ok this is my first attemp at journaling so its going to be a work in process.
im thirtyseven years old and have been struggling with my weight since the second grade. ive done the yo yo dieting and have gone up and down since i was fourteen. i still remeber starting a new school in seventh grade and being picked on none stop because of my weight. so i decided that during spring break i would starve myself and exersise(wich i did) i think i lost sixty lbs in those three monthes. i also passed out a few times i believe from lack of nutrition. but when i got back to school i was talk of the town and i loved the attention! this has happened a couple of times now. why did i have to be skinny to get treated decent? im still trying to figure that out. im not trying to come off as bitter(maybe a little). but im finley starting to realize that everytime i was trying to lose weight goes back to that first time when i was fourteen. i lost it because i wanted people to like me(just typing this makes me think how messed up of a thought process that is). i need to do this for me and because ill feel better not because of what other people think about me. i mean theres skinny people i dont care for, and its not because there skinny i just cant stand them!
so heres my first attempt enough of my ranting
i lost 9 lbs this week !!!
im thirtyseven years old and have been struggling with my weight since the second grade. ive done the yo yo dieting and have gone up and down since i was fourteen. i still remeber starting a new school in seventh grade and being picked on none stop because of my weight. so i decided that during spring break i would starve myself and exersise(wich i did) i think i lost sixty lbs in those three monthes. i also passed out a few times i believe from lack of nutrition. but when i got back to school i was talk of the town and i loved the attention! this has happened a couple of times now. why did i have to be skinny to get treated decent? im still trying to figure that out. im not trying to come off as bitter(maybe a little). but im finley starting to realize that everytime i was trying to lose weight goes back to that first time when i was fourteen. i lost it because i wanted people to like me(just typing this makes me think how messed up of a thought process that is). i need to do this for me and because ill feel better not because of what other people think about me. i mean theres skinny people i dont care for, and its not because there skinny i just cant stand them!
so heres my first attempt enough of my ranting
i lost 9 lbs this week !!!
How much total do you want to lose?
