I really shouldn't be posting about this, but here I am. I'm just really sick and tired of how life throws random things at you all of the time. I was finally feeling like things were really falling into place for me. After having a rough year I was finding things to be happy about and to be greatful for. Out of the blue my long time crush contacted me on Facebook, oddly enough after I'd been thinking about him so much wondering how he was. It really got me thinking that maybe, just maybe this is part of the plan for my life. Get into shape and get the guy. Perfect! Well, now I'm thinking that's not the case. It's only been a couple of weeks, but ever since our initial "hi how are you" messages we haven't spoken. I sent him the last message, but he hasn't replied. It's through Facebook and I can see that he read it. I'm not sure why he'd friend me on Facebook and then ignore me. I don't know if I should try messaging him again, wait for him to message me, send him my phone number and tell him he can call if he wants to chat sometime, or really just let it be. And, I know I probably sound like a high schooler here, but gosh this just irritates me and I'm sure it totally shows how limited my interaction with guys has been over the years. I just hate head games and tend to stress over stupid stuff so guess what I'm stressing over right now. Yup, him! Argh!
And, to be clear. I do NOT think he's playing head games with me. When we were close friends he was amazing. He was really too nice for his own good. Unless he's changed tremendously over the years, which I doubt he has this much, he probably doesn't realize that this is bugging me so much.
There - end of rant - Glad I got that out!
Now, don't worry. This is NOT going to affect my diet/exercise. I've been doing very well today with food intake. Oatmeal for breakfast, peaches for an afternoon snack, some ravioli for lunch, my afternoon snack will be some chocolate teddy grahams (24 crackers at 130 calories!), and then for dinner I'm having a chicken breast with rice. I've been drinking plenty of water and will be working out tonight.