My Journal;

Katherine.

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Hello everyone,

My name is Katherine and I felt it was necessary to make this diary to help me express my feelings and my difficulty while I go through the long and hard process of changing my life. I will post feelings, updates, and maybe even some pictures to help you get to know me more as a person, and hopefully eventually to help inspire you. Whether it be to NOT let yourself get this far, or to make you kick your butt and start working hard! Be committed!

So to help you get to know me, as a person, I will tell you a bit about me I guess? I am 17, born Feb 9th, 1993. I am classified as morbidly obese, weighing 299 lbs.

I live in Ontario, Canada. Always have, and I love it. The cold is awesome, but I don't live in an igloo, and NO it is not always cold it. In fact, I heard temperatures in the US actually are very similar to the temperatures here. :D

I am currently attending high school, and even though you'd think this year would be my last, I have another to go. I was in an accident Jan 31st, 2008. I was hit by a truck, and I broke my femur bone. A month and a bit into a new relationship with an amazing person I met online, I felt that by the time I was out, he would've forgotten all about me. Bored out of my mind in this hospital for 2 weeks, I was finally able to leave my room, and go to a kids lounge down a few floors. They had computers. I instantly went onto Myspace, and found all sorts of messages from my boyfriend. I replied, telling him I was fine, and left him a number. He called me later, and every other day for the last week I was there. It was amazing. <3 But yea, due to this accident, I missed the last half of grade 9, and since then have been in this ditch. I just don't want to go. But I'm trying, and I will graduate.

Matthew John Morrison, you are amazing. 3 years now we have been together, and it just feels so right. We have our fights, and little fits here and there, but everyone does.

So yea, that is just a bit about me, probably more than you wanted to know though. I will continue to post updates and entries when the feelings strike.

It was nice meeting you all!

~Katherine


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Stolen from the stickie! ;3

How much weight do you want to lose?

I would like to lose 164 lbs.


What is the time frame for reaching your target weight?

A lifetime. I don't want to set a time frame. Then I feel like it's just a 2 month diet, and not a lifestyle change. I want to commit to a healthy eating plan and stick to it. I want this to be long term. This is not a diet. This is me, restarting my life.


How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?

I will start by counting calories, and taking walks. I will try to get my ATLEAST 30 mins of exercise in everyday. I will drink more, because 1 drink a day is not healthy. As I lose weight, it will become easier to exercise, and the high risk of hurting myself won't be there anymore. I will then begin to gradually get into an exercise routine that suit my lifestyle at that point in time. Being a teenager, almost done in high school means my schedule isn't always going to be the same. I want to make this work.


Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?

My mom is there to support me, as we are doing this together, my boyfriend will support me all the way as he always does, my friend Raylene, and you guys I hope! Any support is still support. I'll take whatever you've got! :D


How realistic is your goal?

I don't see anything unrealistic about trying to change your life, and starting over. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be healthier.


When will you start?

Yesterday! :D
 
Hi! Saw you stopped by my journal, so I decided to return the favor. I love your attitude about not "dieting" and making a lifestyle change. That is what really helped me lose my first 30 and keep it off! I am looking foreward to watching you reach your goals and continue down a healthier happier lifestyle! Good luck!
 
Hi! Thought I'd pop in and just welcome you! (I think Ontario's pretty awesome too - my grandparents live there ... and it's really not that cold!) It looks like you've really got a good group of people around who can support you, and I've found that once I'd gone through the first few weeks it really got so much easier :D
 
looks like you have it all under control, good luck and I will drop in from time to time to check up on ya.
 
Day 2

Thanks. I hope things get easier. I seem to have constant cravings! GAH! Gewy greasy cheese.. mmmmm. Today I'm trying to drink more, sadly, I've accomplished only 1 cup of water this morning, and almost all of this bottle of water. >.< The day is basically over. I did get some exercise in, walking around at lunch with a friend, and then I found this video.. walking a mile or something, and followed it. It lasted about 15 mins, which isn't 30.. but is something. And boy was I tired after it. So I feel good about today, 1300 calories, maybe another 156 if I want a piece of apple bread. :3 Breads, cakes, buns, and pasta. My weak spots. I can't live without them...

Hopefully, PICTURES tomorrow. You all get to see how fat I am in my short pajama shorts and a tank top! Fun, eh? ;3

~Night!
 
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at 1300 calories at your current weight I think your cutting calories to quickly, work out what your normal diet was for calories and cut it down by around 200-500 cals if you cut to much to soon you will have firstly a hard time sticking to your diet/lifestyle change and you will have limited options for cutting calories further when your weight drops then plateaus.
 
My main problems were portions and fatty foods. Honestly tho, I feel as if I am eating more, and becoming more full now, then before. I do understand that 1300 calories is MUCH littler than my previous daily meals, but look at it this way, once I post that, I'm gonna think well hey.. I'm under 2000 calories still. Then go have a nice snack. ;3 (yogurt, pears, tangerines, apple bread)

I'm now at around 1700 calories for the day, and for sure going to bed, and I never finished that dang bottle of water. >.<

Can anyone share some tips with how they get their water down? ;3
 
Day 3

Okay, So I woke up at around 8:30. Which was nice, since I didn't have to get up at 6:30 for school. I had 1 cup of Special K cereal, with 1/3 cup of milk. That was 120 + 37ish calories for breakfast. Then I finally soaked the Brita Filter that has been sitting in our kitchen FOREVER, and poured myself a glass. I had 2 sips, and dumped the rest. I just.. can't drink it. Matt told me to try freezing water, and it'll taste better, and then I can drink it in bits as it defrosts. For lunch I had some Minestrone Soup, 150 calories, and some wholewheat bread with margarine, 230 calories, so 380 calories for lunch. Then for a snack, 1/2 of canned pears, 70 calories, and a piece of apple bread, 156.

120 Cereal
37 Milk
150 Soup
170 Bread
60 Margarine
70 Pears
156 Apple Bread
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763 Calories

My dinner is going to be some "Smackaroni" from the Eat, Shrink, & Be Merry" cookbook, and then maybe some yogurt? And if the Smackaroni is small, maybe some salad on the side! :D

My main issue I feel right now, is drinking water. And I'm gonna be retaining a TON of water now, thanks to my awesome "girly thing" (I laughs at you Matt!).

OHH! And my mom, being so obsessed with weighing herself, made me hop on the scale today, I'm down to 294.8 lbs I think it was. It's only been two days, today is day 3. So... That was odd for me to see. But still, I'm only going to update my ticker once a week, during week results aren't going to satisfy me, cause things can change daily, so.. come Thursday, I will update you guys on my first week! :D

There is tons of snow today, so I really don't feel like doing anything but sleep, so maybe later I'll go outside and shovel all this dang snow! That will be some exercise. Then maybe some homework, and Matt studying, since my Exams are in a week. >.<

I'll talk to you guys later,

~Cya!
 
Ugh. I feel like crap today. Being a girl sucks. My stomach is hurting, there is pain shooting up my leg, and all I want to do is sleep, but then my leg hurts more when I lay down!!! GAH! I hate the winter. I just want to hibernate like a bear. Where is my Matty when I wants to snuggle?! Lols. <3
 
Day 4

So,

I never came back yesterday, due to the EVIL spider in my room. I finished at 1,800 calories yesterday, and as of this morning I was down 6.4 lbs. Today was good, omg was it ever! I was so full, and so satisfied, Salsa Chicken I love you. <3

Cereal 110
Milk 28

Kimchi Soup 400
Bread 85
Margarine 30

Apple Bread x2 312

Salsa Chicken
Warm Potato Salad
Total for supper 464

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1429 Calories today.


I'm actually really full, cause I managed to drink 4 cups of water today, and a can of diet cola. ;3 Today has been great, and I can totally see myself doing this for the rest of my life. There is no stopping me! I am the determination train! :drool5:

So yup, just a quick post for today, cause I don't want that pesky spider to show up! Lols. Night everyone!

~Katherine




OHH! I forgot, We brought up the treadmill today from the basement, I started cleaning it, but cigarette smoke is evil to scrub off! Lols. That will be my dads job, and hopefully I can use it tomorrow! AND!!!! I took pictures today with my mom, so that will be a great thing to post, once I finally find that pesky USB cord that is hiding on me. Why must it be smaller then the other 4 I have! :(
 
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Hey! Thankyous for the friend request, firstly. :3

Secondly, sounds like you're doing awesome so far. 6.4lbs in a week would be a dream for most. ^^ And a treadmill? Awesome. I've always liked exercising alone; makes you feel good when people see you a couple months after you've started, not knowing, and being all, wtf?! how are you doing this?

Haha. :) Good luck, my friend. May the force and weight-loss.fitness.com be with you.
 
Sounds like your doing really well hun. Ive only just started to loose weight myself and it is pretty tough, right? But im guessing it will come easier with time :)
 
Hi! Just stopping in to say good luck! Little changes here and there are the easiest to maintain, otherwise you get the whole "diet" thing you're trying to avoid. About the water, when I find myself in need of some hydration I add a crystal light packet to a bottle of water. Then I can down a bottle in no time!
 
Day 5

Breakfast

Special K 120
Milk 28


Lunch

3 slices of chicken bacon 90
2 slices of stone ground bread 140
1 tsp margarine 30
1tsp mayonnaise 15


Supper

Chicken 250
Potato Salad Leftover 151


Total so far 824

Maybe I'll treat myself and have some corn chips tonight! :D And I walked home today in the cold, for 30 mins! ;3

No snacks yet. And no weight change today. I think it'd because of my girl thing... because I only ate 1569 calories yesterday, I added in a yogurt after I posted for the night. Lol. ;3
 
So,

I had some crystal light! ;3 Strawberry Banana Orange flavoured, 5 calories a pack. It's yummy! I had some in a re-usable bottle of mine. I then walked on the treadmill... for 10 minutes. OMG. It's an evil, amazingly old, not one of those cool ones that plugs in and goes by itself, treadmills. YOU have to push. And wow, my legs were burning, and I was sweating like crazy. I would rather walk an hour outside then do 15 mins on that thing. PSH!

So from my 824 total for meals, I had some corn chips, 260, and was stuffed, then forced myself to eat a pack of fruit chews just to get up to that 1200 mark. I'm now at 1284 calories for the day.. plus 5 I guess for the crystal light! ;3

I'm so stuffed lately. I feel like I have more energy, and I'm not as tired. I looked in the mirror today, and I feel like my face is not as oily as it was. It's my girly thing, and my face isn't breaking out yet.. It's weird. >.<

My mom was talking to a friend, about how we took some before pictures, to compare to next month, and she laughed at my mom saying "You don't think you guys are actually going to stick to this do you?" PSH. It's not hard.. it's easy, and I feel full, and better about myself.

OHH! And, water does make me feel full. I had 1 1/2 cups today at lunch, oh gosh it filled me up so much. Then had the 2 cups after dinner, so I wouldn't want to snack like crazy. It worked. Then I struggled to get my 1200 calories in. >.<

So I have this feeling my weight isn't going to move tomorrow, or go up, cause of my stupid girly thing as well.. so it's going to be very discouraging. I'm not too excited about seeing it tomorrow. But, I know it's just lying to me. Evil body, retaining water for a week. GRR.

Going to watch the season premiere of Heavy on A&E, hoping to see some tips or maybe get some inspiration, or even learn maybe something new as to WHY I was eating so much.

Night everyone,
Happy lifestyle changes! Lol ;3

~Katherine
 
Day 6

So,

It is Tuesday. Thursday is my weigh-in day. I'm excited to see my total for the week. I actually lost some LBS, plural, when I weighed myself this morning. I'm down a total of 9 lbs. ;3

Cereal 120
Milk 28
Hard boiled Egg 70


Salsa Cheddar Chicken & Rice 478


Kentucky Freud Chicken 250
Rice 178

Total 1124 (trusting Matts adding skillsss)

I'm at 3 1/2 cups of water, about to have another 2. ;3 So I'm working on it! Snacks will probably be some corn chips later, because I haven't made any more apple or banana bread >.< I will I swear, just.. I can't do egg whites, so I have to get my mom to do it. So add another 260 I guess for corn chips! Off to do some review for my exams next week, then watch some Teen Mom 2!! ;3

Night everyone!
~Katherine
 
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