Little John
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Don't dwell on yesterday Mandy, just do what you can to rectify it today! Keep up the good work!
My Journey 2015: This Time Stronger and Smarter!
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MandyH
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Cate, the tough part is for the past 10 years I’ve been the one with the candy dish in her office. I feel like a lot of my coworkers depend on me having a stash. LOL I think I may just start buying the ones I don’t like so I know I won’t eat it. That way I won’t be letting anyone down.
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So, interesting shopping trip. I’ve never been the type to hold eye contact with anyone. Just part of the whole low self-esteem thing I guess. Well tonight I saw this guy, he was very attractive, he was in shape (his arms were to die for… I’m an arm girl), he was seemingly way out of my league… at least all the stereotypical logic said he was. Our eyes met, I held the look, he smiled and nodded, I did the same, and I got the butterfly feeling that I hardly ever get. No words were exchanged, but it was nice to have an attractive guy acknowledge me in that way.
I probably sound like a little teenager there, but it was pretty cool. I guess my self-esteem and confidence is starting to build up a bit which is a good thing. Next step will be actually trying to talk… that’ll take some work!
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So, interesting shopping trip. I’ve never been the type to hold eye contact with anyone. Just part of the whole low self-esteem thing I guess. Well tonight I saw this guy, he was very attractive, he was in shape (his arms were to die for… I’m an arm girl), he was seemingly way out of my league… at least all the stereotypical logic said he was. Our eyes met, I held the look, he smiled and nodded, I did the same, and I got the butterfly feeling that I hardly ever get. No words were exchanged, but it was nice to have an attractive guy acknowledge me in that way.
I probably sound like a little teenager there, but it was pretty cool. I guess my self-esteem and confidence is starting to build up a bit which is a good thing. Next step will be actually trying to talk… that’ll take some work!
MandyH
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LaMaria - unfortunately, the GM where I work is the biggest "hitter" on my candy dish. He makes frequent trips into my office just for that purpose. I really like him though and I know he likes me (professionally of course) so I'd hate to "disappoint" him by not providing sweets. LOL
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Yesterday's weight was 215.8lb again, today 215lb. I'm still working through my binge last weekend, but getting there. I have a feeling what my weight issue is this week is due to excessive sugar intake which is causing inflammation. I'm sure I'll be back on track soon.
Yesterday's exercise was a nice long walk with the dogs. Today, I haven't done anything yet, busy doing other things. Tomorrow I'm planning on Taebo in the morning.
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Yesterday's weight was 215.8lb again, today 215lb. I'm still working through my binge last weekend, but getting there. I have a feeling what my weight issue is this week is due to excessive sugar intake which is causing inflammation. I'm sure I'll be back on track soon.
Yesterday's exercise was a nice long walk with the dogs. Today, I haven't done anything yet, busy doing other things. Tomorrow I'm planning on Taebo in the morning.
MandyH
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Cate - I hear you. I think I found a good solution though. This weekend I bought chocolates that I know I don't like (Almond Joy, Mounds, Rolos) so there is absolutely no temptation to be had this week. I'll be a-ok this week. I think they'd throw fruit at me if I tried a healthy, fruit bowl!
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This weekend I found another guilty, somewhat healthier, guilty pleasure. I bought some dark chocolate and made some chocolate covered strawberries and bananas. Dark chocolate is on my "ok to eat" list as long as it's in moderation. I did eat a bit more than I should've, but I think I did pretty well considering. I also made some carrot cake muffins using a healthier Paleo recipe which came out really good. Overall, a pretty good weekend for food intake.
Weight is slowly getting back down to where it was. Weighed in at 213.4lb this morning. I woke up to do Taebo this morning, but my father was in the bathroom which ruined my plans. I thought about trying to get through it, but when nature is calling it makes working out hard. I ended up laying in bed and fell back to sleep. Will be walking tonight.
One thing that I really hate is waking up after having a dream that you just didn't want it to end. Last night I had one. It was weird, but good. I was coming out of a shopping complex and my cousin was waiting for me in the parking lot. She came running and told me there was someone who wanted to see me so I followed her. There were two guys who were very near and dear to me during my teen years, but I haven't seen them in years. Of course I ran up to them and we exchanged bear hugs, I started crying when hugging one of them, and then we started to chat. That was when my damn alarm went off. The funny thing is that even though I haven't seen either of them in years, I am friends with them on Facebook. We just don't talk for some reason. I think I may need to initiate something. Seems odd to have them both pop up in my dream like that.
I think I found a good solution though. This weekend I bought chocolates that I know I don't like (Almond Joy, Mounds, Rolos) so there is absolutely no temptation to be had this week. I'll be a-ok this week. I think they'd throw fruit at me if I tried a healthy, fruit bowl! ~~
This weekend I found another guilty, somewhat healthier, guilty pleasure. I bought some dark chocolate and made some chocolate covered strawberries and bananas. Dark chocolate is on my "ok to eat" list as long as it's in moderation. I did eat a bit more than I should've, but I think I did pretty well considering. I also made some carrot cake muffins using a healthier Paleo recipe which came out really good. Overall, a pretty good weekend for food intake.
Weight is slowly getting back down to where it was. Weighed in at 213.4lb this morning. I woke up to do Taebo this morning, but my father was in the bathroom which ruined my plans. I thought about trying to get through it, but when nature is calling it makes working out hard. I ended up laying in bed and fell back to sleep. Will be walking tonight.
One thing that I really hate is waking up after having a dream that you just didn't want it to end. Last night I had one. It was weird, but good. I was coming out of a shopping complex and my cousin was waiting for me in the parking lot. She came running and told me there was someone who wanted to see me so I followed her. There were two guys who were very near and dear to me during my teen years, but I haven't seen them in years. Of course I ran up to them and we exchanged bear hugs, I started crying when hugging one of them, and then we started to chat. That was when my damn alarm went off. The funny thing is that even though I haven't seen either of them in years, I am friends with them on Facebook. We just don't talk for some reason. I think I may need to initiate something. Seems odd to have them both pop up in my dream like that.
dudeitstime
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Dream was definitely trying to nudge you on. You're always cooking some interesting things. Loss is loss! Sucks about the taebo being ruined. The part where you went back to bed reminded me of a work out video I saw. Guy was doing jumping jacks and telling you to do them anyway you can, then he just laid down and did them from the ground. Reminded me of that, was funny at the time, but makes sense for those that are probably not at the point that they can do it normally. Sometimes it's just not meant to be, working out, that is! Always a chance to raise some hell tomorrow. Keep it up!
MysticRealm
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I totally understand you on the 'not holding eye contact thing'. I almost never can lock eyes with someone and if I do it's for a millisecond then I look away which certainly doesn't encourage the other person to initiate a conversation or anything. Which makes my appear to have a big 'F*** Off!' plastered on my forehead. So good for you for doing it!
I agree that you need to get in contact with those guys in your dream!
I agree that you need to get in contact with those guys in your dream!
MandyH
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Long time no check in! Sorry about that. Life got busy and the internet took the back burner for a bit. I'm back on... for now... and hopefully it's for good.
Thankfully, the hectic pace didn't interfere with my diet too badly. I did consume a bit more junk than usual, but nothing horrible and it was nowhere near being out of hand as it was in the past. As a result I still lost weight. This morning I hit a new low (this time around) of 210.6lb. For the most part my normal meals were on track, it was the snacking where I ran into trouble. I also ate out a few times due to not having time to cook. Oh well... such is life.
On another really awesome note, I got to go on my first whale watch last weekend and I'll be going again tomorrow. It was only in the 50s last week, will be the same this weekend so we really had to bundle up. My hands and feet got cold, but the rest stayed nice and toasty. I can't say how much the ocean helps me cope with things. It really is my sanctuary... my only escape. I feel so relaxed after spending the day there.
Here are some pics from last week.
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Thankfully, the hectic pace didn't interfere with my diet too badly. I did consume a bit more junk than usual, but nothing horrible and it was nowhere near being out of hand as it was in the past. As a result I still lost weight. This morning I hit a new low (this time around) of 210.6lb. For the most part my normal meals were on track, it was the snacking where I ran into trouble. I also ate out a few times due to not having time to cook. Oh well... such is life.
On another really awesome note, I got to go on my first whale watch last weekend and I'll be going again tomorrow. It was only in the 50s last week, will be the same this weekend so we really had to bundle up. My hands and feet got cold, but the rest stayed nice and toasty. I can't say how much the ocean helps me cope with things. It really is my sanctuary... my only escape. I feel so relaxed after spending the day there.
Here are some pics from last week.
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dudeitstime
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Welcome back! What Taebo one are you doing currently? Those pictures are awesome by the way. Always good to be able to get away to a certain part that calms us.
MandyH
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Oaks, thanks! I think I kind of sabotaged my new low over the weekend last weekend. On the go all weekend so had a lot of take out. My weight went up to 213lb from Mon-Wed and then today it was 211.6lb so at least it's heading back down again.
Dude, my favorite Taebo right now is called "Taebo Classic". It's about an hour and boy does it get my heart going and my body sweating. After I haven't done it for a few weeks this one is the one that takes me the longest to recover from. Literally I deal with muscle pain all over for a good few days before I can move normally again. It's a great one for sure and I saw great results with it. I also rotate in This is Taebo and a Taebo Cardio one from Youtube which has gotten too easy for me, but it's only 35 minutes so if I'm pressed for time I do that one.
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Alright, so this part is going to be very real and likely long. I'm single and have been the majority of my life. I'm straight and love looking at guys, but never really met one who I really clicked with and was content with being single. Not to mention, I find young guys to be really immature and just had no interest in getting into that. I do like not having to check with "him" when making plans. I like my freedom even though I'm a major homebody for the most part. I like being me and doing what I need/want to do. For a while now though I've been thinking about my age (mid 30s) and am realizing that maybe I would like to be in a relationship. I mean at the end of the day, I really don't want to die alone! The problem? I have this horrible knack for falling for guys who are not available. Over the past couple of years there were two guys who I really liked. One was older and married and the other is my age, but is in a serious relationship with kids. A couple of weeks ago I met a new guy and I just cannot get him out of my head! Literally, I'm at work and can't focus because he keeps popping into my head. It's driving me mad. Just thinking about him gives me butterflies which I've never really felt before about any of the other guys. This guy just feels really different. He's nothing at all like the guys I've liked in the past physically. I tend to like clean cut guys (weight's not really an issue since I certainly can't talk, I just like the cleaner look), but this guy has more of a scruffy look with long hair and a beard. His personality is pretty awesome from what I've seen so far. He was very kind and went out of his way to be nice to me and we chatted online for a bit and he made it sound like he wanted to get to know me more. All good signs I thought! The problem.... just earlier this week I found out that he has kids, young kids. I'm not sure if his girlfriend (or wife - although he doesn't wear a ring) is still in the picture or not. If she is, I'm certainly not getting involved, but then again I'm not so sure I want to get involved with a guy who has young kids either. At my age that'll be hard to come by though. Grrrrr! This whole romance, love thing sure can be a pain! Ok... just a little vent that I had to get out.
Dude, my favorite Taebo right now is called "Taebo Classic". It's about an hour and boy does it get my heart going and my body sweating. After I haven't done it for a few weeks this one is the one that takes me the longest to recover from. Literally I deal with muscle pain all over for a good few days before I can move normally again. It's a great one for sure and I saw great results with it. I also rotate in This is Taebo and a Taebo Cardio one from Youtube which has gotten too easy for me, but it's only 35 minutes so if I'm pressed for time I do that one.
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Alright, so this part is going to be very real and likely long. I'm single and have been the majority of my life. I'm straight and love looking at guys, but never really met one who I really clicked with and was content with being single. Not to mention, I find young guys to be really immature and just had no interest in getting into that. I do like not having to check with "him" when making plans. I like my freedom even though I'm a major homebody for the most part. I like being me and doing what I need/want to do. For a while now though I've been thinking about my age (mid 30s) and am realizing that maybe I would like to be in a relationship. I mean at the end of the day, I really don't want to die alone! The problem? I have this horrible knack for falling for guys who are not available. Over the past couple of years there were two guys who I really liked. One was older and married and the other is my age, but is in a serious relationship with kids. A couple of weeks ago I met a new guy and I just cannot get him out of my head! Literally, I'm at work and can't focus because he keeps popping into my head. It's driving me mad. Just thinking about him gives me butterflies which I've never really felt before about any of the other guys. This guy just feels really different. He's nothing at all like the guys I've liked in the past physically. I tend to like clean cut guys (weight's not really an issue since I certainly can't talk, I just like the cleaner look), but this guy has more of a scruffy look with long hair and a beard. His personality is pretty awesome from what I've seen so far. He was very kind and went out of his way to be nice to me and we chatted online for a bit and he made it sound like he wanted to get to know me more. All good signs I thought! The problem.... just earlier this week I found out that he has kids, young kids. I'm not sure if his girlfriend (or wife - although he doesn't wear a ring) is still in the picture or not. If she is, I'm certainly not getting involved, but then again I'm not so sure I want to get involved with a guy who has young kids either. At my age that'll be hard to come by though. Grrrrr! This whole romance, love thing sure can be a pain! Ok... just a little vent that I had to get out.
MysticRealm
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You sound a lot like me! I'm pretty ok with being single. Love doing my own thing, not having to deal with anyone else if I don't want to, but sometimes I think that MAYBE it'd be nice. I don't think I could do kids though!
Oaks
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The kids thing would definitely be tough. But if he IS single, and you start to get to know him better, it might be quite some time before you'd meet any kids (in my opinion it should be, anyway). You could find out you really don't like him and it's not even worth thinking about, or that you like him so much that you've changed your mind about them. I'd say just try to keep an open mind!
MandyH
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Mystic, I definitely think I'm putting the cart ahead of the horse here. I need to just slow down and have fun with this. We'll see where it goes. The kid prospect does worry me though.
Oaks, I agree it should be a while before I met the kids if it ever came to that. I'm perfectly fine with that and actually prefer it that way. We'll see how it goes....
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So I saw this guy in question again yesterday. Huge smiles on both of our faces when I said hi and we chatted a bit later on as well. It's an awkward situation of where we see each other. We can't just sit down and chat, but we do have a few minutes here and there which is nice. Again, he went out of his way and stuck his neck out there to be really sweet to me. I want to just ask straight up if he's single, but I'm not that direct. *sigh* I really, really, REALLY like this guy. There's just something about him.
In weight news, I had a new low (this time around) this morning. Weighed in at 209.4lb. I could not believe the scale so I weighed in two more times, all three had the same result. I could not be happier with the progress I'm seeing now considering I have hit a few bumps along the way.
More of the same for this week...
I will try to catch up on your diaries tonight. I have to run out to a relatives to shower because we have no water (our pump broke down last night.... grrrrr!).
Oaks, I agree it should be a while before I met the kids if it ever came to that. I'm perfectly fine with that and actually prefer it that way. We'll see how it goes....
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So I saw this guy in question again yesterday. Huge smiles on both of our faces when I said hi and we chatted a bit later on as well. It's an awkward situation of where we see each other. We can't just sit down and chat, but we do have a few minutes here and there which is nice. Again, he went out of his way and stuck his neck out there to be really sweet to me. I want to just ask straight up if he's single, but I'm not that direct. *sigh* I really, really, REALLY like this guy. There's just something about him.
In weight news, I had a new low (this time around) this morning. Weighed in at 209.4lb. I could not believe the scale so I weighed in two more times, all three had the same result. I could not be happier with the progress I'm seeing now considering I have hit a few bumps along the way.
More of the same for this week...
I will try to catch up on your diaries tonight. I have to run out to a relatives to shower because we have no water (our pump broke down last night.... grrrrr!).