My Diary! A long hard road ahead!!

BuckeyeBaby17

BuckeyeBaby17

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Hey there everyone,

Finally decided to start a diary of my own in hopes this will really help me stay on track- I'm prone to slipping off the tracks and need some help and motivation... I've been around reading everyone else's posts for a little while now and it really helps!

I'm 22 years old 5'7 - and currently at 170lbs... my goal weight is 135lbs.

A change in lifestyle (Moving, not staying as busy, having a significant other who can eat WHATEVER he wants and still look incredible! etc...) caused me to gain about 35-40lbs in the last year and a half... it's like before u realize it, you've gained all this weight and have no idea what to do! But, by now I've obviously realized it... My problem is getting it offf!! I can't seem to stick to anything, and i guess this is because before i gained all this weight i never really had to watch to much of what i ate... and i still want to be able to do that and i can't if i want to drop weight- i just can't eat the same way as i did over a year ago! I got myself in this mess and i gotta get myself out! The question is how do i stay motivated.

It seems i always start the day well, and i eat pretty good/healthy all the way thru lunch- and i always have the best of intentions to work out when i get off work and so on- but time i get home from work, i feel like i am starving and go into bingeing mode sometimes! And i don't even think about how desperate and depressed i am to lose weight when I'm at that point and in that state of mind. And that's a problem. Also the last thing on earth i want to do when i get home is workout... i mean i really dread going to do anything like that... i would much rather workout in the morning to get it out of the way, but can't because I get up to go to work too early. And the gyms don't open early enough for me. Soooo... sort of a problem...

It comes down to, I badly want to be back at my original weight and to be happy with myself again- does anyone else have a similar story where u've gained a lot of weight like this? Because i feel it almost changes your personality in a way. I dont feel confident in myself, don't like how anything looks on me, and i don't want to do the same things i used to, i even don't want my husband to be around me sometimes- that's pretty bad... and a really shitty feeling.

I guess i just don't really know how to really get started and to stick with it and to constantly stay motivated... everyone says u just have to make yuorself go to the gym, blah blah blah- but it's def easier said than done...
 
I was in the same (ish) boat as you. I used to be able to eat anything and not gain a pound. Then it seemed like one day I woke up and was 80lbs heavier than I was (not literally lol, that was when I realized it). I stayed that way for years then one day I was watching oprah and something clicked that hey if I had started years ago when I first realized it, I would be back at my highschool weight again! I decided right then and there that this has to stop. I think I went a little hard core, since the day after I decided to loose the weight my fiancee had a tim horton's ice cappuccino (I totally love those) and I didn't even touch it, didn't even want to. I went grocery shopping and looked at all the labels and made good choices so I would be able to eat and not feel like I was starving. There is still all kinds of junk food in my house that my fiancee eats but all I have to do now is look at the calories and then I am grossed out by it and don't even want to eat it. I even went so far as bringing my own food when I went to people's houses, and if we decide to go out for supper I research the calories at different restaurants and decide what I am going to have before I leave the house.

I realized that before now I wasn't "ready" to loose the weight but now that I am I am very determined. The first couple days are a little tough but you get into a routine and now I can't eat anything too sugary or I don't feel good after.

You have taken the first step and you can do it. You just have to find a routine for diet and exercise that works for you. Good luck on your journey.
 
Hey Kgirl,

Thanks for the insight! It's nice to know someone else kind of went thru the same sort of situation. Sometimes i feel that way where i am disgusted by fattening foods etc... but then other times it's all i want! lol... the trick is staying in that state of mind! But, you definitely seem to have a good plan in motion!
 
Hi BuckeyeBaby,
My weight also just kinda happened over time without me noticing too much. When I actually weighed myself after a while, I was really surprised and started to change... and realizing that I've got to get rid of a lot of bad habits was tough.
As far as bingeing after work, try to eat a light snack before getting home if you can. That could keep you from overeating when you have food available. I usually go with a granola bar.
Good luck on reaching your goals! You can do it!
 
Sooo, today will be my first day back to the gym to try and get back to my old weight! I plan on starting out only doing cardio to lose most of my weight! I read something on exercises for the different body types on: (Good sight by the way!) that cardio w/ no resistance would be the best for me & my type. So today i will stick to the treadmill and elliptical machines. The following is what I've had so far:

Wake up 5:30am

Breakfast: Protein Shake
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Lean Cuisine (I usually eat these when im at work... just the easiest way to eat healthy/low cal) w/yogurt

My problem will still be once i get home and im waiting on my husband to get there so we can go to the gym and not being tempted! WILLPOWER come help me!!
 
Hey Sushi,

Sneaky isn't it! I feel like one day it just said to me "Gotcha bitch!" lol... I started to notice a little once i moved (to another state) with my husband (b/f at the time) but nothing major or anything- then we moved to Canada for his first job out of school (2 months later) and WHAM! i just realized i ballooned! I actually had gained the weight i am at right now fairly quickly! it wasn't a really slow gain over time. Because before i left home i was working, going to school and staying very busy all the time- once i moved a lot of that stopped... Sooo you don't realize how easy it is to gain 30 lbs just like that when u stop all the activity but keep up all ur old habits... =(

But i will definitely try to do the snack thinig before i get home- that could help out! Maybe i just go home and stay busy till he gets there- walk the dog/laundry anything!! Thanks again for the advice! And good luck to you!

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OH, i don't know how but i weighed myself this morning and it showed i was 167?? hmm...
 
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Last night i started back to the gym and feel pretty good... only the beginning though. But i did do well w/ not snacking when i got home! Yay!

So at the gym i ran for 4.35 Miles (1Hour) and burned a little over 500Calories... not too bad.

I wish i were already 3 weeks into it!! ... =(

I don't love going to the gym, but i hear that once you get into the routine of going consistantly it won't be so bad- and you might even start ENJOYING the gym... because fact of the matter is, you do feel better once you go, you have more energy, and u definitely sleep better...
 
I think we share some DNA. I am about your weight and looking to get to where you want to be as well. Seems a bit overwhelming. The only difference is, I go to the gym everyday in the morning. It seems to help. More importantly, it doesn't seem like a chore. If I had to go in the afternoon, I would NEVER get there. Every excuse in the book. Anyway, I started Isagenix yesterday and I walked almost 5 miles today and I gained about 20#'s in 4 months as my thyroid quit. No overeating, just a bum thyroid so now I have to get this off and I didn't even overeat to put it on. I plan on weighing myself everyday and see how it goes. If you need someone to chat with, I would like to.
 
BuckeyeBaby17, reading your first post was almost like reading my own thoughts lol.

I am female, 20 years old, and currently weigh 180Lbs. My goal is to reach 150Lbs by the end of this year. Eventually I'd like to be 145Lbs and never, ever, ever gain more than a couple pounds again. I feel like just yesterday I was 150Lbs and this weight just crept up on me so fast. I also have a boyfriend with a freak metabolism who constantly wants to go out for dinner or make unhealthy food... its really hard to resist when your trying to be good.

The one major difference between us is that I have have been a habitual yo-dieter for as long as I can remember. In fact, I can remember secretly ordering diet pills from a magazine when I was still in elementary school. The sad thing is I look at old photos and I was never fat. I wasn't even chubby... I just got "curves" ;) before the other girls. Up until recently my weight fluctuated pretty constantly between 150-160Lbs, but it never got this bad.

I joined the site because I thought it would be nice to have some support, and to feel accountable for my actions. It's hard because I can remember being so hard on myself for weighing 155Lbs, so seeing 180Lbs on the scale is pretty devastating. I've lost weight so many times only to gain it back again that I seem to have lost all motivation. Any little craving just sends me right off track. But I am really sick and tired of feeling bad about my body so I'm ready for change.
 
Hey, im going through the same thing. I'm 18 years old and weigh 162. Most of the weight gathers in my stomach and i've just had enough! Its so hard for me to stay motivated...I just want to feel confident about my body. Im so glad I found this forum and saw that other people are going through the same exact thing...its easier when you arent in it alone !
 
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