My Journey from 195 -165LB

Hey sweetie, sounds like a lot of stress in your life. I had been through a lot myself for several things in 2011/12 - and it was no fun! I know exactly how you feel.. you have to wait - things will come around & will start to look up again- they always do somehow. For me the good things arrived back in February & they just keep happening.
Just hang in there!!! I hope you will find a job too! I couldn't find one either - but now with the move I am more hopeful than in the last 12 months.
Hugs - I hope you have a good week!
 
Hello forum firends

Thank you ladies for the support! I didn't get a chance to come on here yesterday and post my menu so here we go
yesterday

breakfast
fruit muffin
Coffee

Lunch
egg sandwich
coffee

Diner
cheetos
coffee

this was my worst day ever, diner was in the emergency waitting room! I usually have diner once the kids are in bed, that way I can just sit and enjoy it hot and I dont usually eat the same as the rest of the family, last night I was getting my son ready for a bath when all of a sudden I notice something on his leg a black spot.....turned out to be a deer tick....most of you don't know me...but bugs any type freak me out! I was trying to wake my husband from the couch to no avail....I went online reasearch what it was and how to remove it but couldn't get my hands to stop shaking so I figure go see a proffesional! All of this explains the cheetos got to say I don't get why people eat those they are not great,....you would think hospitals would have better snacks on hand, I usually carry something in my purse but didn't have anything. That is what happends when I go unprepared now I have to keep checking his leg to make sure it isn't infected. All night long I felt tick creeping up my leg didn't get a lot of sleep!

This weekend has been kind of a downer we where supposed to go out to celebrate our wedding anniversary but a co worker and friend of my husband got hit by a train on friday so we postponed the mood just wasn't there, it is so sad when a person so generous and kind always ready for a laugh or a party,,,,just decides this is it for me...very devastating for his family and work family....
today on the menu

Coffee
scramble egg and toast a bit of ketchup

lunch
salad with tuna

diner
don't know yet something with chicken but still undecided!
 
ok Corrections on todays menu

Breakfast
nothing :(

snack
water melon with water and cayenne pepper (supposed to help weight loss don't think it does but I was craving sweet and spicy and it did the trick)

lunch
tuna salad

diner
orange chicken in a crock pot with some brown rice.
 
Hey sweetie :grouphug: :grouphug:

Good thing you noticed the deer tick - I would have done the same thing. Bugs freak me out & spiders...if we have one - usually neighbouring towns will know about it too *yeah me screaming*

I have not experienced hospital food much - but I did hear it could be pretty bad - you did what you had to do under the circumstances.

I hope things improve for you soon & you can have anniversary celebration another week. x
 
Hey Justina Thank you for stoping by!

Well as bad as this sounded out third year anniversary was worst my husband got into an accident on his way back from work! Thank fully no one had gotten hurt but it was still not one of best memories lol!

My mood is improving now I am glad for that, I didn't like that feeling at all didn't feel like me, The former work situation has taken a turn for the worst, so it is a good thing I am no longer there! Time to look at the present and future and let go of the past ...i can't change it so moving forward is the only logical choice I have. I am going to look into the rent to own option as far as houses go I am just waiting for the news paper to come in today to look into that!

That water melon cayenne pepper drink really did the trick for me yesterday.....I got the recepie off facebook it said to mix 1/4 cup of water melon and 1/8tsp of cayenne pepper and 8oz of water to drink this after every meal, that the cayenne pepper would speed up my metabolism and the water melon will help with cravings...the craving part totally true I didn't have to fight hurges to buy donuts or eat snack cakes all day yesterday. The speeding metabolism I don't thing anything other then building mucles can do that.

I have nothing planned food wise today there isn't much in the house that is healthy and I have to wait until next tuesday to do groceries,,,it is gonna be a long week!
 
Hello Forum friends!

Sorry I was MIA for a few months we had pc issues and decided to wait until finances where a bit stronger to get it fixed...my weight loss is very much at a stand still....i am not wondering why.....my head just isn't in the game.....I am just not motivated and so tired all the time...I know that if I eat well and start exercising I will feel better but I don't do.... So this morning day two of being hung over...seriously i drank way to much wine and didn't cut in with water in between glases like I usually do! So I am trying to catch up on house work and cleaning and keeping the kids entertaine while feeling like crap....only one good thing comes out of this weekend I am not hungry I eat tiny little meals and then I am good to go....is being hung over supposed to last this long...I have never felt this way in my life!!! I made a big pot of vegetable soup hoping it would help my body get rid of what ever alcohol is left, I don't have a dead ach and don't throw up, my stomach is upset and I have no hunger I can't even drink my beloved coffee! |Now that I am back online I have something to keep myself accountable!

menu today
breakfast
dry toast
1/2 coffee

lunch
veggie soup

diner
veggie soup with a piece of chicken!

I will keep making myself drink water....after diner I will go on a walk I think it will do me good to spend some alone time and get moving even if it is slowly!
 
Glad to see you're back. I took a little time away from the forum too, and it feels good to be back and on track. I hope you're feeling better! :)
 
Thanks for stoping by Jen...I am feeling 100% better and now I understand why I don't drink more often I ain't 20 and I have kids to look after!!!

Well today I am 34 yrs old.....life goes by so fast lol! Today my husband told me to forget dieting it is a special day to have fun treat myself....I will but in moderation I hate the crash that comes after indulging too much....Yesterday I was playing catch up I had to do Sunday and Monday and Tuesday chores all at the same time and also I was negotiating a contract only a 40 hours one it pays well but last time I did it was so much more then 40hrs work and I only had one child at home....so I think that I can't meet the deadline wich sucks cause I could really use the money to get my car back into shape for when I start a new job....I only have about 3 week of EI left so the job as got to happen in the next 2 weeks. I really need the money but the person who gives me all the info is setting me up to fail and I know it! I can't beleive how much things changed in one year,,,,last year at this time I was so hopeful and would have done so much to work at that school, there was a new principal she looked nice and fair and a great person to work for. The team was comming together and working well with the returning members it all looked great! Now two people have transfered out to get away from the bosses "right hand", and she call in sick to go camping, was on sick leave she sold realestate, not really someone you would think the boss would trust all that much. But no we are all liars and she is always right, we can't complain against her cause we are all member of the same union but a non unionized member of the staff couldn't complain either cause she doesn't have a union....all the while She ruins everyones rep! Now I want nothing to do with that workplace....time to let go of the anger and hate cause truthfully is I binge eat cause I am so frustrated I only hurt myself.....Now I just have to think do I take the contract and much needed money even if the backstabber wants me to fail.....and if I decide to turn down how do I do it so I don't look petty and like I on purpose want to leave them in a bind. They know I am not happy with them....I have been out of work since December and on at least three different occasions they had other temps coming in even after the boss herself to my face said Vero you are my number one. if I ever need help I will think of you first you worked almost all stations here! So if anyone as any advice please feel free, I won't hold anyone accountable I just don't know what to do....

Food today
Bagel lightly buttered
Coffee ( oh how I am missed my coffee)

snack
Timbits....it was my bday gift from the kids lol!

Lunch
veggie lentil soup

Diner
Thai take out
chicken stir fry with a spicy Sauce i usually have the spicy chicken soup with it and make two to 3 meals out of my main dish!


I am getting better with the drinking water, workouts have yet to start.....I need a kick in the bum......stress eating is under contoll so far and I weight in at 201 this morning :( but Tom started so official weight in will be Next thursday ! Off to cut the lawn before the rain!!!!
 
So I know I should have waited till next Weds to weight in....but I just couldn't.....193.5 this morning....This mostly water and fluid since today is my last day to TOM but I gotta say my clothes did feel a bit more comfortable,,,,so the scale is finally moving in the right direction!....My husband both me a botlle of wine for the weekend and I am happy to say it remains unopened in the fridge...so no drinking no eating crap! :) Other then a piece of icecream cake at a child bday party! I decided to take the contract they gave me an extra 7 days to work on it so that will make things much much easier for me!

menu for thursay

Breakfast
Pink drink....a vegie fruit smothie with protein and almond milk

lunch
vegie soup

diner
fried chicken and salad (hubby's turn to make diner...at least there was veggie salad)


Friday

Breakfast
Coffee

Lunch
Mac and cheese (1/2 a cup)

diner
Left over thai take out


Saturday
Breakfast
Coffee

Lunch
meal replacement bar

snack
ice cream cake

diner
Mc donald mc bistro southwest grilled chicken sandwich no fries


Sunday
breakfast
oatmeal pankcake with pb a a touch or real maple sirup

lunch
veggie spegetti sauce on bread with a ounce of cheese

diner

grilled chicken breast with roasted veggie (pepper, red oignion, squash)

I drink lots and lots of water 4 of my sport bottle every day I carry it with me at all times! I would say it contains 32 oz but I never measured it!

Next week I want to start walking at least 15 - 30 min a day either outside or on the thread mill depending time and weather! I didn't eat perfect all week.....but I did good especially since tom and high stress level....I didn't run to the fridge I dealth with the situation instead....I am hoping to eat better meals this week my goal is no takeout....all real food!
 
Good Morning and happy monday ....a brand new week begins! I spent last night fighting with myself, I wanted peanut butter and chocolat....I did cave in and ate 1/2 a teaspoon of PB but not on the chocolat I figured at least PB as protein and nutrients.......but not chocolat was eaten!!! Yay me! I also dranks lots and lots of water yesterday ! 5 bottles instead of 3....that is also a great accomplishement!

Today the plan is to do 30 min of walking on the threadmill cause it looks like rain might start any minute Drink 3 or more bottle of water (32oz each) and not cave in to that chocolat craving that is still trying to win me over since last night!

Breakfast
toast with cheese
coffee

Lunch
veggie chilli no chips or bread or cheese just the chilli

diner
corn on the cob with a spicy south west chicken and black beans!

I can't stay on here long I have so much on my plate this week...there is the contract...then getting the kids back into the going to school routine....getting the last minut details down for back to school, getting my 4 year old in a school mind set cause this is his first year, and finally I need to keep up the cleanliness of the house and search for a full time job.....I can do this!!!!
 
Good Morning!

Yesterday I managed to drink 4.5 bottle or water...it's been a while since I was able to do this so I am very proud of myself....only I didn't do the workout thing because by the time I cleared the mess the kids did in the living room it was too late to workout I did a few streches but that is all! Today is a new day and I can succeed at my goal! Food wise I ate a cinamon bun.....:( wish I had resisted but I didn't I am hoping to still be around 193lb for my official weigh in, that would be amazing! What a great way to be motivated!!!!

Breakfast
Coffee and vitamines

lunch
Veggie chilli

diner
something with chick peas and veggies I will look up recepies I need a break from chicken!

I can't wait for the kids to be in school it will be nice to have a quiet houseold! Finish this contract and then have nothing to do with my old job....cut the ropes and find a new interesting challenge....I wished working in a gym was possible....what better job for a person who wants to lose weight! Have a great day!
 
Update******* I just did 5 min of streching 16 min on the threadmill followed by another 5 min of streching****** yes you read right I have I have met my fitness goal for the day!!!! I did even better then I tought min 5 to 6 , 10-11 and 15-16 I did at a speed of 5.0 and 5.1 so not just walking but also running....got say I am very proud of myself!!!!
 
ood morning!

ok so this morning was official weigh in.......194.2lb!!! Last week I was at 201. So that is a 6.8lb loss....I am happy with this I understand that some of that is because last week was TOM but still I ate better and drank tones of water so can't all be TOM....today I will probably get to work out after the kids go to bed but I will have an active day...I am going to go to my parents for the day so half of it will be spent in the swimming pool and I am staying at my parents until my mom commes back from a party for my aunt so I will use my dad's threadmill once the kids are in bed.....Then I get to come home on my own to go to a meeting with the employement center and get my passport documents signed and also work on that freakin contract!

Yesterday I stuck to my menu until after lunch....then the kids started misbehaving and I dove into the fridge...or the bread box this time... and I ate two cinamon buns....once I realized what I was doing I threw out the remaining 3 should never have broguth those in the house....temptation is gone...only junk in the house is candy wich ins't my thing i like chips and baked goods! I haven't had pepsi since march....so I think I finally kicked that habit for good I go to the store and I no longer stare at the pepsi with envy...that is a big step for me at some point I drank like one to two 2L a day....and if I didn't I would get major migrains.....that is over with and I am glad and happy that is over with....tonight once I am back home I will take a before pic not sure if I will post it ...maybe once I have a progress picture i will be so proud and want to post it we will see.

today

breakfast
coffee

lunch
curried chick pea stew

diner
chicken and salad I will not have wedges witht he kids and my dad!
 
Hello

I haven't been on in a few days....it is crazy how busy back to school and that contract is making me. Thankfully starting tommorow my daughter will be back at school full time and then tuesday next week my baby boy will as well.....it will be so nice to clean the house and have it stay clean for more then 5 min! If I get that stay at home job it will be nice....less rush! I get everyone back to school then I come home work during breaks I will be able to start a wash or put diner in the slow cooker the pay won't be much but at least it will be a paycheque and I don't have to buy lots of clothes for work and no travelling other then dropping off the kids at school!

the menu today

breakfast
egg sandwich
only one toast

coffee

lunch
cream of brocolie soup (homemade)

diner
I want to do something with chicken not sure what yet depends on what I find at the store!

my goal this week again drink my 4 to 5 bottles of water......and exercise at least 20 - 30 min a day
Last week I ended up doing about 3 days of exercise so this week I have to do more and eat clean even when I am busy!
 
ok Feelings stressed and so tired right now! Just got a call from the principal about the contract I tought I had two weeks left but no.....only have days :(
 
Ok so quick visit.....the work is going forward.....and I have lots to do but I did prep some raw veggies to keep myself from turning to junk for snacking!!! I am on track for the water and I did a 10 min workout yesterday not the 20 min I wanted but 10 min is better then 0

breakfast
1/2 bagel
coffee

snack
carrott sticks and cucumbers

lunch
meal replacement bar

diner left over chicken stew!
 
Hi, been spot-reading your journey. :) Speaking up b/c I can relate to your last post. I often plan these "great" workouts & fall short. Really get down on myself when that happens. But I really need to be more positive and say, "I did *something* and that's always, always better than nothing."

Keep it up. And thanks for the attitude adjustment...
 
Great job on the veggies and 10 minute workout! Like you said 10 is better than 0, so be proud of what you did accomplish! :)

Also wanted to add that stew sounds really good right now..lol!
 
Hello and thank you ladies for stoping by my diary!

Ok So I have been MIA mostly du to the stupid contract wich is now over :) It went well but a lot of nights I stayed up till 1am to get it done on time and finally finished it by 8 pm last friday!!! All to late night and early morning (gotta get the kiddos ready for school!) Made my eat anything in sight! REally anything! Si I weighted in aat 198 last week :( not happy bout it but what can I do what is done is done....now that the contract is over, and I have my days to myself until I find a job I plan to make up for it! I found a new snack really an obsession...frozen fruits....I take em out the the freezer bout 10 min prior to eating kind of replaces ice cream ! Dropping off my baby boy to school was hard this week...I no longer have babies, they are growing up so fast...he did a great job he was a bit nervous but didnt cry, I could barely make back to my car without crying. Sorry my tought are all a little jumbled up this morning, I have an interview at the school board tommorow and really want the job! Also got my passports on Monday! In march my inlaws are paying a trip for the whole familly! So this should motivate me big time! I don't want to sit on the beach in republic or cuba or whereever we are going weighing 198... I would like to be around 150's and also I was to be more fit so today I will to a fitness test....how many crunches and pushups I can do, also how long I can run on the threadmill without stoping......I will take note of it on here.....and once a month I will restest myself just so I don't only focus on the weight loss but on the health aspect of it...I am sure that doing all that can't hurt my weighloss goal! My goal is to be in the 150's by march 7 2014! I will try and catch up on your diaries today!!!
 
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