. Here I was trying to lose weight and when I hit a milestone I treated myself to food. Um... not a good idea at all! :)
 
Congratulations!!!!! I'm so proud of you!!!! Even if it doesn't stick for a day or two, it will come back!!! And I'm proud of you for realizing your celebrations were not good! Lol
I'm so happy for you, when I read that you reached 199, I jumped up and down with a huge smile! Good thing I'm home alone, except for my 3 y/o niece. And she's too busy playing to think I'm crazy. Lol
Anyways- great job, Mandy!! :)
 
Thanks guys, I'm still over the moon about this! :)

I have a story from tonight to share. My mom and I stopped at our local Subway tonight to grab dinner. It's in the same plaza as our grocery market so it's very convenient. The guy that waited on us remembered us very well, but neither one of us really remembered him. He said he last worked at this location about 7 months ago. He remembered exactly how to make our sandwiches which was pretty impressive, but then he commented on how I'd lost a lot of weight since he was last there. I was pretty floored. I mean 7 months since he's seen us and he remembered what I looked like then? We only stop there once or twice a month so it's not even like it's a really common stop. It put a smile on my face for sure and to have him say something like that the day I dipped into onederland... well, its just a really cool way to end the day! :)
 
Had a GREAT weigh in this morning. I honestly was expecting to be back up to 200+, but NOPE! I weighed in at 197.8lb!! I REALLY hope this is the beginning of being a permanent resident in onederland. We shall see!

My next mini goal is to get below 180lb. It's sad that that's the lowest weight that I EVER remember being and I was a teen then, probably about 16 years old. I remember it vividly because a friend of mine had a four wheeler and he kept trying to get me to go riding with him, but I was too chicken to because I feared I'd tip the stupid thing over. I now realize how dumb that was, but as a teen we're typically dumb anyway right? LOL
 
Hi Mandy, wrote a post to you but it got lost...You are doing so well sweety.
Am so happy for you and thank you for posting in my diary.
Keep up the good work. I will post you soon if you do not mind.
Kindest regards mrs woods. 197.8 FANTASTIC...ten times....:party:
 
Awesome weigh in Mandy! You are very close if not already at the point were you can't fluctuate back up to the 2 hundreds. onderland was grade school for me. I broke 300 at 15. My letter jacket still fits and my senior ring is too big. I alway find it amusing when people talk about wanting to weigh what they did in highschool. I've achieved that already. I want to weigh 103 pounds less than what I did at 15 (1 month past 14) when I weighed in for the football roster at 303 in late August of 1990.

Unless the guy just has an awesome memory I would postulate that he likes you. That's a lot to remember from one visit AND he complimented you. :blush5:
 
MrsWoods - Thanks! Will definitely try to do a better job keeping up with your diary. It's tough finding time at night, but I hate slacking off on supporting those who support me the most! :)

Q - I was chunky as a kid too so once I hit below 180lb I'll be below my high school weight. I used to blame my parents for not being better with me, but at the end of the day I made the choices to binge on candy, chips, and soda. I did it in private so they didn't know. How could they help me if they didn't know? I'm responsible for my own mess and I am taking great pride in gaining control while losing the weight. :)

I wonder if that guy did like me, but I'm still in that mindset of "who the heck would like me" so it's hard to accept. I don't know. I did feel badly for not remembering him. Maybe we'll run into each other again there. We'll see! :)

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So, I think I'm starting to piece things together. Looking back over the last few weeks where my weight was so up and down I wasn't eating the healthiest. I wasn't eating horribly, but I was eating a lot of sodium through frozen Smart Ones and those cup of soup deals (when I had a cold). I also had my TOM thrown in there. This week I've been eating better. More fruit and instead of the frozen dinners and soups I've been eating garden salads with roasted chicken. Sorry if this is TMI, but since going back to the salad I've been having to pee much more frequently. This to me says because of the salt pre-salad I was retaining extra water which is probably why my weight was fluctuating so much. Now that it's working it's way out I seem to be losing weight again. Hmmmm... a genius I am, right? :D
 
YAY Mandy! Congrats on being back in Onederland!! Sounds like you are here to stay this time :)

From your last post I think you are right. The not so great eating and TOM probably had a lot to do with the fluctuations. Either way, you are back to eating healthy so keep it up, you will hit the 180s in no time! :hurray:
 
Thanks, I'm hoping I'm here to stay. I don't intend on letting up. Things are just going way too good now! :)

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Weighed in at 198 even this morning. Not a total surprise I'm just a touch up from yesterday because I didn't get a workout in last night and I ended up eating later than usual. Still, I'm fine with it. I'm barely up from yesterday so that's good.

The plan for today is to get my exercise in... oh, wait that was done by 9am!! :D And, I seem to struggle eating well on the weekends so my goal is to eat healthy today. I can have one cheat day, but not two! So, today will be good. Tomorrow I'll cheat. Mom is thinking about going to see Captain Phillips so I might go with her. Which means movie popcorn!! Yum, but so bad. Oh well, we don't go that often.
 
You are doing so awesome Mandy and you are such an inspiration to me. 52 pounds lighter, that is amazing!

You enjoy that male attention. There is sure to be more coming your way! :jump:
 
Jade, thanks! If I can be an inspiration to anyone that's really flattering. As for the extra male attention, I've always been so awkward around guys so I don't think that'll change anytime soon, BUT I'm finding myself a bit more comfortable with at least making eye contact with strangers. It's a start! :)

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Weighed in at 197.4lb this morning. I'm having a heck of a time typing those digits. I've been stuck in the 200's for so long I keep typing 297. Definitely a problem I'm more than happy to deal with. I'm so happy and proud to be a member of onederland! :)

Went to see Captain Phillips with mom today. What an amazing movie! So intense, very good acting. Tom Hanks was superb as usual. :) I had quite a bit of popcorn, but instead of soda I got a bottled water so it's not as bad as it could have been. I don't think I'll be hungry for dinner tonight, but if I am it'll be salad or leftover shepherds pie.

I haven't done Taebo yet, but will be after the Pats game. :)
 
Thanks Br!na! We both have great reason to be proud of ourselves. You're doing fantastically too! :)

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Ok... movie popcorn tonight is not agreeing with me. I started to get some stomach achiness about halfway through the Patriots game, but I toughed it out and did Taebo. It wasn't my best effort, but I gave it all I could and got through the full workout. My stomach is starting to feel better so hopefully by the time I get up in the morning it'll be normal again.

I'm so not ready for Monday!! :(
 
Hope your tummy is feeling better Mandy, great that you did a work out.
I am now retired so am for the first time enjoying potting around and cooking, cleaning bla bla...but I love it.

Keep up the good work, I only dropped 1 pound this week but that's ok, I think I would like another 5 to 10, as I am 5 foot 9ish....will see.
mrs woods ox
 
Thanks Mrs Woods! My stomach feels better this morning. I still have a little bit of a bloating feel, but it's not bad at all. I should be fine. :)

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Surprisingly, my weight did not go up from yesterday. I weighed in at 197.2lb. I thought for sure it would be up from all of that popcorn. So, it wasn't much of a drop, but it's still a drop! :)
 
Not a bad day considering it was Monday. I splurged and had some Reese's PB cups, but will skip dessert to compensate for it. I think I'm retaining water, probably from the popcorn yesterday. I just don't feel right. Still feeling slightly bloated. Ick!

I got my workout in today. I have to say that I love working out when it just feels right. When you can get into that zone where you just take charge and kick butt. That's how it felt today. It's so empowering! :)

I think at this point at the impatient stage. I know losing weight, especially as much as I'm trying to lose, is a lengthy process. I didn't get fat overnight and I know I can't expect to get fit overnight, but I still really hate to see what I see in the mirror. I know I've lost a lot already. I've gone from a size 26 to a size 16 pair of jeans, but still when I look at myself I still feel super huge. Wondering how much longer my ginormous stomach and extra fat on my backside will be here. It's a bit discouraging. I'm not at all considering giving up. It's just more fuel to add to the fire, but I'm just getting impatient with it. I just want to be able to look in the mirror and say, "yes this is what I've been busting my ass for!" Will I ever get there? I also wonder if others view me as large as I view myself. I honestly don't know what's bringing these thoughts up, but that's what I've been thinking about tonight.
 
Hi Mandy,

I understand those thoughts. In many ways being so focused on our goals is great. But in a small way I think it forces us to focus just a bit too much on how we look. It can be very frustrating to work so hard for so long and still not be where you want to be. I get that.

I think that my friend talking about how thin I used to be (even though she said I was too thin) made me feel very self concious about how I look now too. It was so easy back then to just throw on something and know it fit right and looked good. I miss that. I think weight loss is as mentally hard as physically hard.

You will get there though. Because I think that you really want it!
 
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