My Journey: Positive Outlook For 2013

Camilla, my mother and I are very close. We do just about everything together so we have a lot of wonderful memories. This is another one added to the list. :)

So far I'm feeling ok off of prednisone, but I'm not expecting to feel a difference for another day or so. I'm really hoping I won't miss a beat. We'll see how it goes.

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I was tempted once again to skip taebo last night due to my leg soreness, but I decided to do the insane abs one which is easier on my legs than the other DVD. The end result was 602 calories burned which I was thrilled about! I thought I was moving in slow motion through most of it and was expecting a lower number. I've only done this DVD a handful of times and I can already feel a huge difference in doing the floor exercises. It's pretty amazing how quickly you can feel the effects once you really put your mind to working out on a regular basis.

This morning's weigh in sucked. I back up to 207.8lb for some reason. I just don't get it. I know I probably sound like a broken record, but as long as I continue losing inches I'm not going to sweat it. I would love to be below 200lb at some point in my life time though.

I'm not sure how today's going to go. I barely slept last night so I'm feeling exhausted today. My mind just wouldn't shut off last night. We have my aunt's burial at sea coming up on 6/8 which I'm starting to get anxious about. I'm a worrier and get stressed easily so I'm already starting to get nervous about the what ifs (what if the weather isn't good, what if something happens to the boat, what if so and so doesn't show up, etc). Ugh!! Now I'm also stressing over the fact that I'm losing my favorite whale watch captain at the end of this season. We actually plan which days we go whale watching just so we'll have him as our captain. Over the past couple of years I've lost a lot of people that I really care about and there's not a thing I can do about any of it. I don't know it just makes me sad all the way around. Looks like today's going to be a blue Monday for me. :(
 
Hey Mandy! :)

Great job at still working out despite the soreness in your legs. That was smart to just move the focus to another area until the pain subsides. Sorry to hear about the loss of your favorite captain. It sounds like you can get caught up in worry about a lot of things; try to focus only on those things you can control.

It's really good to see you controlling your destiny again. :)
 
You are great with those DVDs. Excellent work!
I see your weight is playing games too. We just have to celebrate the inches are leaving.
I hope you find some peace and quiet inside. Exercise should release some chemestry that helps one dealing with stress. Just nuke it!
 
Don, I definitely do get stressed and worry about things that are out of my control. I've been this way for as long as I can remember. I don't know why. I've tried changing it, but haven't been successful yet. I do need to focus more on what I can control and that what I try to do, but when it's time for bed it all creeps back into my head again. I hate that about myself! :(

Clarissa, I'm thinking I'm going to do the insane abs DVD again tonight. My legs are still sore so I don't want to do the full taebo which includes a LOT of kicking and squats. If I weren't losing inches, I'd really be freaking out about the scale. I would love to get down below the 200lb mark, but as long as I'm losing inches I know I'm on track. Heck, who knows. Maybe when all is said and done I'll be the skinniest 200lb'er around! LOL
 
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Don, I definitely do get stressed and worry about things that are out of my control. I've been this way for as long as I can remember. I don't know why. I've tried changing it, but haven't been successful yet. I do need to focus more on what I can control and that what I try to do, but when it's time for bed it all creeps back into my head again. I hate that about myself! :(
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Mandy, I get it. I was more like that when I was younger. Not to an extreme degree, but I did spend energy worrying about things that were outside the scope of my ability to affect them. Have you considered writing these things down and then categorizing or ranking them in some way... it's kind of a physical version of what I do now, which is to prioritize things in order of "What would give me the most bang for my buck"... things that I cannot greatly influence fall to the bottom, things I can influence with the least effort rise to the top. If I do, say, two of the things on a list of five, I feel a whole lot better because now I only have three things worrying me. Does that make sense?

I've learned that I control my life, not the other way around.
 
We are soo alike. I am a worrier, sometimes so bad that it is crippling. So I feel for you. I find that actually saying these aloud to someone close to me (I use my boyfriend for this lol, bless his heart) and have him deconstruct my worries really helps. Just a thought.

You are kicking serious butt with the exercise...I admire you. I've always wanted to try taebo and you are really making me think more seriously about it!
 
Don, I've never thought about writing it down so it's something to consider. Sometimes I just feel llike such a baby worrying about things the way I do. It's one of the many quirks I that I need to fix somehow... or least learn how to deal with it better.

Camilla, since we're being all honest let me say that being vocal about things is yet another one of my problems. I know I can tell my mother anything, but I have a very hard time doing so. I grew up in a house where we didn't really discuss emotions so now as an adult I'm finding it hard to adjust to being able to talk to people. I'm single right now so I don't have a BF to talk to. Bottling up my emotions is something I've dealt with my whole life. :(

As for Taebo, I absolutely LOVE it. It's a great way to burn a lot of calories and work up a sweat. I'm kicking myself now for not trying it sooner. Had I started months or even years ago who knows where I'd be! You can always try some of the free clips on Youtube to see if it's for you. My mom tried it, but it wasn't for her. I love it though. :)

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I did the insane abs workout tonight and burned 594 calories. Once again I was amazed at how much stronger my core is doing the floor exercises. I know I still have a long way to go, but I'm feeling some pretty good improvements already so I'm very happy about that. :)
 
Hey sweetie, seems like you have a lot of things going on right now.
I have gained too this week - with little explanation for it. Good idea to focus on the inches you are losing!

Awesome that you did the insane abs workout tonight!! & you totally deserve to feel good about yourself!
I hope you have a nice rest of the week! :grouphug:
 
Justina, I've said it before and I'll say it again. If it weren't for the inches I'm losing I'd be in panic mode right now. My weigh in was up once again this morning. I'm back up to 208.8lb again. It's so frustrating!

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I slept like a rock last night and I'm feeling very refreshed this morning. My legs aren't sore anymore so this afternoon I'll be doing the full body workout. This is my 2nd day off of prednisone and I'm still doing great so hopefully that'll continue.

As I said above, my weight was up again this morning. Back up to 208.8lb. Ugh! I'm hoping that because I'm doing the abs workout more frequently that I'm gaining more muscle in my mid section which is causing the spike. If it's not that, I don't know what else it could be. I'm going to keep going as I'm going because I can physically feel and see that it's working. It's still really puzzling though how much yo-yo'ing my weight has done over the past month.
 
So glad to hear that you are coming off of the medication without too much discomfort. That's really great!

I'm actually kind of in a similar place with my weight. The scale isn't being terribly kind but my body definitely looks and feels different to me. Have you tried taking progress pictures, even just for yourself? I have a whole set from when I first began my journey to now...and I notice changes within the last two weeks from working out in the pictures, even though the scale doesn't reflect it yet.

Just a thought! :) Hope you have a great Wednesday!
 
Oh, yes I take weekly pics too. Today's atually picture day. I'd like to post them, but I'm not that comfortable with it all just yet. LOL Along with that I also take measurements every Sunday. I know that I'm progressing so I'm not to worried about the scale, but it DOES suck that everytime I get close to 200lb I end up spiking again. I think it has to be muscle/fat ratio related. There's no way that my eating would be causing me to gain. I've also been sore in the legs the past few days so maybe my leg muscles were retaining extra water too. I don't know.
 
Sorry to hear about the weight spike, Mandy. It really is odd that the 200lb barrier appears to be just that sometimes for you. It will fall by the wayside though. It is just a matter of hitting your plan and time. When it does fall, it will be behind you for good, though. Keep fighting.
 
Yeah, I don't understand why I'm having such a hard time with getting below 200lb. It's rediculous really. The only thing that's keeping me sane is seeing and feeling that I'm losing fat... maybe not weight according to the scale, but definitely fat! I'm wearing a size 20 in jeans right now, but they are getting loose. I know I'll be able to fit into an 18, possibly 16. Will be giving both sizes a try this weekend when I go shopping. :)
 
That's the right attitude.

Let's face it... amongst the big reasons we all choose to try and lose weight is that we're sick of feeling fat: Our clothes don't fit, We get winded too easily, We have no energy, etc. Well, following this process, you have improved ALL of those things. Additionally, I am sure you look to others to be in better shape.

But the one measure we focus on is what the scale says. It's a sad reality of how we view ourselves, isn't it? The numbers on the scale.

Your head is telling you the right things. Keep listening. I force myself to remember the uglier side of being 457 pounds, so I don't dwell on the fact that I am still a 359 pounder, feeling fat. It's a great way to remember that life is much, much better now than before I started.
 
"If you build it they will come" ......erm...... wait that makes no sense is this context...

If you keep going, the one hundreds will come!

Incidentally you're at the exact same weight as I am, real anxious about getting below the 200 as well. Was so close the last time (205) but never quite got there. Hope we both can do it in the next few weeks!
 
Mandy - I feel your struggle right now. I briefly got below 150 but have been hanging around 152 forever now. My body feels different but the scale doesn't reflect that. Just gotta push through and keep at it.

I love Don's perspective on this. So spot on.
 
I definitely think it's more important to focus on the big picture, not just a number. I agree with all of you there. :)

This after I attempted my full body workout taebo DVD, but I was not feeling it. My legs just felt weak for some reason so half way through I stopped and rested. About an hour later I got up and finished. I didn't burn as many calories as I normally do using this DVD, but at 838 I can't really complain. :)
 
Still doing pretty good off of prednisone. Today's the 4th full day so I would think I'd be feeling some sort of achiness by now. Yesterday my neck was a bit stiff which was one of my issues before being diagnosed, but today it feels fine so hopefully it was just the way I slept.

This morning's weigh in was pretty much the same as yesterday at 208.4lb. I considered changing to weighing in weekly instead of daily, but I know I'd end up cheating and doing it daily anyway so I'm going to keep going with it as is.

Tonight will be a tough night time wise as I have grocery shopping and the Bruins are on at 7pm so I'll be doing the abs workout tonight. I can have the Bruins on my tv and use my laptop to play the DVD. :)

Looks like Mother Nature is killing my plans for the weekend! Saturday sounds like it would be a pretty sloppy day on the ocean so I'm sure they won't be going. Sunday's not looking too promising either. Our only hope at this point is Monday (thankfully it's a holiday!). Hopefully we'll get one day in anyway.
 
Happy to hear being off of the medication continues to go well for you. I'll cross my fingers that it stays as well for you :)

I love the planning ahead for the workout to make it fit your schedule! And I really hope you get to go out on the ocean. Have a great Thursday!
 
Thanks Camilla! I just spoke to the office and the whale watch for Saturday has been canceled. They're calling for 10' seas which would not make for a pleasant day. Hopefully Sunday or Monday will be good enough. We'll see!

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All day today my right ear has been acting funny. You know how when you're at a high elevation your ears feel plugged up? It's been doing that off and on all day. I also have some ringing noises mixed in too. Very weird! I have no idea what's happening. Hopefully it'll get better tomorrow.

Tonight's going to be a rest night afterall. I was going to do my abs workout, but the more I think about it, the more I want to give my body a rest. My legs are a bit sore today after doing taebo last night. I think I'm just going to chill out and watch the game. For dinner... not so good... my mom asked me to join her for some chinese food. I can't possibly say no to that! It's been a while since I've had some so I guess today I'm going to "blow it" all the way around. Lousy food and no exercise. Oh well... tomorrow will be a new day! :)
 
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