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nuiico

nuiico

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hello, if you're viewing my journal.. how cool of you!

i feel it's about time i start putting down something as frequently as possible when it comes to my progress. im currently holding myself to a challenge. to lose 20 lbs by spring.

this coming summer i want to wear a bikini and swim! last summer i wanted to do nothing else but was far too self conscious to allow myself fun. how silly. it shouldn't matter how you look it's dumb to do that to yourself. but i do. yet, at the same time, being hard on myself is a source of motivation.

anyway, this is something i need. an attainable goal to work towards. one that i will either fail or achieve. of course i wont look at losing 5 or 10 pounds as failure.. but i wouldn't have achieved what i set out to do either.

This is something I've struggled with ever since high school. I haven't been a slim version of myself since i was a kid. SO i haven't had any self confidence well ever. I'd like to change that. I'm tired of dodging cameras, hiding myself under unflattering clothes, and holding myself back from life.

I'm thinking in a more realistic way then i used to. maybe im finally figuring out how this weight loss stuff works. it doesn't seem to matter how much logical, informed, experienced advice someone gives.. unless you take it.

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well i've attached the progress photos i have. i haven't taken any new ones because i haven't changed enough for it to matter. hopefully by march 21st i'll have something to mention.
 
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thanks for the boosts guys :)
i think i may have finally gotten over my plateau. I've been stuck at 190 for months no matter what. but one day i stepped on the scale and it said 185.... i was like.. "wuuut?" and stepped on it 5 times just to make sure. yeep. somehow. anyway. i am currently teetering between 185 and 190 so im going to step it up so i can start my progress rolling again instead of being in this limbo.
 
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it's been a couple weeks or so since I've gotten on the journal. haven't really had a reason to update. i can see there has been little to no activity on here.. but i guess thats not why i made this. im kind of being a mope because lately i feel no one cares what i do.

i didn't begin celebrating xmas until January 1st and its now finally over. I've been very busy from morning till night and unable to be in a regular workout routine. luckily I seem to have maintained my weight. next week i can start working towards my spring goal again.

PS
this year some photo's were taken of me and i wasn't disgusted by them!!
maybe i'll get copys of em and post them later on.
 
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nuiico said:
it's been a couple weeks or so since I've gotten on the journal. haven't really had a reason to update. i can see there has been little to no activity on here.. but i guess thats not why i made this. im kind of being a mope because lately i feel no one cares what i do.

i didn't begin celebrating xmas until January 1st and its now finally over. I've been very busy from morning till night and unable to be in a regular workout routine. luckily I seem to have maintained my weight. next week i can start working towards my spring goal again.
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Hey,

I'm sure people do care what you do, but if you feel like that it's all the more reason to take control of the situation and do what pleases you... ie, lose the weight!

Christmas is a nightmare, but I think the most important thing is once it's over to draw a line under it and not let it stay an excuse to eat badly... We still have tonnes of chocs and sweets around the place, but I'm letting the other half work his way through it all while I sit and watch jealously!! I just remind myself they're not worth the extra lbs. :)

Anyway hope your weekend is going ok x
 
thanks ~tutti~ i agree. we can all feel down no matter how much we feel we've gotten a hold of a situation. guess i need to get a BETTER hold of the situation :)

yeh christmas is a hard time for being good on a diet. it aint no excuse. i may not have lost weight during the time but im just glad i didn't gain any weight.

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last saturday i left work and came home feeling very ill. didn't eat dinner and went to sleep. woke up periodically until finally i threw up the lunch i ate earlier that day. been sick and not really eating for 3 days. yay food poisoning! *blugh* i finally feel better though. going stir crazy from spending a couple days in bed.
 
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did my morning workout today. feeling pretty darn good! guess we'll see how this week goes. i really hope i can at least get down to 170ish by spring (- o -);
 
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