My Finish Line

abitofbliss said:
Hey Don! Thank you for the warm welcome! I have already dove into many different threads and I know it is going to be a hard yet positive journey with everyone in the forum working towards the same goal with good attitudes!

I can only imagine how you and your daughter felt having to exit the ride. It really hurt me to have to tell my boyfriend at the time that we couldn't go, luckily he understood without many details.

Everyday I/We are faced with the challenges of being overweight, lying or pretending there is not a problem would hurt me more than coming out and telling the truth. That is one of the many reason's I got "so bad" is because I was hiding from the scale and didn't want to confront myself with the truth of being obese.

I also uploaded my progress pics from my biggest, my smallest, and my current it was tough to post a picture of me 'skinny' only to show another of when I gained back almost 20lbs.

Again, thank you! And I also look forward to sharing our journey. Do you have a diary?
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The honesty part is what keeps many of us from succeeding, I think. Admitting that we hurt or are embarrassed, or angry because of issues related to our health and or weight is CRITICAL to keeping our heads in the game when the tough stretches in weight loss come... and they will come. I just remind myself every day that although 400 pounds is ridiculous and gross to me, it is a LOT better than when I was 450... or 430... or 410, for that matter. Every day I measure success in ways OTHER than my scale's reading... feeling stronger, more agile, looser, happier, more alert. In time, I will get on the Disney ride with my daughter again and put that old embarrassing memory to rest for good.

by the way, I do have a diary. Here's a link: Don Keykong. Drop in and visit anytime.
 
Hey Don! Thanks for sharing your diary link. I will go check it out!

You are so right! Progress is progress no matter how big or small! And I agree that the scale is not the only way to track your progress. Each day this week that I've woken up at 6:00a.m. is a miracle in itself, let alone work-out for 45mins thereafter.

I am so afraid of the weeks to come, I know myself, I know I start strong and never finish. I hope to keep this positive "SWOOSH" attitude and finally reach my goal! Thank you for sharing this with me!
 
abitofbliss said:
I am so afraid of the weeks to come, I know myself, I know I start strong and never finish. I hope to keep this positive "SWOOSH" attitude and finally reach my goal! Thank you for sharing this with me!
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Self Awareness is a GOOD start to solving that riddle. Knowing your propensity to "not finish", admitting it, and accepting it is how you behave gives you a good start at preventing it or reversing it once it has started. For me, the difference between this year and any other year I've tried to lose weight (and not finish, as you have) is the brutally honest way I look at and accept my failings in the area of health and weight. I have failed at caring for myself. Humility has been hard to come by for me in previous years... not this time. I have strengths and I have weaknesses... I just have to plan to accommodate and work around my weaknesses.

By the way, you look similar to and are about the same size as my oldest daughter -- she's 19. Looking at that picture of you surrounded by beer cups made me laugh, as I think that may be her arch nemesis right now... that, and the fast food that usually follows it. It also makes me thankful that NOBODY had cell cameras in hand when I was younger and partying. :)

Keep up the good work and take each day as it comes, for better or for worse. Just don't ever quit.
 
Thank you Don. I agree. I, too, plan to accommodate and work around my weakness. Often I restrict myself from something, like going out. But I now realize that if I don't allow myself to do something, then I rebel against it and do it anyway and feel like a total failure and quit altogether. Doing things like tomorrow, taking my best friend out... I am rewarding myself for my "job well done" and hopefully have a good healthy weekend and continue next week!

The worst is my payday weekend cause then I am like "WHOOOOP MONEYYY!". Haha I guess I need to join a saving money forum too!

My friend just recently sent me that picture. I was like WHOA!!! I saw the picture back when it was taken but not since I made a huge dent in my weight-loss. I love beer so much, and have a problem only drinking a few.



So, I am getting a little hungry and foggy. I didn't have my usual 4 meals today because my groceries are all run out so my gym time will probably be low-intensity. I am very excited to get to the grocery store and start eating more. I am getting advice from others that I should have upwards of 1600 calories. I am afraid of that, but we'll see!
 
Ah I have been struggling for awhile knowing that this weekend is the big St. Patty's Day bar crawl. I don't drink too much (anymore...:blush5:) so I am rationalizing that I deserve one day of debauchery. I just don't want it to throw me off completely. :-/

I've also been trying to do some research revolving around "healthier" cocktails (haha). Usually I stick with vodka and cranberry. Then after three I want to go to sleep.
 
Camila ~ I'm sooo Irish and didn't even remember that was coming up! Well, I would say go with a plan and stick to it but that's advice I don't follow myself... I love beer, it is a problem. I used to drink vodka, water, and mio when I went out. The mio is small enough to carry in a wristlet or whatever.

So, I leave work pretty frustrated and have to change @ the gym. All pumped up to start my workout my ride/guest is sitting there with a sad face because he left his ID in last nights gym clothes and they won't let him work out. The 3 people working happen to be ppl that rarely check us in, I was pretty bummed out. He was so sweet offering to go read comics while I work out but that's just &&&&&& a lil awkward. I came home and rode my bike about 4miles before it got too dark (the bike trail is pretty dark & sketchy and some teens got like killed and burned). Then I got back in touch with my mom for a sub and the card worked (whoop and whoops). I ordered it @ 7 and hulahooped til they got here around 7:20. So I wasn't a total pooper today but I still a little blahh.
 
Oh my goodness, hula-hooping! What fun! That's a bummer about the your friend! But at least you still got in a good workout. That says a lot about your determination! And that will take you very far.
 
Yeah. Although it wasn't the vigorous elliptical or weights I looked at myFitnessPal and saw 20/20/20 Walking/biking/hulahoop... I was like damn well a full hour (although spread out) is not terrible. Plus I must admit, I'm pretty sore. I think it's green tea and maybe bed time soon. Tomorrow is 'Pure Cardio'. Every time I think of it in my head I hear 'dun dun dunnnnn'
 
Pure Cardio sounds fantastic!! You will do amazingly. Mmm tea awhile before bedtime is perfect! Good job on the workout. Do you ever just love the feeling of soreness that comes after a great workout sesh? It is awesome!

Look forward to the benefits of the awesome things you are doing for yourself. What is that saying? You reap what you sow!
 
I do love the soreness. Except today I pulled a muscle or something in my groin, its sore, stretching it feels good though!

Good Morning! I did so-so this morning. Sometimes I can feel that I am not giving it my best, but its freaking 6am and I DONT WANNA MR.SHAUN T. haha. Still feeling like the people in the video are robots but I continue to remind myself that I am getting up and working up a sweat and I wasn't before.

Today is kinda tough, we have a lunch meeting so the owner thinks that we don't get a lunch hour even though it is considered "working". They are bringing pizza, I requested thin crust! So I won't get my walk in, BOO. And then the bestie is picking me up for some girl time and dinner. I will try to make the best decision and probably have some wine...Which is better than what I prefer (beeeeer).

With that said, I will have to bust ass this weekend! Insanity (last day for the week) tomorrow. And I'll probably do lots of bike riding, lots of stretching and probably the gym both days.

I cannot "weight" to weigh in on Monday.
 
It sounds like you have a great evening to look forward too! We do need treats!!!!!! :D
You have a cool exercise plan for the weekend - go you! With all that sure you'll have a great weigh in day on Monday!!!
 
I hope so! :) :)

I am on MyFitnessPal, and it's a little overwhelming I posted a question about calories I need since I am working out so hard, and they are saying like 1600-2220. UGH. That is so scary to think. Of course making it healthy food will help but damn, thats a lot to me. I guess coming from below 1000 is probably why.

I am looking forward to tonight, I am excited to hang with the bestie and hoping that it turns out to be a great evening.

Thought I would mention that my core is so like it never has been before. Usually if my belly gets sore its more towards the top, this is actually like lower abdomen soreness and it is kind of really excited because it shows me that although I am not 100% yet, the Insanity is tapping into muscles I haven't used for a while! :party:

SWOOOSH!
 
This is just great - I love finding "new" muscles, lol!!
SWOOOSH indeed hahaha! Have fun girl!!
 
Just finished our lunch meeting. I was able to hold back and only have 2 pieces of pepperoni pizza.. i am still kind of hungry so I'll eat an apple in an hour or so. I requested thin crust, and when the pizza came I asked "Thin Crust"? and she said "no". So I was like.. Damn, shoulda brought my own lunch. She flipped. I didn't say anything but I wanted to throw in her face that I asked her specifically yesterday for think crust OR I would bring my own lunch. I ate the whole 2 slices, even the crust. It was Flippers but I could not find their calorie count online anywhere so I just used Dominioe's in MFP and it came out to 600. Not terrible, but I'll have to take it easy tonight especially since I won't be hitting the gym.

By the way - It turns out that my gym had my friends ID since he accidentally left it there. I was like, oh awesome after they didn't let us work out yesterday.
 
Oh man frustrating days can be difficult! Sorry to hear :( But I think sometimes being thrust into unexpected situations with food can be a good test of willpower (if that makes any sense lol). It's a great skill to be able to deal with it and adjust, which you clearly did! So be proud of that!

Ugh, but that thing with the gym would make me say really sassy things to them. :eek:
 
Thanks Camila ~ You're right, and I did do alright, considering! I am kind of glad pizza day fell on best friend date day, cause now I'll get all my bad habits out in a single day and work to make up for it all over the weekend. I should be OK during the weekend... I DEFINITELY don't want to waste all my hard work this week so that will keep my head in the game.

I don't know if I mentioned to anyone here yet but I actually deactivated my Facebook a few weeks back. There was a few reasons. Mostly because I don't really talk to anyone on there, and nobody really stays in touch, for some reason I don't have many real friends. Secondly, I was on there too often at work, but thirdly is because I didn't like posting pictures of my current self.

So, my plan when I reach my goal is to log back in and post a brand new, new me profile picture. I am sure my first post will be like "I DID IT".

Not to say that reactivating will give me motivation to reach my goal, but it will be a nice little treat when I do :)
 
That is such a great goal! I love seeing when old friends or acquaintances put up stuff like that. I actually had a friend who put up a before and after from doing Insanity. It's cool to see people doing well for themselves and also motivates me!

I hardly ever post pics with me in them on Facebook lol. Maybe I will once I get this weight off!
 
Sounds like you did great today with 2 slices of pizza. That's one of my weakness foods. I used to get a medium pepperoni with extra cheese from Dominos and I'd eat half the pizza in one sitting. I probably could've gone for the whole thing, but I stopped at 4 slices. I haven't had pizza in a LONG time! Sounds good too! Oh well, not tonight!

I'm on Facebook too and I have only two pics of myself up there. The first pic was a couple of years ago and then newest pic (the same one in my profile here) was from a few weeks ago. I could see my face was getting thinner and my chins were going away so I said the heck with it and I took a few pics and posted my favorite. I hesitated at clicking that upload button, but to my surprise a lot of my friends commented that it was a great pic which kind of boosted my spirits a bit more. :)

Anyway, your plan to reactivate it with that message is a good one. I'm too addicted to Facebook to deactive my account. LOL
 
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